Super Stressed Out!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jan 15, 2008

ALright with all the Holiday eating and getting extremely sick, my weight fluctuated from 200 to 202 to 197 to 203, so yeah. I just can't seem to get to onderland and stay there for long. I am going to my fast action plan and have 2 protein shakes a day and one meal for a week to kick this in the butt. I am almost to my one year surgerversary. I can not believe how much of me has changed both physically and emotionally in a year. We are also in the process of moving across the country back to Texas. Dealing with the move is starting to take its toll. I just have to remember to breathe. I am super tight being on Dotty and with all the stress. I figure I will look like death by the time I get to Houston and start my new job. I will continue to pray that God watch over me and give me the strength to be ok.

200 and come change

Dec 19, 2007

I stepped on the scale this morning, and my reading was 200.6, onderland is so near. I also got a job yesterday with City of Houston in Air Quality. I start Feb 4th, so this is all happening so fast. We are moving back to Texas, yee-haw! I am so excited. I can not wait. I applied Dec 5th, got an interview Dec 13th, and was offered the job Dec 19th. Way fast. So now we have alot of planning and packing to do, and this will make our trip to Texas even more eventful. Im happy but sad. I will write more, esp when I hit 199.

Still no onderland

Dec 17, 2007

I am going to keep my head lifted. Im so discouraged because I have yet to make onderland. I just want to be freakin 200pounds at this point. I have been so close, 202, then went back to 205, then I dropped to 203.8, then back to 205. I wish the scale would play fair and read 200 already. It's been like 4 weeks at least of being so close. I guess my body wants to stop, but I don't. I will not let it stop, Im going to do what I need to do. Before the future texas trip, I told myself that I was going to eat what I want, but I do not have that desire anymore. Im so close that I want to be under. I also wanted to be at a 100 pound loss by my surgerversary and that I do not think will happen. I am 6 weeks away from that and 15 pounds away. I also planned on getting my 100 pound loss tattoo when I was in Houston, but that's not looking promising at all. I am going to not have carbs and if I do, only a taste. No more white flour, potatoes, or rice for 6 weeks. I can beat this. I am 75 pounds from goal, which is alot more doable than 160 pounds (which is what I started at). I will also run in Texas at least every other day, and walk every day. I will post again with a loss, no if's and's or but's about it.

Surgiversary Goals

Nov 30, 2007

I was just feeling sorry for myself and getting really depressed. I got down to 202 (basically from not being able to eat and drinking my meals-sick from fill) to now ballooning up to 207-208. I'm upset and get discouraged because Im doing everything right, for the most part, and keep gaining every day I get on the scale. How could I have eaten protein shake, tuna, cheese stick, fruit, and turkey plus workout for an hour and gain 2 pounds in one day? Whatever, I need to get re-motivated that despite the gain, I will continue to do the right thing.

My goal is to be at 190 by my Surgiversary (1/29/08) which will put me at a 100 pound loss and into onederland.
I am already pretty active, I workout at the gym at work 4-5 days and one day during the weekend at home, plus do 2-3 days of weight training.
*I will up it, since maybe my body is used to that, and start running in the mornings 3 times a week for maybe 20 minutes.
*I also commit to make good decisions while vacationing in Texas over the Christmas and New Year Holidays. Im going to prepare for it ahead of time and allow myself the baked treats and Tamales my mom makes, but not excessively.
*I am not going to be so hard on myself if the scale doesn't agree.
*I am going to start back with taking my multivitamin (I know, I haven't in forever)
*I am going to be almost ready to move into the 14s.
*I am going to be in onderland
*I am not going to have cereal for dinner for 8 weeks
*I will limit my sweets to only birthday, christmas day, anniversary, and new years.
*I am going to hopefully have a job lined up in Texas
*I will continue being happy

Last weigh in for Nov 2007

Nov 26, 2007

Im getting back on track. I went to the doc last monday and he removed part of my fill, since then I have been able to eat again. He reminded me that I should not feel pain as the band is not supposed to hurt me. He told me losing weight isn't supposed to be painful. So I went from not being able to eat and losing like 10 pounds in 2 weeks to now weighing around 205ish. So no loss, but no gain.

HW 290
SW 284
LW 205
TW 205

These 5 pounds or hanging on for dear life, I am almost out of the terrible two's. 5 and counting...

Band Issues

Nov 18, 2007

Well I figured I would post at least once a week, that is more like a goal I can meet. I will post Mondays with my weigh in. I will go ahead and get that taken care of and then begin to explain the numbers. 
HW-290
SW-284
LW-210
TW-205

Ok, so you see a 5 pound loss. Not so fast. I haven't really been able to really eat since last wed. I don't think its because Dotty (my period) came because Im usually able to eat more during that week, and have never had a hard time getting foods through. Other than that I don't know what's the deal. So I thought I had first bite syndrome, and maybe I still do, because every first bite I take is extremely painful. I have even tried drinking right before to see if that helps, and it does a little, but not much. So Thursday the girls in the office wanted to go to Lunch, so I agreed. I ordered grilled kabob chicken with brown rice and salad.  I had only a few tiny bites and got the worst feeling in the world. Generally it will be painful but bearable, and it will pass. This one did not, I was so uncomfortable, and embarrassed. Im in the closet about WLS, no one at work knows. So I just sat there in pain, and wondering what was going to happen. I eventually had to get up to see if walking around would help. I needed to burp but couldn't. I then began sliming. I found a bathroom, and after sweating, and praying I finally threw up. The first was just liquids, and the second was the little bit of food I ate. I felt better after I got that out, but my throat burned for days from the acid. I couldnt see my doc, becuase he doesnt work on fridays, and I had an appointment on Monday. So I put myself on liquids until saturday afternoon, and then graduated to softs. Because of my lack of energy, from Dotty and not eating, I did not work out last week. This week I do plan on getting in at least 5 days of exercise. I do want my fill out, and if I still have problems, Im assuming the doc will order an endoscopy. Im hoping Im fine, and am just too tight. We shall see. I do not want to overeat on thanksgiving, but I do want to be able to eat, and not only be allowed to eat mashed potatoes. I will update tomorrow to see what the doc ordered. Until then......Moni

Back to my normal routine...finally!

Oct 31, 2007

OK, so I have been travelling the past month, since the end of Sept I have had 3 trips (Washington, Ohio, and Texas). Boy do I miss my routine. I have also been hopping back and forth between 214-215. This week I started hitting the 212-213, so I can already see the difference. I want so badly to be under 200, I am so close that I can taste it. I did not eat any, not one piece of Candy yesterday (Halloween), because I am determined to get under 200. I already know, and I am admitting now that once I reach that goal, I will crave to be even lower. I just really want to thank GOD for enabling me to partake in this journey, and be successful. I feel so much better, and I have so much more energy. I never believed that when others would say that, but I do believe it now. I have tons of work, but wanted to post. Later.

tuff time

Oct 12, 2007

Ever since Seattle I am back and forth the same 2 pounds. I need to get back to my exercise routine because the scale isnt moving, or I need to just drink liquids. Maybe I will do that Saturday. Sun I leave for Ohio and then get back for a bit, and leave again for Texas. I just hope I can make my turkey day challenge of being under 200. I have to. I also want to make my 100 pound loss mark by Dec 25th, so I can get my tattoo. Please pray for me.

2nd Fill and Seattle

Sep 28, 2007

WOW, I didn't realize I hadn't written in a while. So much has happened, as has always does. Not sure if that even made sense. I got my second fill Sept 17th, so almost 2 weeks. I then left for Seattle that Friday (Sept 21st). I definitely thought I was going to gain weight since I ate alot of baked goods (alot for my usual). I met my mom up there also. We had a blast, we definitely needed this trip since our last rendevious was tainted with a disagreement and fight. I absolutely loved Washington, and the scenery was perfect. We were lucky that for the week we were there, we only got rain one day, and it wasn't for long. Did I mention that we did so much walking? I think that is what prevented the weight gain, and instead brought me a loss. Since the fill, I am down 6 pounds. I do however, notice that with this second fill (of 1.7 cc), I feel my food now, and I feel that stuck feeling. I don't enjoy eating anymore, since it is so painful going down. I will start back up with my workout routine tomorrow (get on the treadmill). I definitely miss my cardio and weights, it's funny how the body gets accustomed to things so quickly. My  hubby has been doing amazingly well on his weight loss journey. He is now at 209, he still weighs less than me, but I will pass him up soon, he can't weigh less than me for too long. Overall, I just feel so happy.

Almost 2nd Fill

Sep 13, 2007

Let's see what has changed since I have last posted. I know one thing for sure, I have added weight training into my workout routine. I will go this afternoon for my second session this week. If anything, regardless of what the scale shows, I feel so much better. It's like I can take a deep breath and my body thanks me for letting go of 70 pounds. I still look at the numbers, and can't really believe that I lost that much nor that I used to be that BIG. I guess I was in denial so long, I really thought I looked good. I finally entered the teens of the 200's. Im excited about that. My turkey day challenge is to be under 200. So if that means 199.9, then YAY!!!. Peña Martinez family are going down for Christmas this year, to the BIG Texas, and I would love to be like 190- 100 pound loss mark. That would be exciting. But Im not going to get ahead of myself, as I have crazy weeks were I work my tool so hard and lose like ounces, and others when I slip and have a 2-3 pound loss. I'm trying really hard to just accept whatever comes my way and keep my piece in the race.  I can really tell that I am so much happier. I also get flooded with questions and comments on how good Im looking. That is an entirely different story. One point I want to make is that although it feels good, some people really don't care, but I just smile and don't let it ruin my day. I'll check back in after my Dr Appt on Monday. Until then.....~Moni

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Super Stressed Out!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Back to my normal routine...finally!
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