munchkim72
Day 2 of my new journal
Apr 03, 2007
Tuesday April 3, 2007 (1wk5dP/O)
Well yesterday was a pretty good day. It was my first back to "work" and I did have a bit of a hard time keeping up with food still. It was better though. I had packed everything and just sat at the desk and sipped and nibbled all night. Of course I really needed to stand up and walk around. I thought by the end of the night I would just about cry, I had so much discomfort in my stomach that I couldn't wait to come home and go to bed. So all in all not a bad day, just another day of learning. I may be learning an lesson as I type this. We'll see, my food of choice for breakfast is getting stuck I think. I can hardley swallow. Oh well, live and learn.
Well yesterday was a pretty good day. It was my first back to "work" and I did have a bit of a hard time keeping up with food still. It was better though. I had packed everything and just sat at the desk and sipped and nibbled all night. Of course I really needed to stand up and walk around. I thought by the end of the night I would just about cry, I had so much discomfort in my stomach that I couldn't wait to come home and go to bed. So all in all not a bad day, just another day of learning. I may be learning an lesson as I type this. We'll see, my food of choice for breakfast is getting stuck I think. I can hardley swallow. Oh well, live and learn.
Here I go...
Apr 02, 2007
Monday April 2, 2007 (1wk4dP/O)
Okay, so all my friends are saying I need to network and do the support group thing. I am a private quiet person for the most part so going to a support group is coming later, I am starting here. I can handle this I guess, and I know the benefits of doing so. Anyway, I am just over a week out from surgery. I had been taken off IV fluids to early after surgery so I was back in the hospital less than three days after I came home. I spent about 2 days back in and now I feel much better. I, for the most part, am doing all right. I am having trouble getting in everything I need to every day. My friends have told me to do smooties but I haven't perfected that yet. I suppose that I need some time to figure everything out. I had a hard time before my surgery with eating enough meals and getting in enough calories to make the dietician happy but, I had worked hard over the last year and thought I finally had it under control. I guess you can never be prepared enough. I feel like I am eating all the time yet I know I am not. I have lost at least 20lbs.. I weighed myself Friday at the doctors office, 1 week and 1 day out from surgery. I had a rough weekend. We had a birthday party for my 2 youngest daughters on Saturday and I would have usually made the cakes and goodies but I wasn't up to it. I started to panick a bit. I worried that just inhaling the surgar would make me sick, I know better but I still worried. Then I didn't eat right before heading out to where we had the party. So, I had one meal in me and two bottles of water by 7pm. I was okay, I just knew I needed to do better Sunday. Well, we ended up not having kids so my husband wanted to get shopping done and maybe see a movie with the kids later in the evening. So we went out and again I only had one meal and some water. So by the time we got home around 7pm again, I was ready to chew off my arm! I had not acutually been hungy since my surgery. I was so hungry I forgot that I needed to be careful and I was cleaning fruit when I took a big bite of a strawberry and barely chered it then I swallowed. Oh, I thought for sure I was in trouble. It did eventually go down okay but I thought for sure I was never going to do that agian. Well that lasted about half an hour. I was waiting for the kids to get out of the kitchen so I could make myself a smoothie and by the time I got in there I was agian so hungry that when I got the smoothie made I just started drinking it and I had down about 4oz. before I knew it. It was so fast and I didn't mean to. Now it hurt, it had nowhere to go so it just hurt for about 20 minutes. I am doing better today. I made sure I got up and had a good breakfast, I am having a smoothie and taking one with me along with my dinner and a bottle of water when I leave. I know I won't be home until late so I am not taking any chances. I am thinking about chewing ice for that feeling of having something when I get like that. Well, I think I am all caught up for now. I will get on tonight and try to keep up with this "journal" so I can get myself ready for those face to face suppor groups.
Okay, so all my friends are saying I need to network and do the support group thing. I am a private quiet person for the most part so going to a support group is coming later, I am starting here. I can handle this I guess, and I know the benefits of doing so. Anyway, I am just over a week out from surgery. I had been taken off IV fluids to early after surgery so I was back in the hospital less than three days after I came home. I spent about 2 days back in and now I feel much better. I, for the most part, am doing all right. I am having trouble getting in everything I need to every day. My friends have told me to do smooties but I haven't perfected that yet. I suppose that I need some time to figure everything out. I had a hard time before my surgery with eating enough meals and getting in enough calories to make the dietician happy but, I had worked hard over the last year and thought I finally had it under control. I guess you can never be prepared enough. I feel like I am eating all the time yet I know I am not. I have lost at least 20lbs.. I weighed myself Friday at the doctors office, 1 week and 1 day out from surgery. I had a rough weekend. We had a birthday party for my 2 youngest daughters on Saturday and I would have usually made the cakes and goodies but I wasn't up to it. I started to panick a bit. I worried that just inhaling the surgar would make me sick, I know better but I still worried. Then I didn't eat right before heading out to where we had the party. So, I had one meal in me and two bottles of water by 7pm. I was okay, I just knew I needed to do better Sunday. Well, we ended up not having kids so my husband wanted to get shopping done and maybe see a movie with the kids later in the evening. So we went out and again I only had one meal and some water. So by the time we got home around 7pm again, I was ready to chew off my arm! I had not acutually been hungy since my surgery. I was so hungry I forgot that I needed to be careful and I was cleaning fruit when I took a big bite of a strawberry and barely chered it then I swallowed. Oh, I thought for sure I was in trouble. It did eventually go down okay but I thought for sure I was never going to do that agian. Well that lasted about half an hour. I was waiting for the kids to get out of the kitchen so I could make myself a smoothie and by the time I got in there I was agian so hungry that when I got the smoothie made I just started drinking it and I had down about 4oz. before I knew it. It was so fast and I didn't mean to. Now it hurt, it had nowhere to go so it just hurt for about 20 minutes. I am doing better today. I made sure I got up and had a good breakfast, I am having a smoothie and taking one with me along with my dinner and a bottle of water when I leave. I know I won't be home until late so I am not taking any chances. I am thinking about chewing ice for that feeling of having something when I get like that. Well, I think I am all caught up for now. I will get on tonight and try to keep up with this "journal" so I can get myself ready for those face to face suppor groups.
