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Well, feeling a little bummed out right now.  Stupid scale keeps going back and forth between 277 and 278, but won't go down any further. 
Went to support group meeting last night and found out weeks 3-6 may mean no more weight loss...until my first fill anyway.  I don't know how it's not going down.  I'm working out (trying to anyway) still eating way less calories than I ate before surgery.  Guess the fat is holding on for dear life.  I know I have got to stop with the scale-watching all the time, but it's been so long since I saw numbers going downward.  It was very exciting, and hopefully it will start climbing down again...real soon.

Happy! Happy!
I am down under 280!  I don't think I've been here in 2 years.  Actually I'm not certain how long it's been because it seems like I was 240 for forever, had a hysterectomy and BAM! WHAM! I'm in 290-land and can't get out.  But I'm out of there now, and God willing and the fat don't rise I'm never going back to that land again.

Got out and voted today.  Wish there weren't so many people running for office...had a devil of a time standing up straight at the voting booth for so long.  But I managed, and hopefully a few of my candidates will actually win.  Couldn't wait to get back home to pop my pain medication in. 
Was feeling sorry for myself yesterday...the "my family just doesn't understand what I'm going through" routine.  Not that the feeling isn't a valid one, I just hate letting myself get down feeling that way.  Of course they don't understand what I'm going through....they can still eat whatever they want to.  If I never put another spoon of brothy soup to my mouth that will be okay by me.  Probably felt actual hunger for the time since my surgery...and it hit in a major way.  I think I could smell what everyone on my block was cooking (of course I couldn't but the phantom cooking odors made me think I could).  And no matter what I put in my mouth there was no relieving the desire to eat.  I'm still having trouble getting 2 servings of protein down a day...and 64 oz of liquid.  Trying, but just not making it.  I should definitely get 2 servings down today though...yippee!  And still getting some form of exercise in daily.
Over 12 lbs of weight gone since a week ago!  I'm on cloud nine...but finding it's a lonely cloud.  Thinking my family would be jumping up and down with happiness for me and I get "that's nice" instead.  Really guys?!!!  Don't hold back on your enthusiasm.  Okay..pity party's over.  I'm happy with my progress and that's all that matters. 

Made it through Halloween...but it was hard.  My family kept with the same traditions of sausage cheese dip and chips, scary movies and candy (for the trick or treaters).  My daughter fixed chicken tortilla soup instead of our traditional chicken wings, and she used turkey sausage in the cheese dip instead of the regular sausage I always used.  Everything smelled so good...and I wanted nothing more than to grab some chips and do some real damage.  But I didn't.  I did puree the soup and tried a few spoonfuls, but got scared because I could still bite the chicken.  My nutritionist said any soup was okay so long as you blend it and strain it...but I kept worrying about the particles.  So in the end I drank a protein shake had 2 sugar free popsicles and watched the movie. 
I know this is my battle to win or lose alone...so I trudge on.

Well, I've had my band in place for 2 days now.  For the most part I feel fine.  I've had several low blood sugars in the last 24 hrs.  Trying to blend the instructions from my surgeon's office and my internist.  One says no insulin unless b/s go over 250, but the internist says to give myself half my dosage twice a day.  I'm not putting enough in my system to go as high as half...tried that and almost passed out.  But 250 is too high for comfort too.  Was surprised to find out I had lost weight before my surgery.  I tried to keep around the 1500 calorie diet, but went over board several times, and was sure I'd messed up royally.  But Dr. Allen says my liver was just fine and he had no problems lifting it.  Now that just sounds weird :-) 
The days seem to be crawling along.  I'm so afraid I'll pop something in my mouth and start chewing before I realize what I've done.  Just wish I could take a pill, fall asleep for the liquid phase and wake up when I can at least eat mushy foods.  Never thought I'd look forward to eating mushy foods.  Everyone says I shouldn't be hungry for at least several days after surgery...but I guess I have more determined hungry genes then other people.  Or it's just my mind be uncooperative. 
I really hope to find a WLS buddy here on obesityhelp.com.  I'd love to meet someone who had surgery the same day, and the same kind as me (lapband).  It would be nice to have someone to talk to that hasn't already been through all this, and has maybe forgotten how scary and frustrating it can be starting out.  My family is wonderful, but they aren't going through this...so they can only empathize so much.