MzNewBooty
I am a 27 year old female, engaged to be married, with no children and morbidly obese. For as long as I can remember, I have been a "thick chic" off of the doctors scales since I can remember. I currently weigh a little of 300 pounds and floor people when I tell them what the scales say and what I feel I carry around everyday. Like I said before I am 27 years old!!!! I suffer from a condition called PCOS and have sleep apnea. I don't have diabetes or choloestoral, but know that my mother and grandmother (her mother) are diabetics, and my father and grandmother (his mother) have high blood pressure. So the pressure for me to loose weight is on!!!!
I really had not realized how much my size affected me until I began to think about marriage and being able to have children and all that good stuff. My fiance' is a really BIG guy, but to me the size does not matter, what is important is if you are healthy. Neither of us is where we should be. He takes insulin and all kinds of medicines. He is 11 years older than me, but I still want both of us to be around to spend time with our children, run around, and play with them when we do have them, and I have come to the realization that God did not intend for me to be depressed and have low self esteem, not enjoy life, etc. etc., and I need a tool by which I can obtain a healthy weight and be able to live and do what he purposed me to do.
I really am looking to be a "loser" and look on this site everyday for positive and negative reinforcement so that I truly attempt to understand my journey as I read through all of the people that are on obesityhelp.com. I am always looking for people who are willing to share their experience with me, and if there is something that you have to say, please do not hesitate to email me or leave me a message. I really do love hearing from those more experienced than me!!!
May 24, 2007
This is my first entry about how it is going with the process of WLS. I am scheduled for May 31, 2007 and I am really excited about this process. I had my final consultation with my surgeons on yesterday and they were great. I really feel comfortable knowing that God is GREAT, and he is blessing even when I don't deserve it. I believe that he is making a way for me, to have the life changes that I have longed for, for so long. There are those that are against me doing it, but if God be for me, who can be against me? Although the people that are against it don't like it, I understand that they don't understand it. I know that they have what they think is best for me in heart, but this is where I need to be. I know what 28 years of being over-weight feels like. I love myself, would not trade the world for me, but your time is marked on the clock of God, and so if he gives me an opportunity to make changes to my future, that is what I am going to do. Thank you BAF, for being my support. You might not ever know how encouraging you are to me daily. To Mz Shoe Goddess, my Angel, I really appreciate you jumping in and taking me under your wing. In just a few days you have made me feel so much better, and I really appreciate you. I am on the count-down, and this time next week, I will be on my "weigh" to a better way of eating, a healthier life, and a lot of hard work!!!! Please keep me in your prayers!!!!
