Natalie B.
“NOTHING HAPPENS BEFORE ITS TIME "…..I decided to start my story on the day that I received OHIP approval to have this surgery…….I have always been God blessed and have lived a very fortunate life. My weight was never my issue but it seemed to be everyone else’s issue since I can remember…I always thought it was funny that people could look at me and feel that I wanted there advise or opinions about my size. I always thought I was confident , strong, smart , and just as sexy as any other girl…but boy do people comment some of the comments I remember were your face is big like the moon….the reason your hair doesn’t grow faster is because your f… ….you have such a pretty face but….lol…I laugh today because it is funny what the mind stores and the things you can remember. Even though I was heavy growing up… I lived a great life friends… ..Boys… ..relationships …jobs….. I cant say I missed out or was “treated” badly because of my weight like some other people have. So life has ups and downs and I can admit that some times when I was down the thoughts did try to surface that maybe I didn’t get that job because I was f…..or maybe we broke up because I am so f…or they excluded me because I am f… but they were squashed because I was who I was and I embraced me!!! Don’t get me wrong I did try diets of all descriptions because some times you just want to fit into that Mold and be what society deems as “normal” they never lasted long and I would say DIET is Die with a T. why kill yourself when you are perfectly fine? Imagine As big as I was I had a beautiful Child (even though I was told that pregnancy does not happen to people who are so f…) As big as I was I got married (even though they asked shouldn’t you loose weight to buy a wedding dress?) but I believe that God has a plan for all of us and I became complacent and gained tooo much weight being at the highest weight ever. Last year the right side of my face went numb for no explained reason and along with that my blood pressure went through the roof . I was scared!!!! Because for the first time I realized that if I don’t do something this weight is going to kill me !!! Hello this is not about what I look like or what other see it is all about my health and right now I have none!!! I want to be healthy …I want to see my daughter become a valid contribution to society…I want to have another child …..I want to be able to run walk go through a day with out extreme fatigue …I want to grow old with my husband . There are so much other things going on health wise in society that is out of our control but my weight is not one of them ….. I need to change my life get it together …which brings me to today I am approved !! Thank God for second third and forth chances!!!! See you on the losers bench ……IT IS FINALLY MY TIME!!!!
