neekaj
Week 5 - Post Op
Jun 14, 2007
Well, today was my long awaited diet advancement appointment. I really expected to have a happier response to being able to eat more of a variety, but I did not feel that happy. While sitting in that chair and getting the good news, I suddenly felt the difference of being allowed to eat and being able to actually force yourself to eat. I had so many questions, that really had no answers.
I was excited to try different venues to get more solids into my diet, but how will I actually go about it? That was a big question in my head. I was scared and confused, as to what it will entail to literally choose the foods that I can tolerate and not have the feelings of nausea, pain and belching. The picture looks so perfect, but where do I start, what do I eat and drink to keep myself healthy. I know if I choose wrong way of eating, it will bring me no success. If I eat healthy, I will enjoy my life and have energy to do things I always dreamt of doing.
So many things rushed through at that moment and I stumbled upon one particular food option...(chicken). I love chicken, but had a very bad encounter few days prior and I am afraid to try it again.
I am still not getting enough fluids and can not find the best option to do so. I tried many things, but so far "Crystal Light (Pink Lemonade)", "Diet Cranberry by Ocean Spray" mixed with water seems to be getting through somewhat. I asked my nutritionist if I can drink Green Tea, and she gave me some good news and some bad. I was happy to hear that I was able to drink my Diet Green Tea with Ginseng by Arizona, but in limited amounts, due the fact that it is a diuretic. It will flush me out and not allow my body to hydrate as well as it should. Suggested I try other options to hydrate without the side effects.
At the weight in I showed a loss of another 5.0 lbs. My body keeps going in and out of plateau mode. I need to get myself into losing mode on more regular basis. I need to start exercising more often and implement more rigorous routine. I am happy in the way I feel. My clothes fit me better, my face is smaller and my energy is coming back up, which allows me to enjoy my walks with my children. My weight today is 231.5 lbs with my clothes on. This morning I weighted before taking a shower on my scale at home and it showed 227.0 lbs. So, I guess my clothes weight the rest of extra lbs. It is ok, I am losing little by little and keeping a positive attitude. So long, until next time.
Week 4 - Post Op
Jun 07, 2007
Another week has gone by. I feel like it has been an eternity. The mooshy way of eating is really getting to me, but this is the only way I see myself eating for a while. This week my curiosity got the best of me and got me in trouble. I tried to eat some chicken without mooshing it and let me tell you.....biggest mistake I have done at such early stage of my recovery. Listen to your doctor, do not try anything foolish. It is not worth it. I felt pain which I have not felt in the long time. Something similar to when your water breaks when having a baby. I was sweating, shiffering and not able to breathe for about 1 minute, felt like an eternity..... Oh my, but the time it passed through I prayed GOD to help me get through it without any complications. My children were very scared for me. Once it passed I felt like a heavy stone fell off of me...relieved. I did not eat anything else after this episode, as I was very scared. I drank water and went to sleep. DO NOT do this to yourself, no matter how bad your temptations may get.
I did not lose any weight this week at all. I feel like my body went into starvation mode and everything I eat....it holds on to it. I did walk this week and felt as though I was able to handle much more than usual. No heavy breathing or pain in the legs. I will try to make it my priority to walk as much as possible to help me through the recovery. Hoping next week will be a better week for me.
Week 3 - Post Op
May 31, 2007
Well, I am on my way to eating healthier and becoming mobile once again. I'll tell you it has been very hard to keep yourself in check and control what you eat and drink. I am definitely still having a hard time drinking, which is needed so badly to keep body hydrated. I am still not able to eat much, although the mooshy diet is becoming a way for me to eat. Having a small pouch help to keep the portions you eat in control and I am able to say enough, whereas before I used to eat until I feel the paid under my ribs.....(really bad way to describe my eating habits). The truth of the matter is that I am finally beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I have lost another 8 lbs so far and wheigh in at 237 lbs.
Week 2 - Post Op
May 25, 2007
Oh my, so much has happened this week. This is much harder than I thought it would be. I have been really struggling with water intake. I am barely getting any fluids in me. Everytime I try to drink, I start belching, which does not feel great. I was able to get about 1oz -2oz of yogurt and cottage cheese. I still use the little 1oz. cups I got from the hospital, when I started my regimine. The hardest part of not being able to eat, is the craving you experience when something is being cooked and the smell empowers you. It is very challenging, because you want to have some of the foods too, but too scared to even bother. I try to keep myself busy and not pay attention. You need to be focused and determined to make the best effort to not think about making wrong choices. You have small stomach, yes, but the mind di not change. In fact, the mind is more alert at this time and plays tricks with your feelings. Be careful and be strong. Stay positive. I currently lost about 6 lbs and weigh in at 245lbs
4 days Post-op
May 19, 2007
Today I am finally going home from the hospital. I feel a bit sore, but happy to start my life in different manner. I have many fears as to how I will be able to handle things once I am home. I have lost about 30 lbs prior to surgery, which definitely helped me a lot to not feel the pain as much as I would have with the lost weight on me. I weigh in at 251.5 lbs as I leave this place today and hoping the pounds will start dropping as time goes on. I guess the time will tell. I will update my profile as I go along.
