2 weeks post-op

Mar 04, 2009

So, I'm two weeks out now from my surgery. There is about 25% of me that's happy I did it, 25% that regrets it, and 50% that is undecided! I had good care at the hopsital (OHSU in Portland OR), but was nauseous alot of the time there. Then when I came home, I felt better. I have lost 21 pounds (my doctor told me it would all be water loss for the first two months) but I'm not really sure I did the right thing. I didn't realize how much I loved food and how restricted my diet would actually be, not just for the first weeks but for a lifetime. It is a loss I wasn't expecting to experience to that degree. Most of the time, the liquids that I can keep down (broth, sugar-free jello, tea, etc) is fine and works well for me, but even a little soft pureed food now causes me to get bloated and it ends up getting stuck, regardless of how well I chew it. So...all in all, it's been very eye-opening and a little depressing. I'm not sure there area any others out there who feel sad like I do about all the changes. I remind myself that I will get healthier when I lose the extra weight and try to stay hopeful about the future. There are lots of times I tell myself I'd rather be fat and happy than skinny and grouchy. But I just need to reframe what "happy" means now.

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