nickomary
1 year anniversary/DS surgery*
Jun 05, 2010
Amazing....this year has flown by so quickly. I have made so many changes in my life. My eating habits, by thinking habits....the ride has been unbelievable!I went back to my blog before my surgery. I read and relived every single word. The emotions and feelings rushed back at me! The most vivid emotion that I had is the feeling of having NO HOPE.
Before I had my DS, I would spend the first few minutes of every day, waking up and promising myself that I would stay on my DIET. The last few hours of every day, I would berate myself for being such an enormous pig for not staying on my diet. The guilt and remorse were a constant. And boy could I guilt myself. Just the memory of that guilt gives me a knot in my stomach!
In the last year, I have found my health, my strength, my hope and my happiness. I had some difficulties to begin with (a wound that de-hissed at 1 week out and additional healing time, not to forget the "wound care nurses" and the "wound vac")but, I am grateful for every single day. I am amazed at how easily I am satisfied by food of any kind. I feel energized every single day and enjoy every opportunity to get out and walk, play with my dog, run up the stairs....amazing! I can hardly wait to get up every morning and seem to finish projects in record time. I did not lose much hair.....it was slightly more than normal on the brush but not noticed on my head at all! YAY!
I am still losing weight....slowly, but that is alright. I will not be a slave to the scale or to "numbers". When I am done losing, I believe that my body will just settle in. I have a natural thirst now and have no problems getting in my fluids or my protein. I naturally crave protein and can now eat veggies and some berries without any tummy issues. I stay away from breads, rice, pasta and any sugar. Splenda is my "go to" when I need something sweet. Strawberries and Splenda....yummmm!!!
I had my first "Cosmo cocktail" on Memorial Day. Wow! I don't need much of that anymore! It hit me like a ton of bricks!
My weight loss isn't stellar or in record time but, I am healthy, happy and now have something that I never had before,
HOPE. My future looks amazingly bright.