Gotta start somewhere...

Jun 13, 2010

Ok, I am new at this blogging thing, actually this is my first. I know I want to start to document my progress as a way of holding myself accountable. I am scheduled for the surgery on July 9th and so excited!!!! This is my year. I am changing everything about me this year. I dyed my hair, got it permed and I think it looks awesome and so low maintenance. After the surgery, I told myself when I get to my goal weight of 175 I can get the monroe piercing in my lip but not a moment sooner. I am about a month out and have started running in the mornings before work to start up a routine. I am honestly really excited about all of this. My reason for having the surgery is two fold, first is I have a LOT of serious health conditions on both sides of my family that could be reduced with a healthy weight, second is sheer vanity. My whole family is short and skinney and I want to be there too. I have been fat all of my life. And up until now I have been ok with that. I am not the girl that you see of the biggest loser that feels her self worth is dependent on her weight. I don't feel that way at all. I feel attractive, get asked on lots of dates, and am probably the most outgoing person you will ever meet. My only concerns are that I will change mentally after the surgery. I am afraid I will get arrogrant or look down on all the people that used to look down on me. And I don't want to be that girl. I just want to be the same happy go lucky girl I always have been. I have a very small close nit group of friends. 50% for me having the surgery and 50% opposed. They keep telling me I don't need it. But I am not doing it for them or anyone else, I am doing it for me. To empower me and keep me healthy to see my nieces ane nephews grow up and to maybe have kids of my own some day. So that's my first blog, no longer a blogging virgin.

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