tomorrow is two years

Feb 11, 2009

Well it has been really a long time since I have posted. i have seriously changed and have mixed feeling about the band.
I suppose everyone is wondering how much have i lost. I have lost 212 pounds and acieved almost all my goals. I have a new life completely. I moved to a new state. ended an abusive relationship, changed my hair color to nature intended, I can move I can get up from the floor with out help, I can run, and basically i can do anything I want except EAT! I do miss that. I have ehat i think could be bulimia. I eat only two or three bites of any meal anything over that sends me to the bathroom for a puke fest. I can not eat in stressful situations or when I am happy. This does worry me due to I am to be getting married in 12 weeks to the man I only used to dream about. He finds me incredible and I believe I do owe it to the band. So basically if you are thinking about possibliy ever getting the band think about how extreme you life could change and how it could be different and most likely it will be come that. All the good and the bad. I will try to get some pictures up. I carry my fat pictures and shrinking pictires in my car just becasue people just do not believe that it is me the same person. I only have my last goal to achieve and that is to attend a oprah show. Wish me luck..

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