Nsg4Him
My Birthday
Aug 24, 2010
This Saturday I will celebrate (?) my 53rd birthday. Celebrate is definitely the wrong word for it. I dread it. Not for getting a year older, but for having an important day without my husband here. It has been 9 months since he died. 15 months since he got sick. Sometimes it seems like yesterday and sometimes it seems like a lifetime ago. What I do know is that I have not handled it well. All my old behaviors have resurfaced. I am an emotional eater, and I have used my grief, sadness, and anger as reasons to eat, eat, eat. My post op course has been fraught with problems without losing my husband- torn rotator cuff, spinal fusion, heel spurs, now torn achilles tendon, and more shoulder surgery, and another possible torn rotator cuff. But, before Ron's death, I didn't let those things hold me back, and I lost 150 pounds. After Ron's death, or at least during his illness and after his death, I couldn't get motivated for more than a few days, and I have gained a total of 39 pounds. I am currently drinking protein shakes all day, eating a lean cuisine for dinner, and riding my recumbent bike 5 days a weeks for 30-45 minutes each time. Hopefully that will jumpstart something for me. I plan to continue that for this week, then continue a low carb lifestyle and see what happens. As soon as approved by MD, I will start walking again. And, as soon as I can get my arms above my head, I will try swimming again. Maybe I can get my metabolism to working again.
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About Me
Sevierville, TN
Location
30.1
BMI
Surgery
12/21/2007
Surgery Date
Jun 16, 2002
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