NurseTeacher
Today is the Day
Sep 26, 2010
This is the day I've been waiting for for the past year. I'm finally at the hotel in San Diego, 120 miles from my home, waiting for the morning to pass before walking to the hospital for the biggest change of my life.I am hungry, have a blazing headache, and am terribly nervous about things to come. Even though I have had to endure multiple surgeries (from a cholecystectomy to spinal fusion and everything in between), I seem to be the most nervous about this one. Perhaps it is because I will no longer be able to enjoy eating the way I'm used to: In-N-Out cheeseburgers, french fries, shakes, pizza -- all in enormous amounts. To me, to eat is to socialize, enjoying times spent with friends and family. Intellectually I know these times can continue, just in a different way from today on. I will be learning a new way to eat, with new foods, and at a different pace. It's all good.
So why am I so nervous? Is it the surgery itself or the potential for complications that scare me? One always hears about blood clots from not walking enough; nausea and vomiting for overstuffing; infections from whatever the source, and so on.
Whatever the problem with me today, I must get over it and have this done. Too late to change my mind now, and this surgery will improve my life forever, albeit make it more challenging. Heck, I like challenges. Let's go!
