April B.
Wow This is really hard. Well I am a stay at home mom of four wonderful children Oscar 8 Adriana 3 Juan Anotonio 2 and Edwin 5 months. I have been fighting obesity for as long as I can remember. As a child I remember going to Grandmas house and while all the other kids got to eat cake I was given rice cakes because I was a little bit fuller than the rest od my sisters. Once I got to be about eleven the popuplar phrase I would hear was you have such a pretty face if only you lost some weight. When I was 15 my doctor gave me phen phen I lost weight looked really good for a while but little by little the weight began to creep back up on me.By graduation I was at 245. At 17 someone took interest in me And I fell hard. I lost a little weight then got pregnant at 19. That was the darkest time of my life I was in love with a monster . He sucked the life out of me and I one point tried to beat it out of me while I was pregnant. Once my son was born I took one look at him and knew I had to get away. It took me three months but I did it. I began to work nights so my son could stay with family. I again began to lose someweight, I got down to 207 I met my true soul mate. In 2003 we got married fast forward to 2007 we are now a family of 6 . My weight sky rocketed after the birth of my last child to 365. Now 6 months later I am down to 309. I have been trying so hard to get down but it seems like nothing is working. I have been staying alot more active and I feel better then I did 6 months ago but I am very far from where I need to be. I look at my children I wish that I could be more active with them. I want to play with them run with them just have fun with them. I want to dance go for long walks with out feeling as though the air was knocked out of me. I always want to have children It was always my dream to have a big family. Now I want to be a better mom. They are still young enough for me to do something now. I have decided I want to have the bypass surgery to save my life so I can be here to watch my children grow and someday have families of their own. I want to grow old with my husband at myside. My mom had the bypass in july of this year and we almost lost her from complications so I know what the risk are and I truely know what the compilcations can be. My mom and my husband are the only people I have told about me wanting to have the surgery. My mom does not want me to tell anyone until I am aproved and right before I have it done. We both know that it will be something that my family might not support because of what we went through with my mom. But like she said it is something they will have to accept. She supports my and I think that is what matters to me most right now, she did say that if I had told her this 2 months ago she probably would have flipped out because she was very bitter about her surgery but now as she gets better and is losing the weight and feeling the benifits she would do it all over again. My husband is more scared than anything but He knows and understands the pain I go through everyday. So that is my story for now I hope and pray for great things to come my way from here on. I plan to post as often as possible, Looking forward to my happy begining!!!
