olsonj14t
Well, I don't think I was over weight until my first marriage, which turned abusive. I turned to food cause it was a constant comfort for me. And to be honest it was the only thing that was always there, never had a bad thing to say or do to me. I dove into food to cover my depression for the next 20 yrs! Up and down my weight went, not only did I use food to hide my depression, but I also forgot to think about me. I focused so much on my family and work that I forgot to take care of me. Now at 43 yrs old I find my self overweight (obese), with High BP, High Cholesterol, and borderline diabetes. Not to mention the issues with my body like bad back, bad knees, and hips that having excessive weight can put on your body. I always thought I would never be the one to have surgery, like a tummy tuck or lipo. I also thought I can work my butt off and it would work. Well this last year I found out I have premature ovarian failure and my ovaries hardly make enough estrogen. I was eating 1200 calories, working out 2 hrs a night and barely lost 20 lbs in almost 7 months. I hurt my ankle and guess what, it all came back and more while I was healing. I decided I was done riding this roller coaster and a friend told me she was having WLS, I was like really how can you afford that? She told me that our mutual insurance would cover it, so I made my appt. Some might think like I did that this is the easy way out, but it is far from it. Wit hthis surgery you have to change your whole life style for the rest of your life. Otherwise you can go back to the roller coaster you were on. I refuse to do that and I am so looking forward to taking my life back and becoming a better mom for my son Joseph. Joseph is one of my many reasons for this change, Joseph has Down Syndrome and I need to always be in the best health in order to take care of him. As well my husband is probably the third reason for me, he is the most amazing man, so supportive and strong he has blessed my life more then I could ever say. He is so caring and loving and I want to be the woman he married again. Because with this weight for me comes such a low self esteem and depression. I just want to be better for myself and them! Wish me luck!
