Happy Holidays!

Dec 27, 2009

   Well, I made it through Christmas, which for me meant "just endure".  I didn't enjoy the holiday this year, but I do have high hopes for subsequent years.  So, I'm recovering, finally.  I still have a drain in place which promises to be around for another two weeks. at least.  During my recovery, I've had a variety of things go on - from superficial venous system blood clots to a huge infection to plantar fasciitis, you name it.  The antibiotics created a yeast infection and I'm on my fourth cycle since surgery.  I have really bad acid reflux which leads me to sleeping in the recliner which is hard on my rear (hemorrhoid).  Then the hemorrhoid medicine gives me a huge headache.  One thing leads to another, and it is a comedy of errors right now.  However, since this is a revision journey, things are not all that bad.  My doctor pulled out the feeding tube at my six week post op visit, meaning I've about dodged the leak bullet.  As much as I would like to carry on with "poor me", things could definitely be worse, so for now, I'll be happy to just count my blessings.
   As this is a revision journey, I find myself at times asking myself, "Why couldn't you have made the RNY work?", or even, "why couldn't you just diet and exercise and get this off?"  Intuitively, I know the answer--I couldn't have.  Yet, if I truly knew and understood how hard this revision journey was going to be, I wouldn't have done it!  Thankfully, I didn't know all the details, and there's no turning back now.  In the end, I'm sure I'll reflect back and say, "Oh, it wasn't that bad."  For now, I'm trudging on, grateful that each day it gets a little easier. 
  I hope everyone else is doing well on their journeys.  I would love to hear from you.
Barbara

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