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well, i have my "6 month" appt on thrusday and im not really looking forward to it. im kind of afraid that my doc is gonna be disappointed with my progress.  maybe it's just that im bummed at myself and assume he will be too.  we will see. 

i am still tracking, altho i notice i seem to "forget" to do it on friday nights and all day saturday *oops*

the gym is going very well and i like that i have a friend to be my motivation to go...really, we are each other's motivation i believe...

Omigosh...I "stalled" out a bit around 3 weeks. Normal? Seems like it according to other folks.

Same thing at 3 months, but, um, it lasted. On and on, I have been flabbergasted at the same 1.5 lbs taunting me every time I weighed. I tried not weighing for a few days and going back to the same thing. I swear it felt like my entire life.

My "6 month" appt. (totally not at 6 months...try 3 weeks early)is next week and I was sure my doctor was going to smack me. I'm not kidding when I say that I did not lose for like the last 2 months SOLID.

Well, Monday Feb 9th I started logging on the dailyplate site and in a paper journal I keep in my purse. I was totally not eating enough protein and too much fat.

Today I weighed...and have FINALLY lost 6 more pounds! 6 glorious pounds. I am so psyched. I also joined Bally's yesterday and tonight will be my first time going as a member and not on a guest pass.

Yay! Have a great rest of the week/weekend everybody...I know I will!

Georgia

Well, I started tracking on dailyplate.com on Monday and today is Thursday and I've been sticking to it and plugging along.  I have not broken the drinking/eating rules and have logges everything thats passed my lips.  I went for a wonderful walk on the beach with a pal the other night and am joining Bally's gym on Monday.  My buddy Meghan who I walked with the other night goes there religiously and will be my workout partner which is rad. 

I would like to document some of my accomplishments thus far since I feel like I've been super negative lately... (and cos Im sort of bummed that I didnt take the obligatory before photo in my undies before my surgery to compare to along the way...lol):

1.  I have gone from a 22/24 top (lane bryant) or 3X (torrid) or 2X (target plus sizes) to an adult Lg or XL t-shirt (band shirts and the like) or a 1X/2X (torrid) or a "normal" XXL (target juniors)!!!
2.  on the bottom i have gone from a 24 (avenue) 24 or 26 (lane bryant) to a 18 (avenue) or 20 (torrid)!!!
3.  I always bought my dresses at Torrid and went from a 22 (if super stretchy) or 24 to an 18!!! and the 18 was a poly/rayon blend, so it was fitted not stretchy...i bought a real 18. lol
4.  I had to throw out all of my 22/24 "fat panties" as i like to call them and bought 18/20's with some 14/16's waiting in the wings to be busted out for use. 

I would also like to say that the "tots" (tat-tas, girls, boobs, whatever you prefer) seem here to stay for now which was a worry of mine.  I have had to go to the deeper  closure on them, but the cup size is stayin the same for now.  Love it.  I don't want to lose the cannons.  I probably won't ...I've always been blessed in that department.  

Ugh...Maybe my lack of blogging is significant.  I have been lax on quite a few things lately...here is a list of some of my mis-deeds.  Maybe I'll be able to look back on this in a month and give myself a virtual smack in the face and laugh because I've rectified everything.

1.  Haven't been blogging which means I'm not being accountable.
2.  Can't afford a membership, so I haven't been working out.  Not acceptable.  I have legs and a treadmill, so I can walk!
3.  Started smoking again *groan*
4.  Have been mindlessly drinking while eating. 
5.  Have been drinking things I shouldn't (I know...I know...I know...)
6.  Have never used a food logger.
7. grazing.  yup
Well, I made some big changes yesterday.  I started using dailyplate.com, and I am also keeping a hardcopy in a paper journal for on-the-go.  I make sure to stop drinking 30 minutes before and not til 45 minutes after I eat.  

I did a ton of cleaning yesterday so I got some fitness in that way, but today I am going for a multiple mile walk on the lakefront with a friend when she gets off of work.  I have nipped the grazing in the bud by logging my eating, but I swear I was "hungry" all day yesterday because food was at the forefront of my mind.  I am going to do some grocery shopping today and try to get all the good things that I've run out of...fage, TVP, etc.  

I am less than six months out and I feel like I'm failing.  I know that all I need are to own up to these mistakes I'm makign and change them and I'll be back on track, but it still sucks.  

Serenity now!!!

ugh.  so it's new year's eve.  i realized that if i didnt blog today, then i wouldn't have a post for december.  that's no good!  so i'm going to ramble ane get it all in for posterity.  :)

i had my 3 month appt on the 11th, i believe.  my 3 month anniv is actually xmas eve, but the 11th was a better fit in my schedule at the time that i made the appointment.  all in all, as of that day i have gone from 332lbs down to 285 lbs.  i was a bit worried that i am losing too slow but the dr. said im fine and on a good track.  i believe him.  i paid him too much to lie to me, right? 

i know ive lost more weight since then, but i have finally come to peace with not weighing myself every friggin day at home.  i barely even think to do it weekly.  the clothes that slip off immediately upon dressing tell me im doing well.  it sucks, though, buying (still plus size remember) expensive-ish jeans and then being unable to wear them 2 weeks later because the crotch is at your knees.  well, it doesn't totally suck.

im able to buy 2X mossimo stuff at target in the juniors section now without looking like a stufed sausage, so ive bought 3 "shirt" dresses (2 shirt styles, one sweater) and they are friggin adorable.  i wear them over black leggings with my industrialy, "tank girl" boots.  that reminds me, i really need to put some pictures up here.  thing is, i still hate having my picture taken.  meh

My 28th birthday is tomorrow and I'm pretty psyched about that. Not because I like getting older or anything. I'm happy because for years I get this crazy idea at the beginning of the summer that I'm gonna diet and exercise and lose a bunch of weight by my next birthday. Of course, that never would happen. This year, I had elective surgery and took out a loan to make sure I can lose weight. All in all, I kind of have insured that I will lose and lose and lose through til my 29th birthday which is pretty awesome if I do say so myself!

well, i had my one month post-op appointment today.  i found it kind of disappointing, truthfully.  for one thing...apparently there is a six pound difference between the doctor's scale and mine at home-and the difference is not in my favor.  i thought i had reached the 200-club threshold but according to the doc's office i am still 306.  oh well. 

the bigger bummer is that since my one week appt (so...3 weeks ago) I've only lost four lbs.  seriously.  how lame is that?  who the heck stalls for 3 weeks in the first month? well...apparently i do!

Dr. Frantzides and i talked it over and he reassured me that I'm fine and so forth and so on.  i know he is right and I've read on the forums about it happening to other people, but i didn't want it to happen to me.  i know inches are still melting away somehow because i can feel AND  see it...i just want the scale to reflect it, too. 

I'm able to add protein bars, chicken, and fish to the mix now so I'm happy with that.  maybe the extra calories from the protein bars will excite something in my body.  apparently right now it thinks I'm starving.

well...im not sure how much ive lost exactly because im not sure how close the dr's scale and my home scale are.  i forgot to check at that first post-op appt and now i still have about another ten days to wait and see.  according to the home scale i am under 300lbs finally which is great.  i stalled last week.  the home scale only fluxed a half pound back and forth each day (yeah...im a jerk...i weigh everyday).  that went on for a week.  i could have cryed.  however, i woke up feeling "thinner" yesterday and lo and behold two lbs were gone.  ill take it!

I posted this as a response on a forum...but thought it was worth sharing here, too..

You know, "pain tolerance" is a funny thing to me.  I am covered in tattoos and used to have a TON of piercings (mostly facial-removed all of them in nursing school) and none of them was "painful" to me.  I felt them...they did not feel like rainbows and sunshine...but the pain was fast and fleeting.  Ive never had a child...so I don't know about the pain and i have amenorrhea (absence of periods) so I've never had the accompanying cramps, either. 
This surgery is my first real experience with pain  and it sucked...bad.  My third day post-op (which was spent entirely at home) was the worst day of all for me.  I overslept and didn't get up in the middle of the nite for my pain pill and was just sore and tight the next a.m.  Today, however, I got up generally "fine", showered by myself (still kinda out of breath immediately after dressing, though), and walked downstairs to get some liquids and so on.  My incision site is still finicky, but seriously. I'm fat...haha...and when I sit down, the incision where the muscle was cut is on a roll!!!  It's like in the worst spot  possible...and every time I laugh (damn you husband!!) my muscle practically spasms.  It's silly.

hmm...still don't feel up to doing the whole surgery commentary thing. i want to eventually cos i enjoy reading other people's and i feel they are a nice research tool for a pre-op'er. 

the pain was definitely worst of all on day 3 of this whole journey. today is managable for sure.  im almost out o the lortab 10's which is fine. i still have boatloads of darvocet if i need them but i have a feeling i will be weaning way down in the upcoming couple of days.