prancing_nougat
I was born 9 lbs give or take a few ounces, so I've always been fat. A healthy sense of self-esteem was never my friend.
I lost 88 lbs 10 years ago, which brought me down to a size 15, which was the smallest that I've ever been probably since birth. I since gained that 88 lbs back, plus so much more!
My biggest fear is not so much losing the weight, but putting it back on again. I really think that I would have a bit of a break-down if I ever lost a considerable amount of weight, only to have to put it back on. I look at WLS as a tool not only to help me break my psychological barrier to lose weight, but also as a tool to help me keep the weight off. I need to change my ways, and sometimes changing your old behaviours that you're comfortable with can be the most frightening thing of all.
