princess3375
JUST ASK ANYONE... I AM A GREAT MOM, A LOVING WIFE, A CARING DAUGHTER, A DEDICATED EMPLOYEE AND IN MY SPARE TIME I AM A VOLUNTEER. BUT WHERE IS CHARLENE THE WOMAN??? DISAPPEARING UNDER LAYERS OF FAT, THAT'S WHERE.
WHERE TO BEGIN?? I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN HEAVY, BUT AFTER MY DAUGHTERS BIRTH IN 1997 (IN WHICH I GAINED 90LBS DURING PREGNANCY) THE WIGHT NEVER WENT AWAY. THE YEAR PRIOR TO HAVING MY DAUGHTER I HAD MY THYROID REMOVED, WHICH DIDN'T HELP EITHER.
I STAYED HOME WITH CHY FOR 7 YEARS BECAUSE SHE WAS BORN WITH A BRAIN HEMORAGE THAT CAUSED SEIZURES AND CERBRAL PALSEY. HER PROGNOSIS WAS NOT GOOD AND WE MADE THE SACRIFICE OF MY INCOME TO GIVE HER THE BEST WE HAD....ME. THE WEIGHT CONTINUED UP AND DOWN BUT NEVER UNDER 240LBS. I WENT BACK TO WORK AND THOUGHT GREAT TIME FOR ME, NOW THE WEIGHT WILL DEFINATELY START COMING OFF!! WRONG! I GAINED UP TO MY HIGHEST WEIGHT BEING THE BUSIEST I HAD EVER BEEN.
MY HUSBAND AND I DISAGREED ABOUT SURGERY, HE WAS SCARED I WOULD DIE DURING SURGERY. HE ALWAYS HAS AND STILL LOVES ME NO MATTER MY SIZE. EVEN IN THE DARKEST PARTS OF OUR 14 YEAR MARRAIGE HE HAS NEVER REFERRED TO MY WIGHT IN A NEGATIVE MATTER. FOR THAT I WILL ALWAYS LOVE HIM. BUT SOMETHING HAD TO GIVE AND MY PRIMARY DOCTOR FINALLY ASKED THE FATAL QUESTION THAT LED ME TO SURGERY. SHE ASKED, DOES YOUR HUSBAND WANT TO BURY YOU FROM SOMETHING THAT MAY NEVER HAPPEN(DYING DURING SURGERY) OR DOES HE WANT TO BURY YOU IN THE NEXT 10 YEARS FROM A STROKE OR HEART ATTACK?? I WENT HOME AND TALKED TO, BEGGED HIM REALLY, AND HE FINALLY AGREED. THE NEXT DAY I SCHEDULED AN APPOINTMENT WITH SURGEON I HAD BEEN RESEARCHING FOR 2 YEARS.
5 MONTHS AND 3 DAYS AFTER MY CONSILTATION MY SURGERY WAS COMPLETE. NOW I AM ON THE SCARIEST JOURNEY OF MY LIFE. I PRAY EVERYDAY FOR THE STRENGTH TO PUT ME IN THE TOP FIVE OF MY TO-DO LIST.
