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Hello Everyone!! Happy 2008!!!! 

Wow, it's been a very long time since I posted on here. Life is going good, as I have met someone really inspirational in my life, he has been a good friend and lover. We met online and were friends at first but when both of the people were dating failed on us, we met up with each other...and the rest as they say is history. 

Now, onto the band and I. Well, lately the band has been good but not the port. I think I've lost so much weight that I've irritated the port site through the exercise, laying on stomach...uhhh sexual fun has caused like a blister on the site...like a blood blister, and it's been concerning me cause I thought it was infected but come to find out that this can occur when you have the older bigger port and it's a blister that occurs from irritation just have to either deal with it...take care of it or get the low profile port. I want the low profile port but want to wait till I have some time off from work to relax, I work with kids so I need to make sure I am up to snuff when I get back to work. So, come mid Feb I'll have it changed out and hopefully this will work out. 

Weightloss, I am at a size 6 in pants and I am happy with it..>I dont weigh cause that can get on my nerves with the changing weight of water weight and crap like that...so word to the wise...just go by your clothes! 

I am happy otherwise and hope this year brings on greater things. I am taking my CBEST to begin teaching later on in the year, and I hope to get the thesis done this year as well.  Wish me luck!

Kelli

Hello Everyone,
Today, a friend and I decided to go see the Giants and A's play in SF. We had a good time, though baseball is not my favorite sport. But, what was really neat was being able to sit in the middle of the row, and when getting up to use the restroom, not having my big butt in others faces while I walk passed them. I didn't feel claustrophobic (sp?) neither because now I have lost alot of weight, I don't feel pinned in amongst others and then worrying what they might be thinking. 

One thing that was torture was the wonderful smells of all that FOOD there!!! It was another time where i wanted to take the band out and go nuts on eating. But, my friend and I decided to go in halves on a Brautwurst Dog...with Saurekraut...mmmm yummy. I had maybe 3 bites of the Braut and a few bites of the saurkraut that I was done. I haven't had a Braut in ages, so I thought this was a nice treat...but 3 small bites...I savored every single bite too...mmm. 

The day was nice but the Giants lost 6-0, which was a bummer but at least they lost to another local team. 

So, NSV's come in different packages and it still amazes me the things I am able to do now 200+ lbs lighter. 

Kelli

The last couple of days have been sore!!! I've been riding my bicycle the last two days, nothing major but getting out into some fresh air and trying out my body outside. I loved it!! I haven't ridden a bike in ages, and when I did I was obese but still moved pretty good, but now with all the weight off, I was flying. 

My days at the gym are going good, and I got my measurements which I will post when I get a copy of them. Believe me, my trainer and I laughed at the fact that now I do have a waist whereas I didn't have one when I had started. I know that June 21st will make 1 year at the gym, and I weighed in at 269 (100lbs down from 370 when I got the surgery), so I lost 100lbs in 5mths at that point...whoo hoo, but NOW I am at 154!!! 

Now, during the time we spent going over my measurements Travis (trainer) decided I needed to check my Cardio Test. The last time I did it was in the beginning and it was way below and I was walking it at that point. So, off we go for the 5min test where I was running this time around and I did it without any problems and I was talking while I was running...whoop whoop!!! 

Life is good without so much weight bearing down on you. So what have you done today to make you feel proud? Kelli

I honestly think my trainer is trying to kill me off slowly with his happy grin as I work out doing my strength training. He is very handsome and a great guy, but boy am I feeling it today in my left calf. I have to go to work and I'll be hobbling...lol. No, workout for me today that's for sure!! I have to say I do enjoy the fact that now I can do push-ups, I can do 20 of them!!! I haven't been able to do that since like jr. high? I know I push myself alot at the gym, but I tell you when you start seeing definition in your body, it excites you alot. Yesterday, evening I went to my friend's MSW graduation and it felt good not feeling weird about sitting in the middle of the row and not worrying about moving across 12 people to get your seat. I can remember dreading moving along in front of people when I was 370, can you imagine a 370 lb butt in your face?? Not pleasant that's for sure, but now that I've lost the weight I feel more confident. So, I sat in my chair next to my friend's sister and mother, and as they were not able to sit right cause of being heavy, I sat comfortably like a little kid with plenty of room on the sides of me. Although, my body aches it's a good feeling at the same time knowing that I was able to move in a way to make it ache, and not be aching because of having to bear so much weight on it. Anywho, those of you looking to change things up in your weightloss, look into getting a trainer at the gym and working different muscles. I have yet to weigh because my trainer told me not to until the end of the month, so I am doing my best to try to stick that, but last I was at 154. 24lbs to go!!! Wish me luck!!!
K

Why are the last 25lbs hardest to lose? Geesh, I mean I should totally be satisfied, but then again when are we ever satisfied with who we are??? Never, right? I just want to get to goal, stay there and never budge again. I've decided to get a trainer, and let me tell ya he is FINE!!!! Talk about a motivator, his hazel eyes and nicely formed body, makes me not mind the fact that I cannot feel anything from my shoulders down. I decided I needed to get into strength training and not rely solely on cardio like I have been. Cardio is great when you are first starting to work out, and I will always do cardio but I do need to boost up my muscles and get some definition...so those of you a 7mths to a year out and have been working out, try getting into strength training, it's hard but you'll see a difference. I already see a difference in my ab area and those batwings are tucking in more. Anywho, life is good...I am just being impatient about my weightloss now, but where I am now is a heck of alot better than where I was. 

Kelli 
370/155/130

Hello Everyone!
Well, a very new NSV for me is that I am now, up and running on the treadmill!!! I am totally amazed at how this surgery has helped me make a complete transformation from not being able to walk to get my mail without huffing and puffing to now running 20mins straight on the treadmill. The Fat Kid is now a Running Kid...woo hoo!!! I know 20mins is not a marathon but it is the greatest acheivement thus far. Now, I am not going to be in any Nike commericials but I know that this type of freedom is greatly welcomed!  

Everyone, enjoy the small NSV's and the GREAT NSV's!!!! Have a great day!!! I know i will :)~

Kelli

Howdy Everyone!!! 
Well, the scale finally moved down as I was about to do the discus throw from my bathroom out to the front lawn...ha ha! I was plateaued for the longest time at 175, so I boosted my protein on all my meals and drank TONS of water...I think I'll take up stock in DEPENDS...cause let me tell you I was going alot!!! 

I am now at 166.3, so hopefully down to 165 by the end of the month and 160 by the time I go for my final fill (at least I hope) on April 10th. I have 36lbs to lose to reach my goal, and I hope I just stay there cause I really don't want to go from one extreme to being a stick person! 

I love how I feel, and how my body allows me to do the things that I have missed for over 20years. I read someone's profile and they had said they wanted to ride a rollercoaster with their son, and I can say that is my goal as well since I love rollercoasters but haven't been able to ride them cause of the blubber. 

Anywho, that's about it for now...will try to update more often. 

Kelli

I have to tell you folks, the last 40lbs is the toughest to lose!!! I am stuck at 175 and have been for over a week or more. Now, I had my lovely monthly check in...and yes, we all know that you gain weight but I expected to be at least down to 170, but OH NO, I've been bloated since. I have taken a few water pills to ease the bloatness, but to no avail. I think I am either in the process of ovaulating again gearing up for my next monthly and have not dropped the water weight gain.I've always had weird periods, but this is killing me!!! I have not changed my habits and yet I am not losing. I dread going to get another fill because I eat little as it is already, what will I be like with another fill..."Ah, I'll take a Crouton to go, please!!" Or eat one bite of chicken, thanks but I'm full!!! Ugh!!! 

I have emailed my patient coordinator about another fill date. I am making it either March 31st or April 6th, before Dr. A goes on vacation (well needed I am sure). So, please wish me luck, I want to get to 170 cause that will mark 200lbs gone forever!!! I figure getting the next fill will get me through the next 40lbs and that should be it, I will have reached my goal of 130..hopefully before summer is up!!! 

As for my plateau, I am boosting my protein with chicken in the morning, my 1/4 sandwich at lunch and the rest of my sandwich for dinner since I'll be at the college tonite. I have decided to say goodbye to Cool Whip Lite...I've become addicted and have gone through too many tuubs, which I think could be the cause of my not losing any weight...wish me luck!! It's gonna be tough giving that up. 

Anywho, that's about it for now...time to get ready for work. TTFN!!

Kelli
370/175 damn scale!!/130

Today, I unleashed alot of pent up emotions unto one of my professors today at the university, but it felt cathartic. I spoke about the different emotions that I had when I was obese and now that I've lost all this weight. It's funny, how we fantasied about the way life would be once we were thinner, but then reality puts a spin on what things really are; for example wanting to hear "Gee, you look great!!" You'd think I'd be jumping up for joy, but instead there are times when I want to plug my ears and curl up and not hear those words...what's wrong with me? It's like I'm totally uncomfortable with these comments. There are even times I will say ashamefully, that I look at other obese people and say, "What's wrong with them, don't they know they can just eat smaller amounts to lose weight??" Here I am being condemning other obese people, when I am STILL OBESE!!!! I am ashamed, taken back by some of these thoughts...but while talking to the prof, he was saying, perhaps it's my own anger that I've stuffed down towards myself finally coming out, however it's easier to Project those feelings onto others rather than dealing with my own issues. 

I always said I'd never think or say things like that knowing what it is like to be super obese, that I'd be compassionate..but I guess compassion has to come first for myself, understanding that I need to rectify my own problems, coming to peace with that before I can have compassion for others. 

Anywho, there were myriads of questions and self revealation that I was talking while there with the professor...again, I am not trying to hurt others that read this post, but I wanted to be honest...be open about what I've been thinking, the good and the bad. I think taking a good look at myself, being honest and really taking a good look at my past to deal with the present. 

I love myself and hate myself at the same time...crazy huh? But, there's been alot of changes in my life, I just hope that I can learn from this experience and find some sense of peace with myself and focus on the future with a positive frame of mind. 

I'll try to post on my ramblings...again, if you find this offensive, then please do not visit my profile...I'm not going to hide things just to please others, I've done that for too damn long in the past. 
~K

I don't think I can remember the last time I was 177, maybe in high school my sophomore year?? I know it's been a long time coming, and I am enjoying my body more and more; however, there are the left over saggy skin that haunts me now. I am losing the weight but at a slower pace, but that is okay! I figure if I can lose 10lbs by the end of this month...which will put me at 170lbs then I'll be on track. So, I have 7 more pounds to lose in still 3.5 weeks, I think it can be done!!! I figure 10lbs every month is about right, putting 2lbs a week off with lots of exercising!!! 

I get alot of people asking me if I have any secrets about my weight loss, as to how fast I have lost the weight. Not really any major secrets, other than I stick to a really good diet and I don't get off of it. My only goodie that I allow myself are sugar free candies to control that need for something in the mouth syndrome...I have maybe about 5 a day, more than that and I'll be running to the restroom!!! HA HA. I also like fresh fruit with Cool Whip Lite and I like to get a few spoons extra of it just because it's my only goodie I have for myself! I drink tons of water, green tea, sugar free lemonade by Tropicana (oh this stuff is so awesome). 

I work out alot is another tip, like about 2 or 2.5 hours 5 x's a week. First, if you are newly banded take it easy, allow your body to heal itself. About 3mths you may want to start walking, get good shoes and perhaps an ipod or a friend that you can walk with, start slow but increase as you feel better. Then later you will want to get some cardio and strength training, some go to Curves but I decided I wanted to go to a gym. I got a great trainer, told her about my WLS and she was supportive and put me on a great workout routine. I try to change it up like with swimming but since it's been cold, though it's inside I don't like going outside kinda with a wet head; and I need a new bathing suit...they are not out quite yet!!! 

My main thing is I eat every 2hrs after my first break, I have my break at work around 10am so I have a protein bar (pure protein from walmart) then afterwards I have lunch at 12:30, then another snack b4 the gym, then dinner and my dessert..yum-o!  I think by eating every 2hrs it kicks my metabolism so I am not in starve mode all the time. 

Anywho, to those of you who are getting banded I wish you the best of luck and take care of yourself! 

P/S Do you think it weird that I love to watch the Food Network when I can't eat most of the food they show??? LOL My roomie thinks it's crazy that I watch this show with all it's goodies and I don't eat any of it. There are somethings that do make me drool, mostly by Racheal Ray! I love the Challenge shows and Throwdown with Bobby Flay...he is too cute!!! 

P/S/S YESSSSSSSSSSSS COLTS WON 29-17!!!!! IT'S ABOUT TIME PEYTON!!!!!