Almost 5 mos Post Op

Aug 18, 2009

Well it has been almost 5 months since my surgery. I worried that I had not done as well as I could when I went back for my 4 month checkup. Honestly I didn't want to go. I had hit another plateau. But I was so happy and amazed at my doctor's reaction. I had lost 66lbs and was at 65% of my weight loss goal! I was so happy!
Truthfully I had a set back with snacking and I had been recovering from a terrible accident which resulted in a broken (more like shattered) nose. I had to have emergency surgery and the pain put me flat on my back not able to exercise at all. So needless to say, I was scared and depressed. The scale had stopped. Although I wasn't gaining it was very disheartening to say the least.
But my wonderful doctor gave me the words of encouragement I needed. It was great knowing that these things were normal. That I would experience lulls in weight loss. And most importantly that I was on the right track!!
I have picked up the exercising again. Cut out the snacks. My nose is healing much better than anyone thought. It put me down for a bit but not out of the game. I am determined to beat the depression once and for all. I am even thinking seriously of going back to school. I feel human again and it is awesome!
For anyone who is going thru tough times the first couple of months out....please hang in there!! There were days I wondered if I would make it through. What had I done? It does get better, I promise. And it is worth it!! You will learn what your body can tolerate. And trust me...it is different for everyone. And when you feel like you are sabotaging your diet, it is OK. You can start fresh tomorrow. Put your lil failures behind you and look to the future! I think most of us were addicted to food. Your mind will still tell you try this or that....you need that comfort. I am telling you I still struggle with it. Food was my friend. But it was killing me. Stay strong. Tomorrow is a new day. That is my new motto.
I try to imagine where I will be in a few months. I still see the fat girl in the mirror. But on paper I have lost more than 70lbs now! That is amazing to me. It's like an out of body experience!!! I have all these new angles in my face and get to buy new clothes. Heck I am getting into some of my girls clothes! It is awesome! When my mind catches up with the rest of me, watch out world! There is no telling the person hiding in there all these years!
Thank you Lissa Reed for all your support and encouragement. You have been my inspiration the whole way. For the rest of you, check out her story. I am lucky to know this lady personally and she is amazing! I hope to live....really LIVE life the way you do today! I don't know where to even begin, but I am so ready!! Love you girl!!

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