Robin L.

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Friday's Visit at Weight Wise  5/25/07
Current mood:  accomplished
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

I got a RMR "Resting Metabolic Rate" test done & apparantly I burn alot of fat calories when I rest....See I knew all that sleep wasn't a total waste of time LMAO  anyway I lost 4 & a half pounds! I'm thrilled & I thanked Jesus right away!  I'm still mainly on the 1200 calorie diet but it consists of  5 meal supplements..Shakes & what not..Actually the strawberry creme shakes are pretty awesome! I can now walk a mile around the football field! I am so beside myself..I have not walked like this since high school...that was nearly 24 years ago... Anyway that's all the update for now..I went & seen Pirates Of  The Carribean "At Worlds End"  yesterday & it was AWESOME...I  loved it..Johnny Depp was amazing as always... I must  say that Orlando looked awfully good in his pirate gear as well.. 

Yo.. Ho.. Yo.. Ho.. A Pirates Life For Me!

You know you've had weight loss surgery when: 

* I have a date" does not mean you're going out.
* You have baby food in the house and no baby.
* "I'm a loser" is a good thing.
* "Welcome to the other side" doesn't include death.
* New clothes fall off in a week.
* You get excited about hand me downs.
* The scale at Wal-Mart no longer says "one at a time please".
* Going bald and getting wrinkles is a good thing.
* "Just water for me please".
* When your rear end no longer looks like a mudslide.
* When you get excited that your incision was "only 4 inches".
* When the word lap has nothing to do with a strip club.
* Other women are calling you names behind your back.
* When you are glared at in the plus size department because you don't "belong there".
* When you really don't have a thing to wear.
* You have to prove you are the person on the driver's license.
* You start being in the pictures not behind the camera.
* You want to hug everyone fat and hand them your surgeon's card.
* You are never parted from a bottle of water
* When you order a doggy bag at the same time as your meal.
* Being too small for your britches.
* When the only way your nipples are where they belong is to roll them up, position them with your bra and secure with a ponytail holder.
* When you go to the mall and take the first available space instead of circling 20 minutes for one closer to the door.
* You truly are a "cheap date".
* When one drink makes you flipping floozy!
* When you run to the door and don't hear a flapping sound.
* You flip your shirt to show complete strangers your scar.
* Vitamins feel like a meal.
* You go from a 56DDDD to 32AAA in a year and didn't have a breast reduction.
* You've just lost 100 lbs and run into a high school friend who asks "did you change your hair?"
* You can cross your legs... both of them
* Instead of a Wonder Bra you need a Wonder Where They Went Bra
* When your obsession from food turns to your scale.
* They no longer call 911 for the Jaws of life to extricate you from a turnstile.
* No more Velcro shoes
* When your Stairmaster is no longer used for drying your fine washables
* your mother says "You don't eat enough"
* When your doctor looks you in the eye and says "I know you will have success with this."
* Having sex your husband complains that your hip bones are poking him.
* You can wear corduroy pants without igniting a fire
* When you wave and your upper arms wave back
* You safety pin your underwear
* Someone phones and thinks your husband is sneaking around with some skinny mistress
* Cannot blame the cat/dog for shedding
* Cancel your Lane Bryant Credit Card
* 3 Lean Cuisines a week and that's your total grocery purchase
* The kids wonder what happened to the cake and cookie god...did he die???

Weight Wise

Well I went to Weight Wise yesterday & I only lost half a pound..I am disappointed.. They have me on an agressive diet 5 supplements & 1 meal & 2 fruits. They did a metabolic test..Where I had to be on a treadmill to measure when I burned the most fat & now have one of those heart monitor watches that beeps real slow if I am walking too slow & beeps real fast if I am walking too fast & I think it will help me alot..I did not get back from Edmond till after 6pm so I missed  my support group again..I have to go back to Edmond every 2 weeks now instead of 4 while I am on this liquid diet so to speak.. I cried when I only lost half a pound..I just thought it would be more with all my walking..I stopped at the New Balance store & got a good pair of walking shoes..so I am hoping they will help my legs quit hurting while I am walking. I have been  walking around Sykes & I try & walk around the football field at least twice..depending on how bad my legs hurt..but now since I have good shoes..maybe I will be able to do better..I kinda like walking around the football field..I have walked more in the past 4 weeks than I ever have in all my life..They did say my lean body fat was a better rating & my clothes are fitting loose..but I guess when I did not see a big loss I was disappointed..All together I have lost 9 & a half pounds of the weight the dr wants me to lose....I got so upset that I said I can't do it..I am doomed to be fat the rest of my life..but the nurses  were all encouraging & told me not to give up..I am not going to give up..I just got super frustrated..but I am going to hang tough & keep walking.. They want me to walk 6 days a week & do my strength training 3 days a week & stretches 7 days a week. I just want to have the surgery so bad..I just want to be healthy..I am so darn tired of feeling crappy all the time & I want so bad to be off all the meds that I am on..Just tired of being tired all the time..I have no one to blame but myself for the horrible shape that I let myself go to..So yes it is indeed going to be a battle to get out of this slump but its one I am going to face head on..So if I whine & rant a bit too much..I am sorry...I am just extremely impatient... So I am sure it will help me in that dept as well LOL So if anyone wants to walk with me let me know LOL Have a great weekend!

I'm from Oklahoma & today we are remembering the bombing that happened in our state 12 years ago.. On this day I continue to lift up those who survived & those who mourn the loved ones who died in the blast..in my prayers you will always remain.. This is a link to a wonderful site that has alot of informative links about the horrible tragedy that hit my state on 4/19/95

http://www.nuwc.navy.mil/hq/webmaster/okmem.html

 

 

 

I am also here to remember those young lives that were taken at VT To those families & friends ..all the students & teachers & staff of that school..I'm so very sorry for your loss.. I have you lifted in prayer as well..

I had my stress test done yesterday & I did pretty good..I almost fell off the treadmill at the end.. I begged them to let me off but they wanted me to hang on for one more minute..I made it..but boy was I spent for the rest of the day LOL

I will be getting the results tommarrow and I have my appointment at the Weight Wise clinic in Edmond..I am praying I get to make a date for my gastric bypass surgery.... I am not doing so hot with my auto pap machine..I still feel sleepy..I will call Dr. Imes at Lynn Institute & see what he says..I mailed the card to him from out of the auto pap machine so we shall see.. I am so ready to have this surgery..I have doing this since October..Insurance wants me to lose like 25 pounds before...well if it was that easy..I would not need the surgery.. I am really disgusted..My health has been so poor & I can hardly do any type of exersize without getting really short of breath but I am trying to do as much as I can..Ok I will stop ranting but I am severely discouraged.. But I won't give up..

Well not much is going on right now..I am still getting used to the auto pap machine & I am suffering from a severe case of empty nest syndrome.. I am missing my sons so much.. I think of them always..

.I have not seen Jesse in over a year

I feel as though I have failed Jesse  but I am truly grateful that his Dad & Mom have taken such great care of him & I know I have nothing to worry about..I know he will not ever have to wait or want for anything because they will always provide it for him.

Eric is underway right now & hopefully will be back in San  Deigo soon.. Eric calls me alot & keeps me up to date on everything that is going on in his life. He has helped me keep my sanity this past year.. He has been such a wonderful son but more than that he has been my best friend & I hate it when he goes underway..I feel very isolated from the world.. I would like to call Jesse more..but I feel as though I am an intrusion in his life..they have set him up with a far better life than I ever could give him.. I often cry out in the middle of the night for my sons..I look at pictures of them & and remember the good times.. I was in no way the perfect Mom..I made alot of stupid mistakes..but make no mistake..I loved you Eric & Jesse..every step of the way & I always will & I have been so very proud to say that you two are my sons..

I have been reading alot & crocheting ..I am still a beginner at the crochet.. I am trying to make an afgan for each of my sons..and as usual I don't think they look good enough so I have done & re-done what I have started a million times..

so I am going to try once more at the blankets & just hope they will like them & that no one will point out the flaws in the blankets.. I will have made them with the love I have for both my sons in my heart.

PLEASE DO NOT THINK I am throwing a pity party for myself..I am just jotting down my feelings & I don't want to make anyone feel bad or guilty or sad for me...Jesse I especially  don't want you to think I am trying to make you feel bad..Because I am not trying to do that...Again..my emotions are riding on my sleeves today..

All I lack in getting to have my surgery is getting clearence from cardiologist & to lose 20 more pounds..I am stressing out on how much this is going to cost me..but I KNOW that if I don't have this..I won't be around much longer..I was out picking up trash in the yard & I got so short winded & I had to stop to catch my breath..

Well yesterday I had 4 different appointments at weight wise & also got results from blood work & Upper GI & chest x-ray & all were good so I am cleared on all that.. I have my cardiac clearence appointment with Dr. Schiff on 4/5 at 1:30pm. Dr Ames put me on a very expensive antibitotic Avelox thank goodness I only have to take it 5 days..5 pills were $60 I about fell over lol

Oh yeah,,I have quit smoking!!!!!! Yee haw! Now to get myself off the caffiene again...I must be honest right now though..I am wanting a ciggerette really bad so I just popped a chantix so that should subside here shortly..If you are trying to quit smoking I highly suggest you get chantix ..Have your dr prescribe it for you..It made quitting smoking a whole lot easier..I usually do it cold turkey but since they are making me give up all my vices I needed the extra help.

Anyway Chris my dietician changed my diet again &  medifast meal supplements have  been added..We are trying the more aggressive diet plan to get off the 25 pounds I must lose before surgery.. I have to increase walking between 15 to 20 minutes straight walking & work with my elastic bands & stretches..The exersise part is what kills me..I get so short winded so fast but Somer my exersise phys. told me to do it as I can handle she does not want me huffing & puffing..So I am going to do my level best to throw myself into this diet so I can get the remainder of the weight off & then just wait for my cardiac clearence & then on my next visit to weightwise we will be making a surgery date! I am so excited! I must say everyone at weightwise is so super nice & they strive to make sure I understand everything & they treat me so very nice..It's very nice to be treated like a human being! Anyways that's all the update I have as of right now..

Dr. Iams said  I do have a case of sleep apnea & he said I have more symptoms more than the apnea itself so he has put me on a machine similar to the cpap but this one has a humidifier on it.. It has a card in it that keeps record of my sleeping & I have to mail it in. He listened to my heart & says I have a heart murmer & says when most peoples hearts have tricuspid valves..."3 valves"

To the heart..I only have 2. I am now going to have to have an  cardiac ultrasound  on my heart. He changed my high blood pressure medicine to cozaar  it is 50mg & he did this to stop the cough & dry throat the linsinopril I take & to help my high blood pressure. He also put me on a spiriva handihaler

SPIRIVA^® HandiHaler^® (tiotropium bromide inhalation powder) is a medicine for the regular (maintenance) treatment of bronchospasm (airway narrowing) associated with Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease (COPD).* COPD includes chronic bronchitis and emphysema. COPD is a disease of breathlessness caused primarily by airways getting narrow. SPIRIVA helps open up your airways to help you breathe easier. It works for a full 24 hours to help your airways stay open all day. And, SPIRIVA is the only inhaled COPD medicine that you take just once a day.

 

So tommarrow I have to find a cardiologist & get this ultrasound done & get clearenece..So PLEASE keep me in your prayers that all goes well & the meds the Dr. has put me on will help.

The Dr. said I had 11 episodes during my sleep study. Wich means..11 times during the little sleep I got..I stopped breathing 
..I suppose..

Don't buy Pepsi in the new can. Pepsi has a new "patriotic" can
coming out with pictures of the Empire State Building , and the
Pledge of Allegiance on them.
However, Pepsi left out two little words on the pledge,

"Under God."
Pepsi said they didn't want to offend anyone.

In that case, we don't
want to offend anyone at the Pepsi corporate office, either!
So if we don't buy any Pepsi product, they will not be offended
when they don't receive our money that has the words

"In God We Trust" on it.

HOW FAST CAN YOU FORWARD THIS ONE?

Well the sleep study & the EKG,UGI,LAB,CXR is all done now all I need to do is see a cardiologist & get clearence & I am all done with my pre-op requirements! I am so excited..It's getting closer! I go to see a pulmonologist on 3/8 & will probably be put on my cpap then & I don't know how long they will want me to be on that..I am hoping I have lost remainder of weight I need to lose...Anyway thats all the update I have now.