birthday blues not as bad as I thought

Nov 14, 2014

So tomorrow I'm turning 41...when I first started this journey, I really thought I would have had the surgery before turning the big 4-0 but here I am about to be IN the 40s and still haven't had the surgery.  But, I am closer to it again...went for orientation yesterday, booked my 1st appts this morning!  December 16th - Nurse, January 6th Dietician and SW! So, it's happening, it's really happening...I've even already filled out the paperwork, just need to keep logging my food via myfitnesspal and it'll be that much closer...I am wondering if the way I did my calculation in how quick the process is going though, that I will be on OPTI during our annual family camping trip, which will be quite humorous as I was on OPTI 2 years ago during the non-surgical program at the same time.  I just remember a cousin saying that it sucked I couldn't be her drinking buddy during our holidays that year but next year I would be able to...I did in fact (this was this past summer) endulge in some alcoholic beverages during my vacation, wouldn't say I over-indulged but I was able to participate with all the other adults...this year coming...I'm sure if I am, they'll be those that won't quite understand why, but most of my family has been very supportive of my decision.  I just hope that I'm not scheduled for surgery around that time cause then my kids and I won't be able to go and I know they look forward to it...I know my brother has been great and will probably have them go with him but I wouldn't want to put that on him as he has his own two to worry about...so on to the next phase!!

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