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Ok, these last two weeks have been beyond stressful for me.  My Son (who has epilepsy) went in for two surgery's.  I have been really trying to watch what I eat and portion size (of course I have paid a few times for eating to much).  Anyhow, I have to be honest I know there are some days where I am not getting in all 3 meals a day.  I know that me not losing weight is proof of that.  It's just so hard to eat (or find the time to eat) while I am sitting in the hospital with my Son.  My weight for the past 4 days has been up one pound then down one pound the next day.  It's getting me really frustrated.  I just feel like a failure.  I just want life to get back to normal so I can start concentrating on getting back on track.  Since my operation I haven't even been out to exercise but maybe 3 or 4 times.  I am just so drained by the time I get home breath a little.  I also feel like I might never get back this "stuck" feeling that I am in.  GRRRRRRR.  I guess I need to just have a pity party for myself.  I hope that I snap out of this soon!!!

So I went in for my first post op appt today.  As of today I am down 30lbs.  I am also down 22% of my excess body weight!!!  I am soooooo excited!!!! 

Today was also the change of command on my hubby's ship.  I was so brave and wore the dress (I haven't worn a dress in YEARS!!!  I was so shocked to hear all of the complements on the dress and how I looked in it.  It made me feel so good.  I have attached a photo of my hubbers and I on my profile. 

I just had to share my good day!!

Sorry I have been MIA for awhile.  Life has been pretty crazy since my surgery.  I do have to admit that I am feeling about a million percent better since having the surgery.  It's amazing!!!  I love the feeling!!!

Anyhow, this weekend was my first weekend being able to eat foods.  I can tell you that it feels soooooo good to eat good rather than be drinking liquid after liquid.  So moving on. . . I have been feeling like life has been so crazy for my family.  Like we don't have any family time.  It's been 2 solid months of either my hubby working or me having things going on.  This weekend was our first weekend as a family and it felt GREAT!!!  Even with having a Family Readiness Group activity (Family Friendly) (which was soooo much FUN).  We had an awesome weekend!!!  I can honestly say that this weekend has been the best one for us in a LONG TIME.  I am feeling good, the kids did well (no seizures for my Son, WOOHOO) and my hubby was home!!!  It's like I felt like our lives were perfect!!  I loved it!

I know that this post isn't really weight loss related, but I figured that I would post it anyway. 

To all of my WLS friends with upcoming surgery or have just had surgery you are all in my thoughts and prayers.  I am so blessed to have each and everyone of you in my life!!  Thank you so much for everything!!

Love you all!!

Ok, last night I went to visit a gal in the ICU who had gastric bypass yesterday.  After I left I have to say I was pumped and ready to go!!  Thinking to myself . . . YES!  I only have 6 more days!!!  WOOHOO!!!  Blah, Blah, Blah.  Well today I have been sitting here thinking about her.  Wondering how she is feeling.  Thinking about everything I saw last night.  Recalling what her tummy looked like with her scars and then seeing her coming in and out of it because of the pain meds.  Then walking with her for the first time since her surgery.  I have to admit . . . I am getting really scared!!!  I sitting here thinking is this what I really want?  Not that I don't want to finish results of the surgery, but short term stuff is what scares the stuffing out of me!  I am just praying that this is the right decision. 

Ok, so I am a few days into my liquid diet.  It's not as bad as I thought it was going to be.  I think that the worst part right now is my dizzy spells.  I don't know if it's because I am not getting enough calories or if it's normal??  I am going to the doctors office in the morning so I will ask them about that.  It's only when I stand up.  Once I am up and going I am fine.  Other than that I am doing good!!  100% better than I thought I would be at this point!!  It's so funny because I am missing food that I would have never thought I would miss!!  Like veggies... I would do anything for broccoli right now!!  LOL  Strange huh??  I am so proud of myself.  I haven't cheated once!!!  It's funny I was telling my good friend Bonnie this weekend, that I keep cheating in my dreams!!  I had a dream this weekend that I ate two boxes of Mac and Cheese!!  I woke up in a panic!  LOL  I am so excited about this new life that God is giving me!!  I just can't wait!!!!! 

You know that feeling when you were a kid waiting for something really big like your Birthday Party or Santa coming to visit?  It's like you were sleepless and you had butterflies in your tummy?  Well that's how I feel now.  I got all of the steps done for my final approval for this process.  After my nutrition appointment I called my surgeons office (you know I did Amy LOL)  to see when I can get in to see my surgeon for my actual surgery date!  Now it's just a waiting game on when they can call me back and when I can get into see him.  Like I said . . . the whole kid and Santa feeling!  lol  I am just so excited I can't see straight!  I will be sitting here by the phone all day . . . waiting for the phone call!!  :) 

Well today is my final step before I go back into to meet with my surgeon.  I am so excited/nervous!!  I am going in to meet with the nutrition department.  I have to get their ok before I can get the surgery done.  I have so many questions in my mind for them.  I have a feeling that they will answer all of them during our conversation.  I just can't believe that time is flying by so quickly in this process.  I swear that being on obesityhelp.com has helped me out so much in this!  I have learned sooooo much from being on this board!  The more that I think about everything the more excited I get to start my "new life".  I am just so ready for this next step!! 

I also have to share . . . two weeks ago I stopped all caffeine and soda intake!  I haven't had a drop of it at all!!  If you knew me you would know that's a HUGE deal for me!  I also tried to cut back on my splenda.  I know that I can still have it after my surgery, but I just wanted to cut back on it some.  I am having my hot decaf tea in instead of having 6 packets I have 2!  I have been starting to feel sooooo much better.  I think that this will only help once I have my surgery.  Anyhow, I just had to share because I am so excited!!

WOOHOO!!  Today I went for my psychology appointment.  I was a ball of nerves.  Not knowing was to expect.  I went in first thing this morning and had a good talk with the doc and everything went PERFECT!  I got the OK from the clinic!!  WOOHOO!!  That means I am one step closer to my dream of this surgery!!  My next step is next Tuesday when I meet with the Nutrition Clinic.  I am actually really looking forward to that appointment.  I have about a million and one questions for them.  So we will see how that goes.  I just can't wait!!  It feels like things are really starting to happen!!  I am on cloud 9 right now if you can't already tell!!  lol  Anyhow, I just had to get this off my chest!  I am just soooooo excited!! 

My first blog!  Wow . . . what to say . . . what to say . . . :)  Well I have a crazy week lined up this week.  First of all I will explain about my 5 year old son.  He has a very severe form of epilepsy.  He's had it for 2 years now.  His current treatment is something call IVIG.  He goes in everything 3 to 4 weeks 2 days out of the month to get an IV treatment that lasts approx 4 to 8 hours each treatment.  God love him . . . he's such a trooper . . . he goes in and does great with it!  He's gone from having 40 seizes a day to 1 seizure every month!  Thank God that the treatment seems to be working!  Anyhow, back to my week!!  This week is my son's treatment week.  We go in to Portsmouth Naval Hospital Wednesday and Thursday for his treatment.  Then Thursday night I go back to Portsmouth for my first ever Gastric Bypass support group, which I am so beyond excited for!  I cannot wait for that!!  I am praying that I get some good information at that class!!  I really hope to meet some new friends who have made this journey already and maybe some who are doing this journey along with me.  Then next week I go in for my psychology appointment then the week after that my nutrition appointment!  I am just getting more and more excited as each day passes!!  I can't wait for this new journey to begin!!  WOOHOO!!!