Wrap my head

Jun 11, 2011

during this journey from the first visit to the day of surgery and then beyond,I have had time to think about loosing weight and what I can achieve with this new tool.  loosing 25, then 35 and then the 40 something felt like just a number.  But when I hit 50 pounds, my head went --- what!!!
I am having an issue with this number, why ? it is something I have not been able to achieve in how many years with the help of the other weight loss programs.  I get it, I lost it, but my head still can't wrap around that number.

I go shopping and still walk to the 2x clothes, still walk to the plus size section, still think of myself as the plus size woman I was for many years. my head has yet to adjust to the no butt, no boob body I have just re-introduced to myself.

I feel fabulous, I look fabulous and the compliments are overwhelming to me.  I take the comments with a huge smile and accept the compliments and move on. this is something I am seriously working on - acceptance of compliments from strangers.

50 pounds is huge and I am very proud to have achieved that number.

there are days when I still feel icky and need to rest as I am exhausted.  I have more good days than the icky days.  Good for me.

I need to constantly give self talk - I can do this, I look great, I did this for me, I will succeed.

only I can control how I use this tool and so far, I am using it.

Yay to 50 !!!!!

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