sharkcandy7
Im a big girl from a big family. My mom and aunt both had the GB surgery 10+ years ago. My aunt passed away due to complications/malnutrition and my mom has had to undergo several transfusions due to anemia and complains of explosive diarrhea and bad gas (believe me, it would bring tears to even thr strongest mans eyes). I have been a size 18+ since forever. I never had a skinny period in my life though there are times where i looked better then others. I am the queen of taking good photographs because I learned how to stand so i look better, how to angle my face and how to hold my hands. So my pics dont truly show how bad I am. Of course when you see yourself naked all the time, you are your own worst critic with or without them on. One of my last DRs visits i heard the words "High Blood Pressure and Diabetes" when I have lived a healthy life thus far. My DR was the one who reccomended the surgery and i just went with it.
I dont know what kind of an eater i am. Apparantly Im a 'lot o food' eater. People ask "Well are you a stress eater? Emotional eater? etc.." TO tell you the truth, i just eat all wrong. I dont eat breakfast, i work alot and forget to eat and then when I do remember - i eat the whole days worth in one sitting because i realize im ravenous. Usually the first time I eat is like 2pm. I try not to eat after 6pm but sometimes my business dinners get the better part of me.
Surgery seems like such a last resort to me. The end all of end alls. I guess with my family history it seemed completely intimidating. I would have never done this had I not found a friend that had undergone a recent laprascopic GB. She is thin and beautiful, vivatious and motivated. I have worked with her for a year or so and always thought of her as the skinny bitch in the office. Until she let me in on her secret. We then became fast friends and she has really mentored me through the process of DRs visits and expectations etc.. I know that no matter what happens here on this site - I have a mentor close to me.
