Jennifer F.
We're engaged!
Jan 09, 2010
I told my mom that I wasn't sure if I was more excited about the engagement or about how much smaller my dress will be than it would have been a year ago! Just kidding. To be honest, I'm a little anxious about dress shopping because of my warped body image/brain issue. I'm all over the map these days! Sometimes I feel so small, other times I feel like I look the same I did a year ago. I know it's in my head, but its still a struggle.
Anyway, I have to TOTAL potential to be bridezilla. I'm going to work really hard to not do that! Wish me luck and keep me in check please.
5K and follow up
Dec 23, 2009
We had a follow up with Dr. W. He commended our efforts since the Smackdown of October. He seemed especially proud of our 5k. He also mentioned that we were talking like he wants to hear (with an empahsis on excerise and calories). He said that he wants to see me at 177. I think I can do it. That's about 16 lbs. I think I can do it by April.
Yesterday was the first time I made it to the gym since the race. I decided to run another 5k on the treadmill, just to prove I could do it and it wasn't a fluke! I did. Woot.
It's been forever
Nov 30, 2009
I'm signed up to do a 5k on Dec 19th and I'm gonna do great! I'm hoping to beat my best time of 45 minutes. I recognize that means I'm going to have work at that, but I am totally committed. I KNOW I am going to make it to the hundred lb mark. I hope by the first of the year, but I may even surprise myself and do it sooner.
I read a comment recently, "for some of us the weight just falls off - the rest of us have to fight for every pound". That really struck a nerve with me. I am going to be one of those that has to fight, I had a temper tantrum about that for a few months, but now I'm over it. I AM going to fight for myself to beat this thing. I didn't go through all of this for nothing. I'll let you know how the 5K turns out.
Under 200
Jul 21, 2009
BTW, disregard the date on the bottom of this image. The picture was taken today 7/22/09.
Pancakes
Jun 13, 2009
Really Good High Protein Pancakes for 2
1/2c Cottage Cheese
2TBS Greek Yogurt
2 Eggs
4 TBS Baking mix (like Jiffy or Bisquick)
Options:
1/4tsp vanilla
1/2 tsp cinnamon
1/2 Banana
Put all ingredients in a blender and mix to remove big lumps. Cook in a frying pan on medium heat. I'ved used oil and Cooking spray in the pan and both work just fine. So use what you have.
I usually top mine with toasted walnuts, sugar free syrup and additional banana slices.
Sain again
May 31, 2009
I'm sain again. My temper tantrum and my stall are over. I'm down another few pounds (the amount varies depending on where you start counting). The total is 82lbs. I can live with that. I decided to kick it into gear by substituting my carbolicious snacks (like pretzels) with better proteinalicious snacks (like cottage cheese and pinapple). I've also kicked it into gear with increasing my activity and trying to avoid the couch. This morning I even took Ginger for a walk before coming to work (yes, I got my butt out of bed and went on a 30 min walk). I took it at a slow pace because I really lack energy in the morning and I'm certainly wasn't cheery - but I did it. Now even if I choose to not go to the gym tonight, I feel like I've already accomplished something.
Also on a positive note, I bought my second pair of size 16 pants. I thought the first pair was a fluke, you know maybe these just run big, but the second pair was from Old Navy not the Ave or the Lane. I have them on as I type this and I'm not gasping for breath or anything. It feels great.
Hungry
May 19, 2009
I'm pissed and freaking hungry! I cannot seem to satisfy my urge to eat constantly (yesterday and today that is). I keep telling myself its all in my head - that I'm not really hungry. I am trying to avoid the carbs because from what I read carbs=bad news. So here's what I've had today: 1 mini quiche (ham as crust), 1 slice Very Thin Bread, toasted, Peasant Soup, spinach pie and snackers. I think that's not bad! Ok, so I probably didnt need the snackers (see first sentace of this paragraph). Even right now, I'm hungry! I need to lock myself in a room with a hunk of meat.
Let me just state for the record, I'm not opposed to becoming a health nut or workout junkie, I just didn't think I'd have to do that to break the 200lb mark. Don't get me wrong, I'm working out 3 times a week, walking the dog, riding my bike and taking yoga - I'm no slouch! I'm WAY more active now than I have been in years! This is effing ridiculous! And to top it off, I look like crap today - my fat rolls are bigger than ever. I look like I've gained 40 lbs.
Lord please help me to deal with this in a healthy manner. I'm sure most of what I've written today isn't even true, but it is how I feel right now.
Support group
May 13, 2009
Snacks I love
Apr 29, 2009
Nuts - usually smoked almonds or pistachios
ISS Oh Yeah Protein Wafer - totally yum. Tastes like a candy bar to me. I usually eat one wafer and save the other until tomorrow.
ISS Oh Yeah Protein Bar - even yummier, but a little more dangerous unless I can find the snack sized. When I buy the full sized bar, it's a little hard to stop unless I cut the bar in advance.
South Beach Peanut Butter Bar - I'm not certain of the exact name because I don't have it in front of me, but it's the kind you find in the granola bar section of the grocery store (not the protein bar section). It takes like the Peanut Butter Rice Crispy Treats that I used to make. Feels like a real treat to me. Note - I think the bars contain too much Malitol and give a little abdominal distress if I eat the bars two days in a row. I take a one day break and I'm fine.
Mini Quiches - I took this tip from eggface! I make up a batch of crustless quiches in a mini muffin pan, then I freeze them. I usually have 2 in the morning for breakfast (with a piece of Very Thin Bread from Pepperidge Farm).
I will admit, i have been considering buying some Click because as the weather is getting warmer, I've been craving a frappucino. I'm thinking that Click might do the trick. If I do, I'll let you know.
Milestone reached!
Apr 26, 2009
I started yoga this weekend. It was great. Harder than I was comfortable with, but the challenge felt fantastic. I'm reasonably sore so it must be working. I'm hoping that this kind of strength training will be good for me as I don't seem to be able to get into much of a weight lifting routine at the gym. The weather has been beautiful and I have been taking Ginger on 2 mile walks instead of going to the gym. Not a BAD choice, but I can do better. I think I'll go to the gym today to get my heart rate up there.