SharriLynn
I haven't always been heavy. I was a TALL, medium build, attractive young woman...funny, vivacious and full of life. It didn't last though. As I started having children and advancing in my career, I put other "things" before me and placed myself on the back burner.
It wasn't that I didn't try to address the weight. Lord knows I did.....over and over and over. I actually had periods of success too. I did really well on diet pills and also did well with the combination of Weight Watchers and the gym. But the weight always returned. I'm sure my weight loss history is not unique, as many an obese person can relate to the vicious cycle of working really hard, finding moderate success, then ultimately regaining the weight.
So how is this surgery going to change things? What is going to make "it" successful when every other effort has ultimately failed? I have asked myself this question a thousand times as I prepare for the surgery. There are moments when I feel very confident that the surgery is the best option available, and this is something I CAN do, and there are also moments when my fear and doubts set in. "What if I can't stop eating sugar...what if I have complications..what if it doesn't work for me because I am a diabetic....blah blah blah". I don't have a super strong support system at home, so I depend on those people who care for me at work, or friends, or the wonderful people I have met here at this site. I ask that if you get a spare moment, please say a prayer for me that I can overcome the negative thinking and gain some much needed confidence. I will keep you posted on my progress. Thanks go out to all the awesome people I have met here at OH that have had encouraging and enlightening things to say along my journey. I truly appreciate you. *hugs* I am on my way!!
