Simcat78
My story is a lot like most people that are looking to lose a large amount of weight. I don't remember a lot from my childhood so I'm not sure when I got fat! I know that 5th grade was the first time that I ever paid attention to being weighed. It was in the gym in front of the entire class and I weighed 150 pounds when everone else was under 100. I was so embarrased. It never crossed my mind that I was fat until then. It was downhill from there. I tried diet after diet during my early teens up until now. When I was in high school my highest weight was 190 and I dieted down to 170. I felt huge but in retrospect, I wasn't all that large, just a little chubby. I still had lots of boyfriends and friends and was very outgoing. The typical chubby funny gal.
I married one of my high school boyfriends when we were both 19. We're still together and will be celebrating our 11th anniversary in May. We have a 4 year old son who is wonderful. I love my husband, and my son more than anything!
I think that I eat mostly for comfort. I eat when I'm bored, tired, sad, happy. It doesn't really matter. The only reason that I'm fat is because I LOVE sweets. Cake, brownies, candy anything! I'm hoping that having RNY will help me be able to control my sugar intake. I don't want to eat poorly anymore and I'm ready to trade in this big body on a smaller one! I'm hoping that I dump on poor food choices and am really looking forward to making better food decisions for myself and my son who learns by watching me! Once I reached a certain point in my weight I kind of adopted a "why bother?" attitude about food choices. I wish I could get rid of that attitude! It just doesn't seem like it matters anymore. I'm hoping that once I start losing after surgery I will realize that it does matter!!
