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I am home. I came home with that pain. I figured out what it is all by myself. Its a muscle. Like a charley horse. Its clenched tightly. I got it to loosed up lastnight when I laid down, as soon as I got up, It went right back into a knot. The bottom of my lung also collapsed on that side, and the surgeon thinks it was because of the pain. They called me in valium to try to loosen/relax the muscle to no avail. Im going to see him today at 3. He mention that there is many stiches in that area, and they may be too tight. He may go in and loosen them. I truly dont care if he has to.Im praying for relief at this point. The nurses at the hospital treated me like shit, and one told me yesterday in her opinion, I was to slim for surgery anyway..Nice way to show support? I just held my tongue and told her I had to lose some weight before they did it. My Dad says I shouldve told her she was BIG enough to get it herself..What a hag. That really pissed me off. I truly felt no one was listening to me about the pain I was having. They treated me like i was a pain med addict. Well, I really hope if any of them ever get major surgery in their abdomen area, that they get a charley-horse there, so they can see why I cried so much getting up and down.
Wish me luck. I see him at 3, and I just want relief.

Hope fully to get discharged today. The main issue I have is with pain. On my left upper side. Surgeon thinnks its a muscle, and is brushing me aside. I think its an infection of somesort, Its pushing out and looks disorted to me I cant tell you how many times Ive just started shaking and crying my eyes out. Also I have a fever.. I really loved my surgeon, but now, Its like since he got his RNY money, he could care less about me. These couple of nurses have made me feel like shit..saying this pain is normal...etc..

I can understand some pain, but this is untolerable. It is ok if I am not moving. Which is why they took my pump. I wasnt hitting the button while I slept anyways. It didnt work, that medicine, anyway..
Im gonna write my 'whole' experience soon, I just have to get this off my chest.. I feel awful.

Tomorow is my surgery. 6 am. Im excited!

Insurance approved me the 1st time. Its a GO for the 20th..This is really happening..!

October 20th. I will officially be a loser! yay!

My story begins the same as many others, I was an overweight child, who turned into an overweight adult. Im 30. I live in Connecticut and I have 5 children. Dave-14 Kevin-13 Kaila-10 Isabella-3 and Violet who is 9 months. I am done having kids now..lol :) Yes, as you can tell from their ages, I started early! About 7 years ago, I had my appendix taken out. My surgeons name was Dr Benbrahim, who had told me Id be a perfect canidate for bariatric surgery, and I should contact him when the new center opened. Well, I did contact a bariatric center (a diff one since his wasnt open yet) and in the middle of the process, I stopped. I felt like I hadnt tried to lose the weight. I really wanted to try some more, because I know how much of a 'big' step surgery is. Well, fast forward to 2009, and I was still in the same boat. But, glad I waited for surgery, because I got re-married and had 2 more children.
In June, I contacted Dr Benbrahim and started the process. He is wonderful and so is their staff. Im having surgery next month (Oct 09) and Im excited to start my new life. Im hoping to find my exact date out tomorow, but most likely it will be the 20th or 27th. I have done everything they have asked of me and passed all the tests :)  They found a mass near my liver which freaked me out, but it ended up be just fatty liver tissue, thank God! The waiting was awful for me! Ive been making it with the pre-surgery diet, but its soo damn hard, everyday I pray for the strength! I have lost 13lbs.

Ive been looking at the before and after pics on the site, and all I can say is WOW.. Amazing. U all look great and so much healthier!