sissyjustme
May 25, 2010
May 27, 2010
May 18, 2010
May 17, 2010
After the first night, they brought ice chips to me, I started on them. Was an odd feeling, and slightly scary to be putting something in my mouth, but I did it and survived that first sip. They brought lunch to me. I wasn't hungry, but you gotta bite the bullet sometime, so I sipped on it. Same with dinner. Didn't finish it all, more of going through the motions. But I wasn't hungry either. I believe it helped me "wake" my stomach up because I started passing all the horrible, painful gas. Still walking, walking, walking. I slept great the second night. Woke up well rested, did my morning walk, took my shower and was ready to be released. Dr. Weinstein came in and sent my on my way, and by lunchtime I was gone. Passed my first bowel movement Saturday. Was worried about that, but works fine LOL.
Adjusting to being at home and being limited on what I can do is difficult. I see what needs to be done and can't do it. Hard to just let it go. But I have. Walking even further now. Today is Monday. I am up to 6 blocks. Still have drowsy days. And still have incision soreness. And at times my energy is nonexistent. But that is all part of being built back up as part of recovery. Since I began my liquid diet I have lost a total of 18 pounds. I started my liquid pre-surgery diet on Sunday May 2, and lost 13 pounds on it. And 5 pounds since surgery. So for two weeks, not bad. Well thats all I know for now, will post more as it comes down.
April 7, 2010
Apr 06, 2010
Its funny how supportive some people are to your face. Then words get back to you. Some words got back to me, that this surgery is "taking the easy way out" or "cheating". I got one question? Who says its cheating? The diet police? Their words are nothing that I have not said in the past about others doing this trip. Watch your words, because after 40 years I have learned you may have to eat them. Of course its funny that the supportive ones, are not dealing with weight issues, and the non supportive ones are the ones dealing with the same weight issues I have dealt with. It is also funny that we live in the Bible Belt of America, at how many stones are thrown in this area. Not only has this journey been an eye opening experience for me and in facing my own demons with food, it has been an eye opening experience in dealing with negativity. Really makes all other issues of bs float to the top. ANY weight loss is a journey and should be applauded. Whatever your choices. To do otherwise, and spew negativity, is to tell on yourself and the character you possess. I personally make this choice proudly, and it is in no way less easier than someone who diets and can control their weight. Its actually harder. Anyone can diet. But not everyone can diet and keep it off. These naysayers are victims of that same demon. I just choose to not be a victim of the yo-yo diet plan any longer. I choose something that will 100% work, with my dedication and commitment. And those finger pointers, and they are a small number, hopefully will learn the same lesson in the their own lives. And I guess when I am out in life, living life, and being active, and giving all I can to my family, that is the only reward I can ask for. God is good.
March 26, 2010
Mar 25, 2010
Went to the BEGIN class on Wednesday. It was very imformative as well as interesting to see some of the other people in the weight loss surgery club. I kinda see why you have to jump through all these hoops to get the blessing of surgery. You have to fully understand the whole undertaking of the process that this surgery includes. You have to be serious about changing your life, and not expecting the surgery to solve all your problems with food. You also have to have a willing spirit with some stength attached. Strength, at least for me, comes in having to do the 10 day liquid diet before surgery required to shrink your liver before surgery to make it possible to not have the large incision. And second, and this is purely guessing, dealing with the almost 6 weeks of liquid or soft food in small quantities. Many have told me that hunger is gone. 4 oz. will satisfy you. But 40 years of eating massive amounts to reach that fullness, trains my brain to think otherwise. I call it the "After Thanksgiving Syndrome". Its where on Thanksgiving you fill your gut with all the varieties prepared and layer on top of that the many desserts. And in tradition, after dinner, while a movie or sports progam playing in the background, that you fall into a deep, satisfying, blissful sleep. I love that sleep. All is well in your world during this sleep. To committ to this lifestyle changing surgery, means the focus is off food. I am nervous in making that change. I am fully committed to doing it.
There was a couple of people there at this class, that I had doubts to their sincerity. I can see why the hoops are there. To weed out those that neither understand fully or mentally cannot understand fully the whole process that this surgery entails. Its a serious, scary, thing. But looking down the road past these obstacles, I see a new life. A life of being free from the prison of food. And in getting out of that prison, a new life with my children. They will have a mom who can physically participate in things in their life. Things over the years I have had to say no to either because of the walking and my knees would hurt, or physically demanding things that I was just either too fat to do, or too embarassed that I was fat, and I would decline.
Hopefully I will hear something from the surgeons office in the next couple of days and have my "DATE". On with the surgery!!
New change.
Mar 16, 2010
October 7, 2009
Oct 06, 2009
I started an exercise program. I do 30 min. on a treadmill, two leg weight machines, and 3 arm machines. I am obsessed with what I call bat wings. The excess weight left in your arms when you lose weight. So far I have made it two nights a week. Only because of being so busy. But will ease up to more nights as adjustments are made. I go back to my family Doctor for a check up on the 19th and see what we do next. I will have two more visits with him after that. It seems as if time is inching by. It helps to read what others are going through. And looking at the pictures gives you hope. I looked at a Victoria's Secret catalog this past weekend and they had some cute, cute sweaters for sizes XS and XL. I thought to myself, I will have my cute sweater next winter. I have been scared to entertain the thoughts of picturing myself in smaller clothes. It's really hard to imagine. I have focused so long on just the physical benefits, that I have totally pushed that issue to the side. Hopefully it will all come together mentally for me. That one clear picture. Well all for now.
Sept. 27
Sep 26, 2009
Exercised Friday Night. Yay for me. I did 15 min on a bike, and 15 min on a treadmill. And two weight machines on the legs. Took me 45 min to do that much. I am proud of myself. Others can do more and faster than me. But I am doing this on my feelings and what my body tells me. I am bad about doing too much too soon, and as soon as I start putting ice on knees, and can't even bend them in, I will find excuses to quit. Because it really, really hurts. So I did what I was comfortable doing, and found me a good starting point of something I feel I can build on. I felt great when I got home, and still had some get up and go left in me. Can't complain about feeling that. I plan to go back on Monday. Not sure if I am doing the morning deal, or evening deal. But doing it one day at a time.
September 24
Sep 23, 2009
