smithmom77

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I know i should be happy with my weight loss so far but i want it to come off FASTER!!!!! I'm down 13lbs in 4 weeks... for whatever reason, i wanted to loose more... don't know why. I guess i watch too much TV! LOL!

And i knew it was coming.... I'm still on leave from work but i could just feel it in my bones... They had too many workers and not enough work...

I know that God has a plan for me I just wish i could take a *peek* at it so I knew what moves to make... *sigh*

Not really sad or upset or emotional but I am just.... still... at peace.... oddly at peace....

I know that I'm supposed to get my protein in - 100g per day to be exact. I just HATE IT!!!!!

Its really hard to get in my 64 oz of water (fluids) too. Whenever I drink water, it makes my pouch hurt. I can only take one swallow. If i take two, it hurts. This is strange to me because if I drink crystal light, i can take at least 3 swallows and have no problems... odd... i am so sick of sweets though and i really want to drink just plane ol water but i cant... UGH.

Just bitchin and moanin right now... i'm down another pound so i guess i should shut up! LOL!

Leave it to me to be given the green light on purees to now not want them! HA!

I am still primarily sticking to protein water (a 3 oz 42 g protien bullet poured into 32oz of water) and vitamins.

I ate almond butter tonight  (yum!) - 2 Tbs. That was WAY too much and i dumped. Had to go lay down for about an hour. Too much fat in there for my new little pouch. Needless to say now i REALLY don't want to eat!

I realized today that I am mourning the loss of my friend "Food".

I can't eat right now and i am upset. It doesnt hit until dinner time. My whole family sits down to dinner and although I can sit, I can't eat. I really want to eat. I'm not hungry so I know its just head hunger but I really miss the act of eating with my family... It makes me cranky and i feel bad for my family to have to deal with me at this time.

I'll be glad to move on to purees. At least I can assemble a meal and sit down to dinner with my family...

Oddly enough, I am experiencing minimal pain...

I am almost sure its because I got up and walked within hours of my surgery. I hit the pain pump and got up and walked. Then I walked some more. I made it my mission to walk at least three times while I was awake. That meant that I was up walking at 3am but I figured if I was up, I might as well make the most of it...

So today, my surgeon comes in and tells me it doesnt even look like I had surgery and sends me home! I was so happy!!! 

Today, I walked and got in my 100g of protein. Im not that tired but i know that rest is required to heal...

I do have to get lovenox injections twice a day to make sure I dont get blood clots... ouch! 

I would be a complete and total liar if i said that I am not worried at all. This is a big step and I had to weigh the pros and cons and come to the decision to go forward. It didnt really help that my surgeons office called this morning and said that someoen cancelled and my surgery is now first!

Please say a prayer for me and my speedy recovery! I'll be sure to do the same for you! :)