sniffles722002
3+ weeks prior to surgery
Sep 04, 2011
I have a little over 3 weeks before I will have my surgery. I am looking forward to it, but also very apprehensive. I am concerned about the what ifs....not about the actual surgery, but about the outcome. What if....it doesn't work? What if.....I can't stay on the doctors plan? So very many what ifs I can't even put them all on here.Why is it that I can't lose the weight on my own? How hard have I tried? Did I try hard enough?
I know the answer to some....yes, I tried....and I lost some, and then I gained it back plus some.
Looking forward....what will my life be like? How will it be when I go out to dinner with people? I can't hardly eat any food....will that be bothersome? I'm sure I'll get used to it, like anything. Now I need to look at the positives.
I will have lost weight, and will be able to go out and do the things that I am too tired, and in pain to do now. I think of all the things that I avoid because my back is killing me, or my feet. I am looking forward to being able to just go and do it....IT being whatever I want to do.
I am also looking forward to not feeling like I am an embarrassment to my children, or the man I am with. They don't make me feel that way. I do it all on my own.
You know what they say....you are your own worst enemy.
I am doing small things to get ready for surgery. I am eating smaller portions, I've ordered different types of protein powder for my pre op and post op diet. I am taking vitamins, although I still have many I have to get. I have quit drinking soda, mostly drink water with 0 calorie flavoring, or unsweetened ice tea. That is a huge change. I used to drink soda non stop.
I am looking ahead...forward....
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About Me
Puyallup, WA
Location
26.6
BMI
Surgery
09/29/2011
Surgery Date
Jul 20, 2011
Member Since