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STRUGGLES BEGIN

Jun 17, 2010

On June 6th I saw the Dr.  I told him I felt like I needed a fill.  He agreed since in 3 months I'd only lost a few pounds.  But when he x rayed me he announced that I had a stretched pouch.  I WAS FLOORED.  I thought I was eating more because I needed an adjustment!  It's been so tough and scarey ever since that day.  I'm trying so hard to eat small amounts but I'm afraid I'm failing.  He took about half of the fluid out of my band trying to get the pouch to shrink back down.  IDK what the hell is going to happen.  But, I'm wlking and running as much as possible.  
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14 months out tomorrow

May 05, 2010

I am almost 14 months out.  I am happy to report still no complications.  I haven't lost much the last couple of months.  I think 6lbs is all but it's better to have lost 6 then gained 6!  Plus, I am only 12lbs from my goal.  and, I haven't been working out as much as I should have been and Doc hasn't filled me since October 6th, that is 7 months.  GEEZ  I do need one though.  I'm going to have to convince him in June to give me the juice.  LOL  HAVE A GOOD SUMMER EVERYONE!!!!
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Over One Year Out

Mar 22, 2010

I can't believe it has been over a year already.  I still can't get used to people saying I'm skinny and although I appreciate it, I don't like it or feel like I deserve it.  Ya, I'm probably smaller than anyone can ever remember, including me, but I am by no means SKINNY.  I would rather them say something along the lines of, "Wow you're so healthy."   that would be more appropriate.  I am down to about 186 now.  That is amazing to me.  I want to lose 16lbs. for sure but anyting over that would be a MIRACLE!  I would absolutely LOVE to be under 170lbs.  I don't even know how that would feel.  But I never thought I'd weigh this weight either and I'm still not sure it has sunk in or how I feel about it. 
     I'm also thrilled that I'm wearing size 12's.  All I ever wanted was to be this size.  Now, I want to be a 10 or an 8...LOL   Mom says I'm never going to feel skinny or satisfied.  She said she never did after losing 125lbs.  She was a tiny little 6 for years and I used to yell at her for calling herself fat.  NOW I FINALLY GET THAT !!!!!!
     And, so this journey continues.  I love my Lapband and so far.........it loves me too!

GOD BLESS

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Under 200

Jan 14, 2010

I am FINALLY under 200lbs.  OMG FINALLY!!!  I can't even remember being under that mark.  I hope and pray I never see the scales read 2.. anything EVER AGAIN.  WOOHOOOOOOO IT is a GR8 day for me.  GOD BLESS
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BEST CHRISTMAS GIFT

Dec 05, 2009

Well, I am down 100 pounds now.  I had a REALLY hard time in November.  The scales really weren't moving.  I tried increasing protien and workouts but really struggled.  Now I am on the go again.  I guess that is what they call HITTING THE WALL.  I hoped to be 230 by Christmas but I'm happy to say that I am way beyond that mark.  I'm now 206. I am wearing misses 14 size jeans.  I can't even remember doing that in H.S.  My shape has changed dramatically.  I think it's the exercising.  I can run 2 miles without stopping.  In gym as a kid I could hardly run 1.  I feel TONS better and I've been getting great support from my friends and family.  I thank God for all of them daily!  So now I've got about 36lbs left to lose.  I'm so glad I've gone through this.  I've had a wonderful year and this is the best gift I could ask for, HEALTH AND PEACE OF MIND!!!  
HAPPY HILIDAYS EVERYONE AND GOD BLESS

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Been too long since I've blogged

Oct 27, 2009

I saw my surgeon on 10/06.  He gave me my 4th fill.  I'm really struggling at weight loss.  I weighed 227 at my check up and now i'm at 219.  It's been the most restricting fill yet but I'm just really losing slowly now.  It has been almost 8 months since my operation.  I'm down from a 24 to about a 16 now.  Tight but I can get them on.  LOL  I just wanna get under that 200lb so damn bad.  I feel like I'm never gonna get there.  I know I am driving my family insane.  I also know how damn lucky I am to have had this opportunity.  I just am so short on patience. :) 
     Anyway it's been raining here in Springfield, IL for weeks on end it seems.  I wish Seatle would come take it back. )


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No Fill

Aug 08, 2009

Doc says i am scared of success.  I have lost 61lbs in 5 months since my band and he thinks i'm being too hard on myself.  He said my weight loss is more like a bypass patient's loss at this point.  I talk to all kinds of people that have lost more than me at this point.  He kept telling me I'm not in competition with anyone but myself.  anyway, hoping my weight loss stays steady.  CHOW
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3rd Fill

Jun 27, 2009

On June 18th I had fill number 3.  She added about .75cc.  I didn't feel much restriction the first few days bu I do now.  I have troulbe eating in the mornings.  Cereal takes me forever and it's just about not worth it because by the time it starts passing through, my cereal is sogged out.  LOL 
      I'm down to 258 so far.  I just can't notice much of a difference in my body.  I have went down at least a size in clothes.  Maybe 2 in some things.  But I have lost 50lbs.  in 3 1/2 months.  The last time I lost weight it took me 7 months to loose 45lbs.  So I know I am chugging right along.  I'm anxious about the plateau I'm gonna eventually hit and I hope it's not for a long time yet.  I'm praying to at least get to 220lbs before that happens. 
     Gotta keep working out!!!!  HAve to make myself do it!!!

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2nd FILL

May 12, 2009

I'm pretty sure I'm doing Weill.  Problem is, I keep doubting myself.  I can't figure out why this is.  On the 7Th of May I had my 2ND fill, adjustment.  The nurse added 21/2 more C's of fluid but I couldn't even keep water down.  So she pulled 1/2cc out.  Now I have 4C's in the band.  I know I'm pretty tight because I'm having trouble keeping more foods down.  So for now I'm sticking to soups and softer things. 
I have lost 36lbs. in just a little over 2 months now.  Everyone tells me that it's great and I'm doing so well but I can't seem to grasp it.  I keep feeling like I'm failing or doing something wrong.  Maybe I feel like it's not real or that somehow it's gonna end up disappointing me in some way.  IDK.  All I do know is that I've got to keep plugging away at this.  I've been exercising 5 days a week too.  Haven't been this week because I'm feeling a little under the weather but I'm determined to get back out to the gym.  Say a prayer for me, I'm battling with my own demons!!!

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Wow, it's done already.

Mar 09, 2009

     I've done it.  My band is in.  The surgeon banded me on friday March 6th.  It was better than I had hoped for.  I was expecting much more pain and discomfort than I got.  I was wheeled in to surgery at about 9:30am and was awake at 11:30 and my pain was only about a 3 or 4.  I was up walking in recovery in a couple of hours.  then they offered me broth, popcycles, and juice.  I tolerated that ok so they suggested releasing me.  but I opted to go ahead and spend the night because of my heart problem.  But I didn't even take any pain meds until 3am and I only took that so I could get some sleep. 
      The next day Dr. Rantis came to see me and released me from the hospital.  I spent the night in our hotel and yesterday we drove back to Springfield.  I am eating broth, jello, juices, and popcycles.  I am getting hungry but the small amount of liquids I can consume fill me up quickly.
     I go the 18th for my post-op check up and my first fill will be sometime in April.  I haven't thrown up yet and I'm greatful but so worried about when I do.
     Well, I'll write more later.  Getting sleepy again.

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Springfield, IL
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03/06/2009
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