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Approved found out today the surgery date they gave me was May 10th but if I remember right he said he does his surgerys only on Friday. So probably the 14th or go in on the night of the 20th I will found out more on Monday I am so excited

I am so excited!!! Helps when you read inspiring books. Any ways I sent out some intentions earlier this week. One of those would be that I would hear back from my doctor on the 25Th of this month and it would be yes I would be approved. (positive thinking and creating) Now when I saw my fabulous doctor on the 17Th which I almost wasn't able to do because the taxi service changed some of their policy's. They no longer took medicaid people to pre planned appointments. I had to then reach my S. Worker well she was out until the 22ND. Was able to speak with another S. Worker who then faxed over a voucher to taxi company so I would make this important appointment. Then my doctor informed me that most likely I would be denied and he would appeal it and reassured me that no later then April 15Th he would call and set a appoint for my surgery. Today is the 25Th nurse had been trying to get a hold of me all day left message stating I needed to get to lab to have lab work done medicaid request sugar level. That I meet with all the high request  criteria . Now I wait to hear from his dietitian to go see for one month yes I am so excited.

Well I saw my doctor. Good news is I lost 7 pounds yea haw !!!! Every one in the office was great polite positive. Dr. says that medicaid will most likely deny me. He has informed them he is no longer going to take Medicaid patients because they do deny most of them.  He told me not to despair because he is going to write a letter to the over writer and inform him that I am a great candidate. So by end of month I will find out if medicaid denies me and by April 15 Th I should get a phone call for the date of the wls usually a month out. He was very positive and he stated he wants to do the surgery on me.  So I will have to see his dietitian for about a month prior to wls so looking at May 23 keeping fingers crossed here. I actually quit taking my fibro meds. I think this is why I have finally started losing the weight.  
While at the doctors office I met a great couple. I also found out we have a support group right here every third Thursday of the month so I am excited as well. I told every one in the waiting room and all the nurses and my doctor about this site. On how much support it gives and the information it has. How I would have been lost with out it. That every one on here is amazing. Thank you every one for being here and sharing

Get every one caught up here. Been a different week for me. Lets see I did a no no last week and worked 7 hours when I Dr said only 4 so had some problems over the weekend actually spent the night in the hospital last night. Had some chest pains and jaw pain but good news heart is healthy did all kinds of test on my heart (wasn't fun either) Guess that would have been one of the requirements my Doctor would have me do to rule out any ways. We still not sure why I have the swelling or why the pains in chest and neck and jaw. On top of every thing the van blew rear seal. But you know it does not matter every thing happens for a reason. Last night the van all of it has its own purpose. So I give gratitude to all things. I am not sure what the doctor will say today. But it wont matter either because regardless the weight has to come off one way or another. So I am being positive not going to let any thing beat me down. Am I nervous ? Yes! lol. Would be great if every thing goes my way. It will always does. Might have to work at it harder but if you want some thing in life bad enough it will happen. Wish me luck keep smiling and being positive and always move forward if you fall brush yourself off and keep going.

Went and saw my pain doctor yesterday. He was out so his assistant saw me. Had told her how I was trying to lose weight and went all veggie and how swollen I had been and gained ten pounds and my primary had gave me water pills. She asked if I was taking my fibro pill I said yes she took me off of them I had told her all the signs of the side effects. So now I am weening my self down then I can start taking the new medication lol get this the new stuff is suppose to make food taste badly (giggle) told her that would be great!

Here I wait. I am excited but do not want to be overly excited. Have three weeks before I find out if I will be approved for the wls. I don't want to get my hopes up to high.  I am on medicaid so have no idea. My primary doctor says not to worry. I am a Gemini dang it that's what we do best lol. Look at every thing from every angle. Oh I just hope it is soon. I am afraid my knees wont last that long.
                                                                    I am one of these people who carry a tough exterior. Like I don't let any thing get to me. I hide my emotions pretty good. But....I think if I don't get approved it will hit me pretty hard. So if I get bad news I wont be on here for a while. Will need to take some time and think about some things need to get things in order. Hard to even think about that. I love my baby girl so much. Just can't bare to think of her not having me around in five years. We are so close. Any ways enough of that. Hold my head up high think positive create that it will happen. If it doesn't there are other avenues. I will just have to find away to get rid of the weight.

During these past few years I have changed my life for the better.

1. Be honest with yourself  (this will be the hardest thing you will ever do )

2. You only perceive what you want to perceive.

3. If you want a awesome day then create it

4. If some one is upset with you then it is their issue unless you do not like 
    why they are upset with you ,  then change it.

5. For every negative find 3 positives. (they are out there trust me)

6. Push negativity away.

7. Surround yourself with positive people

10. Love yourself and believe in yourself

11.You only allow what you want to allow. ( go deep into the box on this one)

12. Live a DRAMA FREE LIFE

13 Anger has its place but for me its a wasted emotion. who enjoys anger?

14. If you don't like some thing in your life then change it. No one else will!
15. You can not change others but you can live by example.

16. No one can make you happy only you can.

17. No one can make you feel any thing (anger happy sad mad lonely etc...)

18. Live life one day at a time like it is the last day.

19. I am who I am because I choose to be me.

20. Create you own life.

Went to see my primary Doctor the other day I am on the water pills now and I am writing every thing down what I eat and the calories. This is working well. Still have knee pain in the am when waking and through out the day but that is normal for as big as I am . Thank you to those who have inspired me.

I have been seeing a dietitian now for two months. I gained 10 pounds in two weeks what the heck. I found out today that even eating a green salad with tomatoes onions cucumbers and lettuce with lemon juice still contains calories around 118 at the least end. Last few days I have been waking up swollen and have no idea why I also have fibromyalgia which is a pain literally lol other then salads I do eat 2% cottage cheese mozzarella string cheese 2%, eggs fried in I cant believe its not butter, I also use fat free mayo. I eat tuna fish baked fish in I cant believe its not butter I do drink coffee with powder creamer and sugar trying to get used to substitute sugar. If and when I do drink pop it is Pepsi 0 . Need all the help I can get here. I see my bariatric doctor next month then his dietitian for a month. Oh I also take half a shot of power shot fruit punch.  Protien shot that is.

I went and visited a few people on the site last night even went to chat. I should tell you more about myself.


I am 5/6 big bone 351 pounds. I have always had a problem with my weight was a yo yo all my life. It is not due to a medical reason why I am as big as I am.
     The honesty of it is to hide behind all of this fat.  I have had to come to terms with a lot of things in this past year. I am ready to move forward. Right now it is  hard for me to move. I am in pain most of the time because the weight barring down on my joints. Because of the weight I now have high blood pressure, joint problems, bursitis in my hip and lung problems makes my limited to  where I can live what I can and can not do. If I were to persist in this life style I would not make it another five years. Since I have gotten so huge that I can't work out because it would be to hard on my joints. Like my knees need surgery but they can not do the surgery until the weight is gone. I have back problems its very hard for me to walk.
           I am lousy at medical terminology. Was in chat last night was asked what kind of surgery am I to get done well I knew it was the gastric but stated the bariatric lol. Yes I went to the seminar and the web sites on gastric bypass and have a channel on tv on it. I really do not understand why they would call it a sleeve. It is not like they are putting some thing over it. But I am still not sure what exactly happens to the rest of your stomach once they cut it away. Where do they put it? I mean do they just leave it in your body? Why not take it out shoot then I would be a few pounds lighter after the surgery lol.
           Yes my doctor is going to give me the riot act when I see him again because of my phsyc evaluation was like dumb founded when asked about the surgery I knew the answers but was nervous and spaced all the medical stuff.
             I am not scared about the surgery. I am more timid of the after math. How I will feel. I mean I know I will change physically and some mentally. But I still want to be me! I love me lol. I am out going bold at a crack up at times lol. I don't want to lose the real person inside of me. That's who has got me this far to be brave and honest and compassionate.
            I do not want to be a judge mental person in fact I want to be able to help others to prevent getting as big as me. I have a high self esteem about myself. I believe in myself. No I am not stuck on myself. Just I know who I am and like who I am.
    Any ways I will keep every one posted. I will also post weight loss and inch's and pant size as I go.
 No I am not doing this to look good. I am doing this so I can be with my baby girl live longer breath easier not be in pain to be able to get a head start on being healthier and exercising so I can go hiking and take my little girl to the park when she wants to and to raise her a better way its about life changes all the way around.
     I know when I came to the site and saw the before and after pictures. Come on now we all went wow on most of them. You know in the back of your head you was like wow will my body change that much. Will I look that good! Then you start looking for those about your size when you started or are right now to give you a good idea what kind of shape  your body can be in.
    Was surprised a little cause I brought this up in chat last night and the first thing one said was you shouldn't be getting this surgery done to look good! I know this but I am human and it did take my breath away and I did say wow I don't know how many times.
     My doctor told me in 2008 that I needed to get this surgery done. It has taken me this long to decide to get this done. One of the reason I have now decided is because he had informed me if I do not then I will not see 50 that's five years away for me. So please do not think I am this superficial woman. And if I did not have my baby girl I would still be thinking about it. But once you have children your life is no longer yours. We brought these children in this world they're our responsibility. I need to set a example for her and teach her mommy is not perfect and lets do this together to eat and exercise and live life the right way. Lets make a life change together!
              Oh I have spoke to her about it. She likes sleeping on mommy's big belly. She at first did not want me to get this done. It is a comfort area for her. She lays against me to watch t.v. I can't say how many times she has fallen asleep on my belly. I will miss that to. But she has also stated she wants to be big like mommy That I will make sure wont happen.
              She is very young right now. Since I have been honest enough with myself and know this is some thing I need to do for myself I can show her a much healthier life style.
           I have read a lot of post last night. About how excited people are and the issues of waiting. I have read a lot about the depression and the insurance problems and then how later every one feels so much better and how it was well worth it then you really don't see any thing from those people again. I do hope I will stay in touch with others. This is healthy to do.
The blogs making friends so if you need a friend now or even after I have shed the weight please feel free to contact me.