Start my 8 day fast Tuesday

Apr 13, 2014

Well, here is where the rubber meets the road so to speak. I have been doing a lot of soul searching to make sure that I am totally committed to the change. Battling a food addiction and trying to break the bond with food has sent my emotions all over the place. I can honestly say that I HATE change of any kind. I feel so much better when I can control the things around me and look where it has gotten me. I have made it impossible for my husband to comment on my food addiction or weight without putting the fear of God in him that I just might actually knock his head off for real. So, I think this time I can honestly say, I HAVE to change. I am tired of being invisible or wishing to be invisible given the situation. I am tired of not feeling good and carrying all this extra weight and emotions around.  I am tired of being told "you are such a pretty girl BUT you would be a knockout if you lost weight". I am so sick and tired of the "BUT". That single word negates everything they say before it!!! Anyhoo, this is a small glimpse into my emotional roller coaster as I prepare for this fast and surgery.

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