It's gonna happen for me !

Jan 03, 2009

I went to Wallmart today just looking  for some things I may need before surgery.But what came to mind today was that I always was happy that more and more "styish plus sized " clothing stores were around that I could shop for clothing.Last year I bought a nice black wool  winter coat( I live on Long Island in NY) , this year it barely fits! I have always received complements at work for what I wear BUT now I don't like what I look like .Yes I wear makeup , keep myself clean   but I don't like what I look like .There are still the snide remakes from strangers  and some family members that say you can lose the weight!  I want my OUTSIDE to match my INSIDE.Nobody knows the real me because that are too busy judging  me because of my weight!.So I was thinking of what I would like for ME and it is 1.  a NEW relationship with me( more confidence and self respect) ,2. A new relationship food 3.  that  I do all that things I have been afraid to do because I would be critisized for my weight.


It's funny , people see me and are critical at times( the weight)  and sometimes I am invisible  because people are disgusted because I am fat. BUT people get ready because THIS  flower is gonna Bloom

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