Thoughts of the day

Aug 15, 2011

I sit here 8 days before my surgery, I have such mixed emotions. I am most excited, but then comes the doubt (placed by others) My Husband is completely supportive, my family however...thats another story. I haven't really spoked to my Dad in 2 months, and were usually quite close (at least weekly contact) I think he believes that will change my mind...No sir! I have been going through all my insurance companies requirements for the last 18 months, actually I kind of went through them twice since my surgeon was killed in an accident a few weeks before I was to have surgery. Now that I know I won't be able to eat like I currently do, I realize just how much life is based around food...Meeting friends? Where shale we eat? Friday night where shall we eat...Lazy day by the pool lets make hot dog's and chips...Family dinner? Lets see how many things we can make and then try and cram on our plates...

I really hope that once its done and I begin my new relationship with food, I don't end up losing the relationships that mean the most to me...Like if the girls are meeting for dinner they don't leave me out as not to challenge me...Or that my heavier friends don't regret the fact that I won't order appetizers and dessert anymore.

I'm looking forward to my monthly business trips to be more comfortable...more room on the plain, more wardrobe choices...able to shop with my co-workers without making excuses as to why I'm not buying anything....HELLO does it look like I'll fit in those clothes!?!?!??!?!?!

Anyway those are my thoughts a week post op, I am going to try and keep an active blog as I embark and complete my journey to uncover the me I know is hiding under all this fat.

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