Sue J.
It's a ONEderful world!!
Oct 25, 2007
Wow! a year ago I could have never imagined
that it would be this amazingly successful
that it would be this hard
that I could actually wear a size 14
that it would be this all encompassing
what I would look like at a lean weight
what I was missing in life
what a relief it is to not worry about/focus on my body image in day-to -day situations
what a relief it is to take the focus off of food and onto other things- family, kids, activity, community, knitting instead of snacking :)
how much energy I was using to deal with arthritis pain- now gone
that I would be in the neighborhood of my goals so soon
that something could be so difficult but so simple at the same time
I have been so blessed! Thanks to everyone who has supported me, my family and friends, Dr Read and his amazing team at Samaritan Bariatric, the academy (just had to throw that in there) and above all thanks be to God who carried me through it all, gave the amazing skills and knowledge to the medical team and gave my husband and family the grace, wisdom and patience needed to deal with me :). I love you all!!
It's a whole new world!!
Aug 24, 2007
It's been very surrealistic... I feel kind of narcissistic sometimes because I find myself staring in the mirror trying to get used to it, soak it up, recognize myself.
The food challenges are there and always will be. It's been a tough month with work and personal stresses.. a month that before would have been filled with fast food trips and junk food binges. It's definitely not easy, but each time I start to feel the pull to 'the dark side' I don't have far to look for a reminder as to why I don't want to go there.
Some fun accomplishments: I'm down to 214, I have now lost 156 pounds, I am shopping in 'non-big girl' stores wearing size 16 pants, I bought a shirt that did not have an X in front of the size (and it wasn't even a mens shirt), I am pain free in my knee (5 years chronic pain pre-WLS), and I laughed the other day when I realized that I was excited to need something from the 3rd floor supply room so I could take the stairs!
God has been so good! It couldn't have happened without Him and I will be forever blessed by this surgery, the people involved in my life, the folks on this site... you are all wonderful and I hope I can pay it all forward!
It's a whole new ballgame!
Jun 27, 2007
But it truly is a whole new ballgame now that I have passed my 6 month anniversary. I am physically able to eat anything, and that 'anything' includes all of the things that contributed to my original weight. I'm sure I'm the only one, but I will go on record as saying that I HAVE CHEATED... I know, I know, it's a shocker. Yep, those carbs were calling my name and I caved. And I am a little disappointed to say that my body handled it fine.... I would have been kind of happy if I had dumped, but no. However, emotionally and psychologically, it wasn't worth it. Which is weird... before I would have said that depriving myself of the food pleasure was not worth the emotional stress. Now I honestly can say that eating the 'poor choice' food was not worth the emotional stress. I have worked so hard to get where I am, and to let myself even flirt with the notion of eating in a way that even remotely resembles my previous habits... it's just not acceptable. I'm back on track though, the loss continues (with a lull in there from my days of weakness) and I am now at a weight that, I believe, would be about 7th grade for me. (I remember shopping for clothes with friends in 8th grade and I was crushed that I could barely squeeze myself into a pair of 20s, which was the largest size in that store.) I'm in 16/18s now, so I'm guessing this is where I was at around 7th grade / 13 years old.
So, I had some exciting accomplishments recently. I was able to fly with no seatbelt extender, comfortably sitting in the airline seat without encroaching into the neighboring seats, and able to put the lap tray down. Steve and I flew to San Antonio for a business/pleasure trip (pleasure for Steve and business/pleasure for me) and I was so excited to be able to walk all over San Antonio and the river walk without any knee pain or exhaustion. We walked about 3 miles of the riverwalk one day.... I couldn't have even dreamed of doing that before. I lost 6 pounds on vacation thanks to all of that walking!!!!
My other big thing recently was the hair.... chopped it! My hair loss has finally slowed/stopped (hallelujah and amen!) and now that the new hair is growing back in I had a lovely halo of baby hairs growing back, so it was time. I changed the color a bit too.
Life, though not without it's usual little bumps in the road, is moving along nice and steady. Work is going good, home is going great, Steve is the most amazing husband ever, my Mom has been so supportive and excited for me.... God has so richly blessed me and surrounded me with these exact people for so many reasons... and I'm sure information on many of those reasons is yet to be revealed to me... and that's the exciting part!
God bless you all!
I'm finally an honest woman!!!
May 02, 2007
Things are going good. My weight loss has slowed a bit (but my hair loss hasn't ... grrr) and I am losing about 3-4 pounds a week now. That's cool though.... I know I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing, the body changes continue, and I take that as a sign that my body is adjusting and leveling out as I get closer to goal. It's all good. Honestly, if the weight loss ended now, I would still be happy with everything. My health has never been this good, and I am so thrilled with the changes in my health/body/life. However,I know that I will continue to lose.... and that is like icing on the cake (sugar free icing of course.)
This is CRAZY!!
Apr 11, 2007
I've lost 114 lbs (88lbs post op / 26 preop). I have gone from wearing 32 pants to 20s. I'm off of all arthritis meds and have been pain free for over two months now (after probably 5 years of constant chronic pain).
I'm very excited to have started adding some veggies into my meals... variety makes such a difference. I actually had ham, a deviled egg and a spoonful of green beans for easter dinner... I felt like a King!!
I'm still suprised when I look in the mirror or walk past a store window and see my reflection or look down at my legs as I walk down the hall at work.... what I see with my eye does not match what I have burned into my brain. I've picked up some pants in the store with the thought of 'these will be good for next month when I lose more weight" and I get them home to find that they fit now and are actually loose... crazy.
I am so excited to see what the next few months bring... How can it get better than this?! I haven't had this much energy in ages. I am very excited for my trip to SanAntonio in May (business trip with my hubby coming along) when I will actually ride in a plane without a seat extender, maybe even put the tray down, and enjoy the sights without being in pain or pooping out half way through.
I have been so blessed by my family, Dr Read, Bobbie, Susan and Kim at Samaritan Bariatrics. Every one of them is key to this amazing process and it would not be what it is without them. You guys rock!!!
I get it!
Feb 02, 2007
Is this really happening?!!!
Dec 28, 2006
After so much research, prayer, insurance stuff, appointments, etc. ...not to mention the years of just wishing/thinking about it... I can't believe this is actually happening!! I am 3 weeks out from surgery and have lost 30 pounds. I have progressed to regular food (no more strained/creamed soups or mushy stuff) and am able to eat protein and start exprimenting with different things. I haven't had a single problem with any foods... no throwing up... though I have learned to stay away from some richer foods and had a close call when I didn't chew a bite well enough.... OUCH!!! My energy level has been great and I am excited that I am now able to resume my knee medication so I can more comfortably get out and beef up my exercise routine (haha... 'beef up' implies I actually have an exercise routine right now.) I have cleared out a large number of clothing items from my closet, and I am working my way through my 'skinny clothes'. I have been so amazingly blessed with an amazing recovery and with some of the most wonderful support folks in my Husband and my Mom! They are both so excited, supportive and 'on board' and I would not be where I am now if it wasn't for them. My coworkers have been a great source of encouragement as well and they eagerly soak up all of the details as my life changes.
I was definitely curious how Christmas would go, and I was so pleased! My Mom cooked for the main family gathering, yeah Mom! She modified one of my favoite jello salads so I would be able to have it, and she made sure there were a few other things that I could choose from for my protein. It went great! I did a bunch of cooking as well (had a house full with the stepkids and father-in-law all with us for the holiday) and I was very excited to get back in the kitchen and was even more excited to realized that I can still have fun cooking for everyone even though I'm not eating the full meal with them.
'Lunching' is a very common thing at my work... great socializing time since we don't have a chance to visit that much in our fast paced office, I have been really pleased to find several restaurants in our area that are very accomodating. Baja Fresh will sell a side order of chicken (I got 3 meals out of it) for $3.35, Sunnyside Up Cafe will sell a side order of breakfast ham (2 meals) for $2, and Marzini's will sell 2 meatballs in wonderful marinara sauce (1 meal) for $1.50 (or just $1 on 'Meatball Mondays' ) . I think I'll keep a list going for everyone in our local support group.
OK, I could 'talk' all afternoon... so much going on in my head htese days... but I'm going to say goodby for now!
Have a wonderful New Years everyone!!!!
Post op update- doing great!
Dec 17, 2006
I am doing great!!! The hospital experience was excellent... great staff, no complications,... pain was well contolled and the discomfort was tolerable. I have been so blessed by a speedy recovery! I had surgery at 8am 12/6 and I headed home from the hospital at 4pm 12/7. My pain after surgery was limited to abdominal muscle pain and I was thrilled to not need pain meds much after surgery. The abdominal pain only lasted for a couple of days and I was basically pain free by 12/10. The incisions were not painful, though one of them on my side was more sensitive just because it would get bumped or moved everytime I bent over or twisted. The incisions are covered with a clear bandage (skin glue) that wears off gradually, so there was no need to deal with changing dressings or anything. The scars have healed up quickly, all of the skin glue has worn off and the minimal bruising has almost disappeared.
My food transistions have been going very well... clear liquids for a week (very tired of broth, but love that sugar free jello), and I am now wrapping up the creamy foods phase (cream soups are a little better, but I am truly looking forward to something more solid.) So far I have not really felt hungry or full. I expect those sensations will be back once I start eating solid foods.
I have found that I don't watch TV much anymore because of the commercials. And a lot of the women's magazines have lost their appeal too... when I have to wade through 75% of the pages (food ads, recipes, etc) to get to the 25% I choose to read (health, beauty, fashion, home decorating, etc) it's not worth it.
I haven't weighed in a few days, but as of 12/14 (8 days out from surgery) I had lost 22 pounds. I have my postop appointment with Dr Read tomorrow (monday 12/18) so I'll get an official update then.
The day is fast approaching
Nov 17, 2006
I had a great opportunity to meet a new OH friend in person tonight for a cup of coffee and a good heart to heart as we both head towards our surgery dates. It was great to meet a new friend and to hear about someone else's journey. Thanks for a lovely evening Vicki!
October 27, 2006
Oct 27, 2006