Sunamoon
Sleep Apnea? Is it a given? and My diet of choice.
May 08, 2014
So this morning I had my appointment with my PC Dr. to do a face to face about the referral letter to Centennial Medical Center. She was perfectly happy to do this for me and said it would take about a week to get it over there. After a few minutes of giving her my weightloss history, in front of a young intern who was following her around that day. ( I was mortified to tell my diet history in front of this young man) She made a couple of comments when I mentioned I had in the past lost a 100 lbs doing a low carb diet. She stated how unhealthy it was and even tho it obviously worked for me she didnt approve. I ate well but me keeping my carb count at 25-30 grams per day nearly freaked her out. She stated I had lost a 100 lbs by starving myself and ruined my metabolism. I countered by saying I never had a good metabolism to begin with for as long as I could remember. I also told her that I felt great on low carb eating plan. My thought processes were better and I felt clear headed. Not to mention I had a great energy level, as well as losing weight and didnt feel so sluggish all the time. It didnt seem to phase her.
We went on in our discussion of all the different types of diets I had tried over the years, from seaweed pills when I was 12, to phen phen to the fun days of deal a meal and richard simmons tapes (which I still have, love me some sweatin to the oldies!) and all the other diets in between. When I look at the list I made when I filled out to go to the Seminar at Centennial, I was amazed at all the different things I had tried over the years and how all of them had failed. The thing is I know it was my fault they didnt work. But somehow I feel like those programs failed me too. You hear all the good promises they make and when it doesn't work you want to blame the program not ourselves for not following it to the letter. But I think that sometimes those types of promises ought to be prohibited. People who have serious eating disorders (like myself)who try so hard for however long you manage to fight the urge to feed those food demons we carry around with us, take it to heart that this time it will be different. This time I will make it and I will feel better and look fabulous! But somehow that doesnt happen. Whatever happens that derails us from that train of determined thought and that new diet plan that was going to change our universe turns into a nightmare of a train crash! We/I if you are like me feel guilty because we failed ourself again. We fed the emotion of failure with doughnuts, fast food (insert food of choice here), candy and whatever bad food we know we should not eat. It's a vicious cycle we live in when you are battling food addiction.
I digress in the point of this blog today, got sidetracked on the thoughts I wanted to make sure got posted today. My lovely wife was with me today and she made a point to tell the Dr. I had gone for the sleep apnea consultation and we were waiting on the call to let me know insurance had been notified and approved to set up the actual test. My Dr stated today was that... because I was over weight it was a given that I had sleep apnea. She also staed that people that had large necks for sure had it. Now my wife's family all have sleep apnea and none of them are over weight. My wife hasnt had a test yet but she will be having one. As we are pretty sure she has it too. But she doesn't have a large neck and is not over weight but a few pounds. Less than 50. I'm sure as my eating habits change she will be losing those few pounds. Now I'm pretty sure I have Sleep Apnea, due to the symtoms the Sleep Dr discussed with me. And the fact that I dont sleep well to begin with. But why does it have to be a given that because I'm obese I have it? I dont like being looped into catagories just cause I'm overweight. Like everyone is usually shocked that I do not have high blood pressure. Or that I do not have diabetes currently at this heavy weight of 375.lbs. Now I did have it in 2007 which is what caused the low carb diet and loss of 100 lbs. And the Dr said this morning that I am pre diabetic again. Ok so I am venting here mostly. But today for the first time I felt uncomfortable with a Dr's office that I had previously sung the priases of.
On a High note.. During my lunch break at work today the Sleep Apnea office called and my Insurance approved the test and is going to pay for it 100%. I'm thrilled! May the 15th I go in for the actual study! Funny how it came together on the same day we were discussing it for the referral letter.
Ya'll Be Well Til next time~Suna
