survivor398
NO DIFFERENT FROM ANYONE ELSE OUT HERE. I HAVE TRIED EVERYTHING UNDER THE SUN TO GET THIS WEIGHT OFF AND FOR THE MOST PART I HAVE BEEN SUCCESSFUL. MY PROBLEM IS THAT I AM ALSO VERY SUCCESSFUL AT GAINING THAT WEIGHT BACK AND 20 POUNDS ADDED WITH THAT. I AM TIRED, SO ???? TIRED OF THE WIGHT AND THE WAY I FEEL ABOUT IT. I HATE HAVING TO ALWAYS LOOK FOR THE PLUS SIZE SECTION IN ANY AND ALL STORES THAT I SHOP IN.
A LITTLE BIT ABOUT MYSELF I AM A 41 WIFE AND MOTHER OF 4 (AGES 21,20,16 AND 15). AS MUCH AS I LOVE MY FAMILY I HAD TO COME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT I CAN NOT LOSE 1 SINGLE POUND FOR THEM AND BE SUCCESSFUL I HAVE TO LOSE EVERY POUND FOR CHERYL. I AM THE ONLY ONE THAT WILL MAKE THIS JOURNEY A SUCCESS. YES I CAN USE THEM AS MOTIVATION BUT THAT IS AS FAR AS IT CAN GO. OF COURSE I WANT TO SEE MY GIRLS ONE DAY GET MARRIED AND GIVE ME BEAUTIFUL GRAND CHILDREN AND SEE MY SONS MAKE A POSITIVE CONTRIBUTION TO THE WORLD AND NOT JUST BE IN IT TAKING UP SPACE. BUT STILL THAT IS NOT THE REASON WHY I SO DESPERATELY WANT TO LOSE THIS WEIGHT. I WANT IT OFF BECAUSE I AM TIRED OF BEING OUT OF BREATH WALKING AROUND A STORE. OR TIRED OF HAVING TO JUDGE A CHAIR BEFORE I SIT DOWN BECAUSE I AM NOT SURE IF IT WILL HOLD ALL OF MY WEIGHT, OR TIRED OF JUST BEING IN THIS BODY. OK I HAVE BEEN OVERWEIGHT FOR ALMOST 22 YEARS AND I HAVE THAT PART DOWN PACKED SO NOW I WANT TO GET THE THIN PART DOWN AS WELL AS I HAVE THE FAT PART. I WANT TO DEDICATE AS MUCH TIME AND ENERGY TO BEING THIN AS I HAVE DEDICATED TO BEING FAT. WHEN MY GRAND CHILDREN DO COME ALONG I WANT TO BE ABLE TO RUN AND PLAY WITH THEM. I WANT TO TAKE THEM TO THE PARK AND HAVE JUST AS MUCH FUN WITH THEM AS A THIN GRANDMOTHER CAN.
LAST YEAR MY MOTHER DIED IN MY ARMS AS I WAS GIVING HER A BATH. SHE DIED FROM CONGESTED HEART FAILURE THAT WAS DIRECTLY RELATED TO HER WEIGHT. SHE ALSO HAD SOME OTHER HEALTH PROBLEMS THAT WERE A DIRECT RESULT OF HER WEIGHT. SHE HAS ALWAYS BEEN ONE OF MY GREATEST SUPPORTERS IN EVERY ASPECT OF MY LIFE. HER DYING REALLY OPENED MY EYES UP TO A LOT OF THINGS. I KNOW THAT SHE IS UP IN HEAVEN RIGHT NOW CHEERING ME ON AND OPENING UP DOORS FOR ME TO HAVE THIS SURGERY THAT OTHEREWISE WOULD BE CLOSED. THANK YOU MOMMY. I DO NOT WANT TO DIE AT LEAST NOT NOW AND NOT FROM SOMETHING THAT I CAN DO SOMETHING ABOUT. ONCE I AM GIVEN THIS WONDERFUL TOOL THAT SO MANY OF YOU ALREADY HAVE AND ALREADY USING I WILL WITHOUT A DOUBT MAKE IT WORK FOR ME. I WILL USE IT OVER AND OVER AGAIN. THIS WILL NOT BE LIKE THE GYM MEMBERSHIP OR THE ROWING MACHINE IN MY LIVING ROOM OR THE EXERCISE TAPE THAT I HAVE. I WILL GET MY MONIES WORTH OUT OF THIS. I AM SO SERIOUS ABOUT IT UNTIL I CAN FEEL THAT IT IS ONLY A MATTER OF MINUTES BEFORE MY REAL JOURNEY BEGINS. PLEASE KEEP ME IN YOUR PRAYERS AND I WILL DO THE SAME FOR YOU.
