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Actually I'm more then a little upset right now, and it's something that has been brewing since about June and I just don't know what to do about it.  In June I 'officially' became thinner then my mother, and well she's not handling it well at all.  If she hears someone pay me a compliment she immediately has to jump in and say something like "I've gained all the weight she's lost. HAHAHAHAHA" etc.  It's driving me nuts.  Now I realize this is her issue, not mine -- but I can't help but feel horrible each and every time she does it.  Last night we were at Wal-Mart and I tried on a this red velvet cami with matching jacket to wear this holiday and the size I picked up was a large.  She immediately looks at it and says that pretty, but you'll need a bigger size.  I didn't say anything but went in to try it on and it fit well, but I just didn't like it on me.   So I step out to show her to get her opinion and all she says while laughing is "You skinny bitch".  I got pissed, undressed and then put the outfit back on the rack.  I hardly spoke to her the rest of the time we shopped.  Since high school, I have ALWAYS been heavier then she is.  I think that she felt better about herself when I was fatter.  Now we have a holiday party for my dad's work on Dec 15th.  No one there has seen me since the last Christmas party.  They all know I had surgery, but they haven't seen me, so I know that someone will say something about my weight loss.  Usually my mother is glued to my side during these parties and if someone pays me a compliment instead of enjoying it... I'll be waiting for the other shoe to drop because I know my mom will then jump in and comment about how she's gained all the weight I've lost.  If I don't sound sympathetic to her in this email... I truly am.  But I guess I just don't know how to deal with her comments etc.  In all honesty she has gained some weight this year.... but like I've reminded her time and time again -- she's not exercising because of the issues with her bladder. 
I just wish I knew what to say or do. 

Happy November Everyone! :)  I thought I'd be at 100 lbs lost by now, but the scale has played games with me this past month.  Of course the big battle for me last month was my mind over my stomach.   I discovered that I can eat the mini "bite-sized" Halloween Candy and not get sick from the sugar.  I honestly indulged way too much and was getting mad at myself for letting old behaviors slip back into my world. .  In my mind I could justify having a small piece ... but when you've had up 4 or 5 small pieces, it adds up.  I finally had to listen to a good friend say "THROW THE HALLOWEEN CANDY OUT"....  once I did that I no longer had that temptation in front of me and could get back on track.  I know that sweets are always going to be a problem for me, so I have to pay careful attention to how much, when and why I'm eating them.   Anyhow I have been teeter-tottering at 98 or 99 pounds lost!  Trust me, when I do see the 100 lbs loss on the scale, I will take a picture of the scale for all to see on my blog!  I did lose 4 lbs this month and something is better then nothing.  I am 10 lbs away from my surgeon's goal and about 20 lbs away from my personal goal that I've set for myself.  The only difference that I really see in these pictures is that my hair looks a little bit longer.  But this Thanksgiving, I will be thankful for my health and not dwell on how far I've got to go to get to my goal.... but instead reflect on how far I've come in the last 10 months.   To everyone who reads my blog, thank you for being so supportive of me. 

 

I hope that everyone has been able to get out and enjoy these beautiful autumn days.  I'm now 9 months post-op.  I can't believe that in this span of time, I 'could' have had a baby.  LOL  Time just seems to be flying by, but I guess that is what happens when you actually participate in life instead of watching it from the sideline. 

The next time I post pictures I hope to have hit the 100 lbs mark! :)  I have a dr.'s appt with my surgeon on October 26th, so I'll have my official weight loss then.  But according to my own scale, I've lost 94 lbs.  I wear a large in shirts and depending on the cut, I can wear a 12 or a 14 in pants.  The 12's are very very new to me.  Last Friday my husband told me that the jeans I had were too big and told me to try the next size down.  I asked him if realized if that would be a 12, almost as if it were taboo or something.  He just encouraged me and told me they'd fit.  So after work I go to Walmart to buy new jeans.  The 12's fit me sooo good!!!  (I have them on in the pics below.)  So if you were in Aberdeen Wal-Mart on October 13th and heard a woman scream, it was probably me! LOL    Diane, thank you for taking my phone call and allowing me to "WOOHOO" in your ear!!! LOL 

Life just seems to be going by so fast these days.  It's so exciting to see the difference in these pictures.  I haven't been this thin since I was in high school.  Nor has my husband known me this thin.  I was asked yesterday if this surgery was worth giving up certain the types of non-healthy food I used to eat.  My only reply to her was... "Nothing tastes as good as thin feels."  This is the best I have felt in YEARS!!!!  I have about 12 more pounds to go until I hit the 100 lb mark, and about another 25 lbs until I hit my goal weight.   My total loss is sitting at 88 lbs as of this morning!!!! :) 

I completely forgot that this was my 7 mth "surgi-versary".  A friend emailed me today to ask where my updated pictures were......  so here they are :)  I don't see much difference between my 6 and 7 month pictures.  I've only lost additional 7 lbs since my last set of pictures.  But hey, 7 lbs is 28 sticks of butter!! LOL

I can't believe 1/2 a year has gone by since I had my gastric bypass surgery.  I feel like a completely different person both physically and mentally!  I go back to the surgeon on Wednesday July 26th for my 6 mth follow-up, but according to 'my' scale, I am down 80 lbs.  I've gone from a size 26/28W to a regular 14/16.  Most of my tops are either XL or L too. 

50 lbs gone forever!!!

Well this was my first FULL week of work, and boy am I TIRED!!  It takes all my energy to get up and get out of bed in the morning.  I'm doing really well with tolerating foods, and have been experimenting a little!  I'm really trying hard to get in my 64 oz. of water because I'm noticing that my skin is really drying out!!!  The scale says I'm 26 lbs down! ;)  I still really can't see it though.  Lyle will take 1 month post-op pictures on the 17th!

 I had my LAP RnY on 01/17 and am now 3 days post-op.   My surgeons told me I was a classic textbook patient when it came to the surgery itself.   The night after my surgery was the worst with the gas pains and nausea.... come to fnd out the nurse was pressing the button on my PCA machine while I was sleeping, which was making nauseous!  Once I stopped the morphine, I started feeling better. The morning after my surgery I had the upper GI test done to see if I had any leaks.  This is by far the worst thing I've ever had to make myself do.  I threw up in my mouth about 5 times with that nasty fluid.  I shutter at the thought of every having to do that again!  Thank God I had no leaks!!  I have noticed that my sense of smell is very strong right now.  The only thing I can equate it too is being pregnant.  Last night my husband made tuna fish sandwiches for our girls for dinner and I thought I was gonna hurl just from the smell of the tuna.  I'm hoping that this is something that will pass!  I came home on Prevacid and LoriTab.  I've only had to take the LoriTab 3 times since coming home.  I'm having no trouble getting in my 64 oz. of water, but I feel like I'm constantly peeing! LOL  I took my 1st shower this morning and afterwards felt like a million dollars!!  I'll update more when I can.  :)