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Well i am still struggling to continue to lose, what i wouldnt do right now to be 175lbs!

this battle has become almost an obessession.

i dont want to be fat anymore!!

after going for my two year check up, i am 212-213lbs, and my pouch is about 6-8oz, and my iron is high..

im staring to exercise now by riding a bicycle, although i should be walking but my feet hurt.. trying to make bicycle riding a habit, and im starting to eat healthy..

i will be back on here in 2 more weeks, i have another check up with the dietician on the 17th..


Since im planning for a wedding also, im like super stressed, and with work.. so maybe this will keep me occupied from eating bad foods!

this is sooo much harder then i could ever imagined... who ever said i took the easy way out needs to be kicked in the nuts, cause this is in no way easy! Most challengeing thing i have ever been through..

if this doesnt work, im going to look into Restorative Obesity surgery, endoscopic..

well i havent done an update in a long while..


sooo much has happened since 2007!

I never knew relationship could have such a huge toll on a person.. plus it didnt help that right after my checkup in sept, i got laid off from the mortgage company i was working for on Oct 2rd 2007.

Here i thought i would lose weight normally, well 6 months out of the surgery, i had my world crumble, My boyfriend broke up with me for another girl that was a full figured, i was depressed. From Thanksgiving (the day he broke up with me) and two weeks from there i lost 30 lbs! i lose weight so fast cause i gave up eating and depression hit so hard. But i was a size 12! I loved that part, never in my life could i remember being a 12!

but it didnt help with the stress of dealing with forecloser, finding a job, needing money, needing insurance.. 

We got back together around new years but with a rocky start.. It was very shakey for 2008.. but finally settled things, and believe it or not, things cant be any better then ever before!

Jan. 10th, 2009 we got engaged!  now planning a wedding, for Sept. 22, 2012 and just recently in March 2009 getting out of Forecloser! and having a pretty promising job, Im happy were i am right now in my life..

BUT one thing i am sad and feel as a failure is that i have gained about 30-40lbs.. size 18!!!
I recently joined a gym for their full membership, and wanting to start eating right..

although i still dont eat much, i still managed to have gained due to high caloried foods, although there are days when i surprise myself on eating a whole burger.. i dont know where it goes!

Still cant eat sweets without severally dumping, but I am planning to visit my doctor for a check up and I'd like to know how big my pouch is.. Im nervous about, i have nightmares at night thinking it has ballooned..

but thats my story right now, im in need of some help!.. I hate myself on how much i have gained.. i shouldnt be this big still!

But i am not done with myself, im a blushing bride and i wont walk down wearing a size 20 dress!

I want that size 12 again.. and i wont stop until i achieve that!

I refuse to say that RNY failed me or that i Failed it...
This can be fixed!

Im not going to make excuses to myself.. i lack drinking water.. Ive always been told that when your thinking about food, you should drink water.. because your body is dehydrated so it triggers in your head you need something and since i am a food addict, the first thing i want is food! instead of a nice cold glass of water!

I just recently started to take, phentermine, although it does work from keeping me from eating, over eating and it makes me super thirsty, but it makes me cold... but it works!!

Going to keep this going with healthy food and excerise!

i'll keep you posted with results, tonight before i go to the gym i will do measurements..

well Im almost 5 months out and the scale read 199.0 today, i was soo excited to break out of the 200's!!

I didnt get to update but on Sept, i had one more surgery, it was to see if i had stricture, which from what the doctor said i didnt, but whatever he did to me really help cause now i am actually able to eat a taco or two with no problems, when before i would eat 2 bites and be full or throw it up..

i still hate food to this day but i know i have to eat!!

the weightloss has been slower but thats good though, cause my skin was starting to be very lose.. my bust area especially.. im sadden to see my boobs are almost just skin with no firmness.. But if all goes well sometime next May i will be doing a "boob job" atleast back to how they use to look..

FYI My birthday is on Halloween and i will be 26!!!!

wohoo!!

35lbs to go, I joined a gym and trying to tighten my skin up!

Im also going back to school now that everythng is falling into place, Id like to reach my goal before my birthday which is on halloween,,

I took alot of pictures as i lose weight but ive been slow on posting them so bare with me, i have to resize them before i can upload them..

I still question myself on wondering if i am still doing okay and if im doing everything okay? but i guess since im still losing weight everything should be okay...

I still threw up alot with some foods, and there is some stuff i do okay..

if you have any questions feel free to ask me..

Yep! 2 miles a day that i walk 5 days a week during my lunch, which isnt bad its a 30 min walk i put my sunscreen on my face and head out the door.. I noticed that walking is making me lose weight alot faster so im praying to get down to a size 16 by the first of august, if not i have to go buy something to wear to a friends wedding, i really dont want to go buy something and only be able to wear it for a few weeks..

I think i finally left the size 22 department, and now entired into size 20 BUT i have no clothes at size 20.. as of saturday i am officially the same time i was when i first started with weight watchers 3 years ago, Im doing fantastic!! its funny i look at my body now and remember that this was exactly the size i was, and i was unhappy.. im completely opposite, now im happy to see the 220's again, I know at high 190's-  low 200's im a size 16 and im not too far away..

Im half way to 175 and its soo exciting!! :)

Well they removed the gallbladder, the doctor said he couldnt believe how i could take the pain.. honestly never really felt it other than i had back pain and nausea in the morning.. My dad was upset because all this time no doctor could tell me what was wrong with me.. They all thought it was in my head for almost over a year.. Im glad Dr. Kim knew what it was immediately, It feels so good to eat and not through it up. Except for eating, of course that feels strange still, and also im frustrated cause i want to eat normal like my friends and i cant.. only little amount at a time or else i will through up.. all i want is a hot dog or burger.. *cries* hehe but its okay though.. I rather reach my weight goal then to eat like i use to and still be overweight.. nothing feels better then skinny!! Sorry no pics at the hospital this time.. I left the camera at home on purpose hehe.. my mom gets photo crazy..

Im healing pretty good, this wasnt nearly as bad as i thought, just another pain in the butt cause i wasnt ready for another surgery. this is day 4 and I feel pretty good, i stopped the pain meds after the first day post op.. I only used it on friday and partially on saturday cause i hate the way it taste..

Yes all of this drama that i have experienced with food turned out that my gallbladder is filled with multiple and large gallstones..

Im having surgery to remove them June 21 and will be off two weeks from work.. I look forward this surgery.. Suppose to take an hour.. Wish me luck!!

Ough! just when i thought everything was okay i hit another wall..

Today i havent been able to keep anything down.. i called the doctor's office and the nurse thinks its my gallbladder and will do a ultra sound tomorrow, so again no drinking past 12am and the appointment is at 10:45..  if its my gallbladder then i will need it removed.. im kinda hoping its not and that its stricture.. Either way both this will need some sort of surgery..

this is soo frustrating.. i just want to be able to drink something and keep it down... im hungry and thirsty..

:(

I'll post a update tomorrow if i get to come home..

Yesterday they finally took out the JP drain and the Staples and I feel SOOOOO much better, I cant believe how much of a difference it makes, although i still cant lay on my side yet, Im sure im just days from being able too.. maybe once the Drain side is healed i will be able too..

Everything is going really good, and food goes down with ease.. Ive enjoyed this experience so far and would do it all over again pain and all.. Even though some things have been a challenge, im happy with the results.. I cant wait till i get down to my weight goal, and i know its only a few months away..

What a wonderful experience..

Wow what a journey this has been!! Surgery took 2 hours..
I was so nervous during the surgery prep.. they stuck a 18 gauge IV in my hand which didnt hurt they injected me to numb it first, but i was shaking not so much because it was cold but because i was every nervous and scared.. I remember seeing 7:30 am and they werent there yet, (my mom said they ended up taking me at 8:30)i kinda remember that they rolled me in the surgery room, i remember people all around me in gowns, and the HUGE light above me they asked me to come over to the operating table, I remember a lady telling me, your going to do to great!! Your in good hands. and then i looked up and they where injecting the IV and then lights out..(from what my mom said they surgery took 2 hours)
I woke up in the recovery room in pain not a  hurt pain but a pressure pain like my boobies where pushing down on my chest and keeping me from breathing.. but it was from the gases they put, i remember there was a person with me at all times. It was a dark room and cold.. I remember asking for pain meds but the guy said no, not until I go to my room. i keep dozing off because it hurt and i rather be asleep then to feel this pressure in my chest.. I remember the guy telling me that my room was ready, but he was training this lady and i remember i was getting frustrated because he was taking to long to  take me. Then finaaly what  seemed like forever he finally starts to roll me out, we go to the waiting area to get my  mom, but i was still on and off with sleep, so everything is kinda blurry. I remember waking up in my room and asking for some pain meds and they brought out the morphine which kicked in fast!! I wanted something to drink but they wouldnt let me for the first 24 hours, but they did give me this swab to moist my mouth which helped ALOT!! Later that day i remember the therapist came in around 3pm asked me to get up from bed and sit down.. and I almost fainted when i got up, what a shock my body took with that.. it was around 6pm that she came in and told me it was time to start walking.. i went and walked half way down the hall and back and i was sooo tired and sore, and more pain meds came..Also the oxygen monitor kept beeping which was annoying. the nurse said that during the surgery my heart rate was in the 50's and while i was in the room the reason the thing kept beeping was that my heart rate was in the 30's which was low.. but i guess i wasnt in danger, it just abnormal i suppose, a normal pulse is in the 80's 90's well the next day toward the evening it went up to the 80's which is good :)

that was how my first day was and i believe the worse part.. the rest of my time there was alot easier and i kept feeling so much better after walking and NO LEAKS!!! wohoo!! :)