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So I just added the new pictures on here from my friend's camera that she finally got on disc so I could add them.  Well, the point is I mean I have looked at the other before pictures and they haven't hit me as hard as the new ones did.  I was seriously looking at them last night on the computer especially when I made the before and after one, and just cried.  I really don't know if I cried for happiness or sadness, happy because it was the best decision I've ever made or sadness because I use to be that way and I remember how I felt when I was that big.  I remember isolating myself towards the end because I was so embarrassed of how I looked.  I know it wasn't all my fault the weight, because PCOS played a big part in the significant weight gain, but I will take some ownership because It wasn't all salads and exercise.  (McDonalds burgers and fries helped)    So haven't had one of them since before my surgery...I don't miss them either!  It has hit me now the significant amount of weight I've lost, not just that, but the inches.  Unfortunately, I was not measured before surgery so I have no comparison in that aspect, if I could go back I would do that.  But you can definitely see a difference.  I can tell you that my ring fingers have gone from an 11 down to 7.5-8.  For the first time I feel like I can walk out and hold my head up high and not be paranoid that people are looking or talking about me.  It was very bad before surgery the paranoia.  I'm sure I will have that still, but it's definitely not like it was and now they would be talking for a good reason.   I even went to the community pool yesterday with my sister and wore my new bathing suit, I wasn't embarrassed to walk around without a towel completely wrapped around me...that's a first!  So, I've rambled enough...Good Luck and Continued success to you all!  Check out my new pictures and comment when you get a chance and hit me up!

I seem to be going through a depression phase again.  I noticed after surgery I went through this horrible depression phase and than I went through a phase where I was evil Windy...(or so my sister says)  I would turn into evil woman in a split second than burst into tears the next.  I was doing really good, than recently this depression phase has hit again.  It isn't as bad as it was when I first had surgery, but still I hate it.  It's like someone can look at me wromg and I start to cry...before it was worse though I would be at home sobbing for no reason.  That was the worst.  I understand with all the changes I've gone through from the weight loss I know it has to do with that, but how long will this last?  Well it ever go away?  Just had to write down  my feelings to get them out and hopefully someone will read and comment or give me some helpful advice!!!  As always good luck and continued success to all of you!

So I've been watching that show Jon and Kate Plus 8 and the other day they did a look back over the beginning till now and she mentioned that she has PCOS too and that is why they did fertility treatments to have children.  Which is wonderful!  Gives hope!  Than I'm flipping through the channels today and A Baby Story was on and decided to watch it, the woman on there said she had difficulty getting pregnant due to PCOS as well and had to do fertility treatments to conceive...Question for anyone that has PCOS and has had surgery, did you have to use fertility treatments to have children?  I am just wondering for the future if this will be something that I will have to do to be able to conceive.  I understand everyone is different, but I was just wondering if anyone had any information for me!  Please let me know!  AS always I send my thoughts to everyone that is going through the process of surgery and everyone that has had it. 
Good luck and continued success!