Tanya1992
3-7-06
My name is Tanya I am 34, a mother of 2 great kids, a wife and a childcare provider. I have been overweight all of my adult life and most of my childhood, I have also wanted to have a gastric bypass for many years now. And now my insurance is going to cover the it. I was so excited when I got the notice in the mail, I felt like it was a wonderful gift I had been given at a second chance at life.
So now I am working with a health coach and will continue to work with her for the next 5 months as required by my insurance co. as well as a dietician. This is all going good, I am learning alot about nutrition and my own eating habits, like I thought I was eating less than I actually am. My dietician put me on a diet of 1200 cal. so I told him if I could stay on 1200 cal. diet I would not need a gastric bypass. Of course he said that I will need to eat like that after I have surgery so I need to get use to it. I know I will be eating like this, I will also have a stomach the size of a teaspoon not of a football. And so my next step is to go to a physc. elva. which I am sure will be fine.
I also started working out this week, my husband and I bought a Bowflex and let me tell you it is much harder actually working out on it rather than watching an commercial about it. I just hope this will help me in the long run with loose skin, I know I will not look like a beach bunny and that it okay. I will check in soon.
3-14-06
I am feeling a little anxious today. I think I am realizing my dream of having surgery is now becoming a reality.I have wanted this for such a long time that it always seemed like a dream. I often wonder how wonderful I will feel after I have surgery. Okay maybe not wonderful immediately but a few weeks after. I can't imagine the pain to be worse than a c-section and if it is I will try to remember how much healthier I will be when it is all over.
I read a book over the last couple of days and it had ideas about goal setting and dreams. I have a quite a few goals like jumping on the trampoline with my kids and bike riding again. I have been thinking about this alot in the last few weeks and have really put alot of thought into what I want to do when I get healthier. I also realized it is o.k to have dreams of my own. I read a phrase in the book I have also been thinking about " it cost the same to dream big as it does to dream small" and isn't that the truth. So today I will look up $3000.00 a night room in Hawaii rather than the moderate priced room. By the way that is one of my goals is to go anywhere tropical and go snorkling.
3-17-06
Happy St. Patricks Day everyone! We don't really celebrate this holiday other than with cornbeef and cabbage, but I just love to say it.
I talked with my insurance co. yesterday and learned I will need to wait the full 6 months with my health coach before I can even schedule to see the surgeon. I know the woman at the insurance co felt bad telling me but I am going to look at this in a possitive way. This will give me time to learn to drink water slowly, exercise everyday, start taking vitamins, and cut myself off caffine and sodas. I have 4 1/2 months too go and I know I can do this I have alot of determination lately and I feel I am finally getting help and therefore I have hope.
I look foreward to so many things. My family had a trip to Disneyland planned this year, we were going to go for 1 week and see the San Diego zoo and go to Sea World too. Now that I know that I will be having surgery we have posponed the trip until next summer, this was alot to ask my family to give up I know. But I did explain to them how much healthier I would be and I would have so much more energy to keep up with them all week. I will be able to get on all the rides and have such a good time with them. Until next time. See Ya
3-24-06
Today is a great day, I am feeling so good (Ihad the stomach flu). I have now lost 11 lbs. although it has taken me 2 months. I am just glad I didn't gain any or I didn't stay the same. Working with the health coach has really helped me alot, I have really learned alot about myself and my habits that I am now changing. I only have 4 more months before I can start the procedure of the surgeon, phyc. evaluation and everything else. I went to my first support group meeting a couple of weeks ago and I learned so much. Having this surgery is really a major life change. So I figure I have 4 months to make the changes and I am acually doing really good with them I trully feel this is the right thing to do.
My husband is a great man I love him so very much and he is my best friend. When I first told him I wanted to have the surgery to did not think it was a good idea. His concern is I would die or be ill from a result of the surgery and because I have no health problems he could not see why I would put my life in danger just to be thin. After a lot of talking and research together he has come to understand my feelings and is now my best support not that my friends aren't wonderful they are there for me too. But I said that because he was at his mothers house last week-end and his brother and his were talking about the surgery and his brother didn't think it was a good idea and Jason (my husband) told him that it was my choice and he was going to support my decision and me. I was proud of him for standing up for me like he always does. I and very greatfull to have such a wonderful husband I have some friend that are thin and thier husbands hound them about thier wieght if they go over a size 6 and here I am wearing a size 26 and my husband loves me as I am. I think he sees me like shallow Hal sees women. Until next time have a great day!
3-29-06
I have made a list of a few things I want to do after I have surgery and am able to do. Here I go:
Hike to the top of Mt. Lassen
Try snow skiing
Hike to 1,000 lakes and camp out
Try wake boarding
Go on any roller coaster
Ride a bike with my kids
Go jogging and see if I like it
Feel healthy
Have enough energy not to need a nap in the middle of my day
When my husband tells me I'm sexy believe him
Jump on the trampoline with my kids
Go shopping in a non-plus size store
Get up out of the water into our boat
Feel good about myself
4-19-06
Okay so now I am less than 3 months away from getting started. I just can't wait to get this done. In some ways I feel I am putting my life on hold just waiting, its enough to drive me nuts, hope that goes away before I go for my physc. eval. haha.
We are starting to plan a few trips for the summer which is coming up so quickly. I am really looking forward to them, just some camping, a trip to the zoo, a trip to the coast and a trip to see family. In between all that we will be replanting our front yard. We have quite a bit planned I guess.
I woke up Easter to 15 inches of snow, I could not believe it. What happened to spring? I live in northern California and it is still cold. We had to have an Easter egg hunt in the house ( a first for me), only plastic eggs though. Can you imagine a lost boiled egg in the house? My 5 year old daughter wore a cute sundress and snow boots it was adorable.
Until next time, enjoy life! Tanya
5-3-06
Okay I was wrong on the less than 3 months before I can get started. I now have only 3 months left. I talk with my health coach tomarrow and see what other changes I can make.
We are landscaping our front yard this week and next I am sure of. It will look really nice when we are all done. My husband wanted to do the back yard as well but I can't see the point in doing it, I have a daycare and 2 dogs so everyday there are 8 kids playing out there. We do have grass but I would love to have more flowers, but this year a veggie garden will have to do plus the kids will love to pick the veggies for lunches.
I am really getting excited about summer coming, we will bring our boat home in a few weeks andget it cleaned up after sitting all winter. I cannot wait to be tubing it is so much fun. My favorite time is just at dusk and the water is smooth it feels like I am flying, we will going out soon since the lake it only 10 miles away from home.
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5-20-06
I just would like to get some of my thoughts down. First of all it is very hard for me to believe that I will be having surgery in just a few months. Just thinking about it makes me teary eyed not that I am scared I am just so excited. I can't wait to do so many things. Not smoking has been very hard for me I am just keeping my eye on the ball and thinking of it as another goal I have met. After I have surgery I will have to give up alot more than smoking I might as well get use to giving up bad things for me and replacing them with good things for me (since cheesecake has cream cheese in it does that count as protien?haha).
I told my health coach about have a dinner called the last supper before my surgery and she thinks it is a good idea, it could be like funeral for all the foods I will never be able to eat again after surgery.
I meassured yesterday and I was down 1.5 inches in my waist in 2 weeks, I was very proud of myself and I did'nt celebrate with food. This was a big deal for me, ffod has always been involved in celebrating everything. And now I am going to celebrate by getting a pedicure, my first. I wonder if alot of people that have wls ever feel like they are being selfish by doing it? I do sometimes but then I realized I will be so much healthier after I have gotten my self under control. I woke up the other morning and was wondering what happened to me, I did'nt just wake up fat. I am doing something about it now and that is what I need to focus on. Until next time have a great time.
5-23-06
I just want to get something out there so here I go. Yesterday I told my friends boyfriend I was having wls and he asked me how my husband was going to feel when I was 150 lbs. What the hell is that suppose to mean? I said the same as he does now. Here is my question, why is it people think Jason (my husband) will love me more or less after I am thinner? So I talked to Jason about it he said that he understands the I have issues with my weight but he doesn't but he knows this is what I want and he will be there to support me. I just don't get how some people think being fat equals being unlovable. I love me husband and I know he loves me what does weight loss and love have to do with eachother?
Sorry about that I am just angry. Other than that I am doing great.
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6-14-06
I know it has been a while since I have updated but summer is here and fun is to be had! Tomarrow is my meeting with my health coach and I am glad my six month coaching is almost over. I will still be working with her for six months after wls and I am sure this will help out alot.
6-19-06
I talked to my health coach and she said I needed to call myt ins. co. and after about 4 calls I learned that I have to wait until my health coach sends forms to the hospital and to the ins co. giving me authorization to have surgery. I have about 5 weeks left and after she sends all her info. to everyone it will be another 2-3 months before surgery, so I am looking towards Oct. or later. I am so fustrated right now I just want to get the ball rolling faster and I am sure the closer it comes the more fustrated I wil become. That is okay the payoff will be much better in the long run.
We went out to the lake over the week-end and all my exercise is paying off when I got into the boat from the water its was much easier than last year. I went tubeing and swimming and had a great time with my family. Next week-end we are going camping and I can't wait. I keep thinking that next year when I go tubeing or swimming how much easier it will be for me. We are at the lake a lot in the summer considering our summer only last for about 4 months and I can't wait to feel the difference.
7-13-06
I had another appt. with my health coach today and all is well. I had until 8-8-06 and then my 6 months is up although I will still have her to help me thru the procedure and after. I can't wait until I can start seeing the doctors and get this going. It is hard to be patient when I have waited sooo long. I'm sure it is what is best for me but I want to be able to do so much that I can't now. I find know that I worry if it will all go through with the insurance co. and the program at the hospital. You have to get approved through the program before you can even see the doctors. Sometimes I just want to scream, cry and scream some more, I just keep reminding myself it will be over soon.
7-27-06
I have been trying not to freak out lately. I was worried I wouldn't be covered to have surgery but after talking to my health coach today she said she is going to recomend that I have it and that the only other clearance that she knows of is from the Dr. I hope she is right.
Adult camp is this week-end and I can't wait a bunch of adults no kids and alot of alchol, hum... sounds like fun. This will be the last time to party before surgery and from what I hear for a year or more after surgery. I did tell my health coach I would not be counting calories this week-end. I need to have a break from the house and responsiblity of being a parent for a day or two.
8-10-06
MY SIX MONTHS DIET IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes I am excited. Now I have to wait on the ins. co. to call me, but honestly I am not worried they are usually pretty good about getting claims done fast. So i am hoping they are just as fast with my surgery claim.
On a different note, a little girl was lost in our small town today. It was really scarey to think an abduction could happen in Burney. The good news is she was found under a tree by the creek hiding, she was scared of the helicopter above her, she is only three. I am so grateful she is safe and it was great to see our community pull together to search for her. To each of us it was as if we were looking for our own children. It trully is wonderful to live in a small community that cares so much.
8-11-06
I know I just posted yesterday but I have great news!!!!! I talked ot my insurance co. today and I am approved!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait to have this procedure.
8-14-06
I went to my husabdns company picnic on saturday and the ladies from Shasta Regional were they surgery is done was there and I was talking to them about having the surgery. Well Diane who runs the program told me about the 1st meeting I have to go to befor the process is started, she said if I wait until the ins. get her the info. I would have to wait until the Sept. meeting but now I could go to the Aug. meeting and therefor I could have the surgery a month earlier. Yeah!!!!!!
It seems everything is going so smoothly, I just really have a good feeling about the whole process. I am so glad it is starting.
8-29-06
Last night I went to the WLS seminar in Redding and it was good and detailed about the surgery. I think it might of scared my husband a little but he said it didn't.. I learned that i coiuld be having surgery within 3 months time.YEAH FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hopefully I will get a call in the next couple days to schedule with the cooridinator at the hospital. It is the second step with them. I am excited and scared a little too I have read this is normal, so that is good.
8-30-06
Okay here I sit waiting for the phone to ring so I will get my appt with the coordinator. I know they are busy but for once I have a few min. to take a phone call and I am excited so I am having a hard time waiting. I know I shouldn't call but I want to so bad. I sound like a child in my daycare, "PLEASE, PLEASE" . I have read other profiles and thought I would never be like that and here I sit doing the same thing. I don't think I will make it all day without calling but I am going to try to wait until noon it is only 3 hours and 8 min. away.LOL0
9-1-06
I have an appt. with the coor. next thurs. that isn't too bad only 6 days away and I hope they go quickly. It feels like I have been doing this forever and then a little. My next question is "how much longer do I have to be fat?"
I am thinking of trying to get an angel to help me on my journey, I know my family and friends will be there for me but someone that has been there too and knows what I am going through.
9-7-06
My appt. went very good and I found out that I will be having surgery earlier than I thought. I can not wait!!!!!!! Because I already have aproval from my ins. co. it will move me to the end of Oct. of this year. I weigh more thanI thought and that was a bit depressing but soon enough I will be on the losing side of my life. I know my life will change alot and I am really looking forward to get off work and still have energy to do other things other than work.
9-16-16
I went tot the appt. with the nutritionist at the hospital and it went great she was really nice and I felt comfortable talking to her. She said I will be talking with her after surgery again, okay by me.
I am having a hard time being patient lately I feel like I have waited for so long and I just can't wait one more day and then guess what I wake up the next day and I have made it through one more day. What is happening is I am so excited and I just want to feel better about myself and feel healthier too. I was also told at my appt. that my "ideal weight" is 158. I don't ever remember weighing this ever in my life, well maybe in elementary school. I would like to weigh 170 but if I get down to 158 so be it. Right now I would like to weigh anything but what I do weigh.
Next week I go to the physc. eval. and I have to say I am a little nervous about this and I am not sure why. I have met him before and he is very kind and down to earth, so I shouldn't have any problems. I do take Zoloft everyday and I hope this does not get in the way of me getting approval.
9-26-06
I went to the phych. eval. and it was fine. It was like talking to a friend he asked questions I answered, he wrote down. And that was about it other than the 165 true or false questionair which was not bad either. I had read about other peopple having a 500 question test so this one is easy in comparison.
I am now waiting on the hospital to get the info to the doctors office and to get a call from them to schedule for the consultation with one the surgeons in Redding that does the surgery. I know it has only been a week but I want this done. I have never been extremely patient but I am learning to leave things alone that I have no control over and this is one of those times to walk away and not push people.
I was thinking today about what my goal weight of 158-170 lbs and I know I will meet it, I have so much confidance in myself since I have this new hope of a healthier life for myself. I can not remember the last time I was under 200 lbs. I remember I was in the 5th grade and weighed 155 lbs. Can you believe my goal weight is about the same as the weight I was when I was in the 5th grade. So far in my journey I have been asked how long I have been over weight and my answer is always the same from about the 4th grade. So none of my adult life I have ever been at a healthy weigh and I look forward to the journey ahead of me.
9-27-06
I knowI posted yesterday but I have alot on my mind today. I wander if all WLS patients get nervous before ever seeing the surgeron, I have wanted this for so long and now I am so nervous sometimes it is hard to breathe. What will my life be like after WLS? This is a huge question for me today, I love my life I just want to be more active in it. I have a great husband, family and freinds. I hope my husband never stops loving me, I say this because I read a profile yesterday and this woman said her husband was so afraid of her cheating on him he went out and had an affiar. I don't fear my husband cheating nor does he me but after so many years of love and trust how could someone cheat on love? I am just babbling I know, I am sure we will behappy as always after all not everyone that has surgery gets divorced!!!!
9-28-06
I have posted here for the last couple days now, i can't stop thinking about how my life will change after surgery. No call yet I know I am not on the top of the pile but I want to be. I was told by my nutritionist I did'nt need to start my diet too soon but today I woke up and thought if I start slowing down on my eating and having slimfast for breakfast or lunch once a day or twice that would mean I have less to lose after surgery and I am hoping to have it sooner than later, I need to lose 10 lbs but I would like to lose about 20 lbs before surgery.
10-5-06
I have good news, I called the hospital and Jody said the surgeon has my paper work and should be calling in the next couple days!YEAH FOR ME!!!!!! i also found out that if I wanted to pre-pay I would save a whopping 20% off of the surgery, that is a savings of $423.00, I am so happy. Because I am self-employed I don't have disability, so right now I am saving like crazy. Life is good and getting ready to get better!
10-9-06
I started my diet today, I know I said I would do it earlier but that didn't happen. My diet is a slimfast for b-fast, a healthy lunch and slimfast for dinner. I am still here waiting to the surgeons office to call, I don't want to nag them which is why I haven't called yet. But as the days pass on I want to call more and more. Sometimes I feel as though I am waiting for my life to begin. I did pay the hospital it was $1706.88 and that is not bad and I am glad I don't have to think about having that bill after surgery now I wonder how much the surgeon will be, I know the consultation is $255.00 but I am unsure about how much his fees will be for the surgery. I have all my ducks in a row............CALL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!
10-11-06
I have great news..................I have an appt .on monday the 16th. YEAH FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dr. Stone will be my surgeon.
10-13-06
I am getting obsessed with this sight and I have read alot of people do the same thing. I am only 3 days away from meeting the surgeon that will help me start on the losing side. I ave so many questions no one can answer for me just time will. Like how much energy will I have after I lose weight, how much exactly will I lose, and I know this is odd but I wonder what my face will look like. I have always been overweight and I notice in alot of profiles that peoples bodies don't only change but thier face looks different too and I am sure it is different because there is no longer fat there. I will have to lose 165 lbs. that is alot of weight, in fact that is another person. I worry I will fail but at the same time I know I will suceed becasue I am so determined to be healthy. I was watching a show the other day and it was a Dr. who had lost 245 lbs. form cycling across the country and he was saying it could be done without surgery, I am glad he lost his weight that way. But why is it thought of as and easy way out rather than a treatment for obesity? I am having this surgery to be healthier not to be a size 6 or to look hot in a bathing suit but because I want to watch my children grow up and be active with them, I quit smoking not only because the surgeon wold not do the surgery if I didn't, but because I didn't want the long term effects of smoking. So I have not made all these changes because I an going to have surgery I made these changes because I could see myself becoming someone I didn't like looking at in mirror. And I decided to make a change for the benefit of my health and to teach my children to take better care of themselves.
I will now get off the soap box and wish everyone a good day.
Tanya
11-6-06
I finally figured out how to update my story!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH FOR ME!
Today was my first day of waking up at 4:30 am and going walking. I usually walk after work everyday but i have found that I would like to spend more time with my kids in the evenings, I will just make it work. Exercise is a big part of losing weight and so I must do it, right? My surgery is a week from today and I am really calm about it so it was good for my to wait a little longer and now I am on a mission to lose as much weight before I have surgery, I have lost a total of 18lbs so far and that is before the mag. citrate i take on sunday! Today I feel great and i am loving life!
11-8-06
I saw the surgeon yesterday it went very weel. Everytime I met with him i find I like him more than the last time! My husband was impressed with him and he answered all of the questions Jason and I had. I feel trually blessed to have found such an awesome surgeon!!!!
I woke up early again today and feel great! I walked for an hour and got quite a workout. I am also going to walk this evening with my kids, they want to exercise with me and it is a great oppurtunity for them to get out too. Only 5 more days left!!!!!!!!! I am not really scared I am more relaxed and calm about it. I can't wait to change my life for the better, and I am on the right track.
11-20-06
I made it through surgery!!!!!!!!!! I lost 15 lbs. in the first week, that is amazing. I had almost no pain and I am fine. Was I happy to be told I could eat more than just broth, jell-o and popsicles. If I never have broth again it will be too soon! I met some great people at the hospital while was there, it is nice to know I am not alone in this.
11-28-06
I remember when I was on this site everyday and now about once a week. I feel so good the last thing I want to do is sit at a computer. I see the surgeon today for the follow-up. I am curious to see how much I have lost, I have a lot more anergy now. I learned a few things about myself this last week. If you eat more than 4 bites of chicken it will come back up and since I do not drink with meals vomitting is harder. I miss my veggies really bad, and food tastes alot different than it use to. I like to wear jeans, this one was a shocker to me I usually hate jeans. I feel good baout myself now and can't wait to see what else this journey is going to show me.
12-11-06
I am doing really good lately and am getting all my vitamins and water in. But on the other hand I have been hungry I am sure it is mental hunger but the holidays are killing me. I have not ate anything I shouldn't though I have wanted to. We never have dessert left over I pour water over it, I don't want to tempt myself. I will be stronger in time and I will be fine holding the left overs for my family but until then sorry.
I weighed yesterday and I have now lost 40.5 lbs. I feel it too, because my clothes are getting too big. The other day Jason was playing around and grabbed my pants and they came off, I don't want to buy new clothes but it looks like I might have to. I can't wait to see how I feel when I hit the 50lb. mark and then the 100lb. mark.
Merry Christmas to everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!
Tanya
About Me
Burney, CA
Location
31.6
BMI
Surgery
11/13/2006
Surgery Date
Jan 29, 2006
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