Chantell S.

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Wow, I cant believe its been so long since I've updated anything on here. So much has happened over these past couple of years (its embarrassing to say years).  But the major and most important thing that happened was that I realized that in order to be totally successful with wls you must determine the very root of what led you to need wls in the first place. And that, is the one thing I did not handle prior to having wls. Why do I eat that way I do? Why is food so comforting to me? How am I, or will I be able to change after wls? These are the questions I wish I had asked myself and dealt with when I first decided to have surgery. Those are the questions that I am now forced to evaluate. Don't get me wrong, I am so thankful that I had surgery I just truly wish I would've fully prepared myself to take full advantage of this amazing tool. With that said, here I am, 2 years post op with a 25lb regain, and a desire to finally get completely on track.

This has been a very up and down journery for me, but like I said its worth it and I wouldnt change it for the world. Recently I experienced some real downs (a gain, pain, and had my gallbladder removed). Emotionally I've been thru the ringers to the point that I even decided to seek professional help. Depression is NO JOKE, no matter how minor you think it may be, or if you're afraid of what others may think SCREW EM. Do what you've got to do to keep yourself moving forward. Now to my gain, ugh, yes I gained and not just one pound either. I totally fell off track for a while and was eating all the wrong things and truly pushing myself to my limits. It was Sabotage at its highest. But thankfully, I slapped myself, woke myself back up and found my focus again. I reconnected with my surgeon again after quite some time, thankfully, I let it all out I told him exactly how I was feeling how upset I was and we hashed it out right in the nick of time because a week later I had the WORST gallbladder attack and it had to be removed. But like I tell anyone who follows me and corresponds with me, I'm human, I fall, but I'm getting back up.

Although this has been a year of many ups and downs I wouldnt trade it for anything. The decision to have surgery was perhaps the best decision I ever made. Like I said it hasnt been easy but the triumph is more than worth the trials. I've learned more about myself within this year than i think I ever did. I havent made it to the finish line just yet, in fact this is still just the beginning. But IM READY to take charge of this journey. A year ago I was 350lbs, my body was not mine and was slowly falling apart. Today I am 218lbs, working out more than I ever did in my life, and feeling like a completely different brand new person. My life is just beginning...

 I'm having a moment of true disbelief. This journey has not been an easy one for me but I thank God he made it possible. Even though it's been rough I'd do it all over again. Today my mother and I were out shopping and she bought me the cutest outfit in a size 18/20, mind you I haven't been that size since I was a freshman in high school. And at first I though ok well I'll be able to wear it one day especially since I myself can't see a change in my physical appearance. But to my absolute surprise it fit and I had a little room. I could not believe it it almost brought tears to my eyes. I can't believe that 6 and a half months out I'm 103lbs down and 10 dress sizes down. Omg. Now this is a true whoa moment.

Well this journey has been quite a trip, I'm truly thankful for it but boy has it been quite a trip. As of today I'm still struggling with getting in the total amount of protein, liquids, heck even food that I'm suppose but I am thankfully getting in all of my supplements. Now my battle is with taste, I cant seem to tolerate foods/drinks with strong tastes. In order for me to get any of it down it has to be almost tasteless. Protein shakes give me the foamies almost every time I drink them  . So I've been up to my weave in Chobani with extra protein added to it. I've been trying to eat meat because its high in protein and no carbs but if I dont chew one fricking bite good enough I'm in pain for the longest unless I purge it up. My NUT has gone missing. I havent been able to get in contact with him for the past couple of weeks now, so I'm depending on the board here for any help or advice I can get. I've also started youtubing which has been a big help. But ugh I just wish my Dr or my NUT would return my calls. I'm feeling like I'm in a foreign country with no translator. Anyway, I am happy that I've met my first weight loss goal which was to get under 300lbs and thank fully I am currently 286. I havent seen that number since high school at least. Even though I knew I'd get there, it almost brought me to tears to actually see it. Now I'm able to actually able to play with my son and not get too worn out. So I although my travels are bumpy and rough I know the final destination will be well worth the trip.