taylaroses
I am a mother and a wife. I have 2 children. My battle with weight really started when I was in HS. My mother was very overweight and as I watched her battle it I decided what I did NOT want to be so I went the opposite and didn't eat at all! This went on until my second pregnancy and miscarriage when I was 18. When I went into the Navy shortly later I was at my borderline weight 140 pounds. After boot camp I was back down to 115 lbs and reverted right back to my old habits of NOT eating for fear of packing on the weight. After the birth of my first child after 6 months I lost the weight back down to a size 10 and was still losing and learning healthy habits even while I was grieving over the death of my mother. When I transferred to TX and had my daughter is when things went down hill from there. Being in an abusive relationship with someone who would drink all the time didn't help and NOT having any family support didn't help either. I managed to get down to a size 16 after my daughter. I moved to TN and was going to college when I reconnected with my husband now of almost 7 years. He has been my life support through all of this. We have had a rough time which was one of the many reasons for my weight gain. I managed to get up to a size 22 which is where I am now. It took me 2 years and TONS of research to make my decision to do WLS. My motivation behind it was knowing my mother died at 39 because of her weight. I want to be here to watch my kids grow up. I want to see them graduate. I want to be here when they get married. I want to hold my first grandchild. I want to be mobile again and free from pain from arthritis. I don't want to be an embaressment to my children, extended family, or husband. I want to learn to love me and be happy again in my own skin. I know with the support of my family and friends and church friends that I will make it down this road. I will finally succeed and win my long battle of weight and I will learn food and weight will NO longer control me or my life anymore! I don't expect it to be easy but all I can do now is just leave it ALL in God's hands and what will be will be.
