TESSIE59
I AM 47 YEARS OLD. I AM MARRIED WITH 3 CHILDREN.....25, 12, 11. THE LAST TWO LIVE WITH ME AND THE OLDER IS MARRIED AND LIVES WITH HER HUSBAND. I DIDN'T BEGIN FIGHTING THE BATTLE OF WEIGHT UNTIL AFTER I HAD MY OLDEST DAUGHTER. AFTER I HAD HER I NEVER LOST THE WEIGHT I GAINED AND THEN BEGAN ADDING MORE. I AM A SURVIVOR OF MANY FORMS OF ABUSE AS A CHILD AND THROUGHOUT MOST OF MY FIRST MARRIAGE. SOME PEOPLE LOSE WEIGHT UNDER STRESS..........NOT ME. I NEVER HANDLED INNER PERSONAL RELATIONSHIPS WELL SO I DID WHAT I KNEW HOW TO DO. I USED WEIGHT TO MAKE SURE I DIDN'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH THEM. AS YOU KNOW OVERWEIGHT PEOPLE USUALLY GET AVOIDED AND IGNORED PRETTY GOOD. UNFORTUNATELY LIKE MOST ADDICTIONS THERE CAME A POINT WHERE I COULDN'T CONTROL IT AND IT BEGAN TO CONTROL ME. OVER THE LAST YEAR MY HEALTH HAS BEGUN TO DETERIORATE TREMENDOUSLY. I'M TO THE POINT WHERE IF I DON'T DO SOMETHING I WON'T HAVE A CHOICE.
