Gonna try again...

Nov 01, 2010

Was looking at my old profile. Looking at it made me realize what i've done...and what i have undone. 6 months after surgery i was at the weight i am  now. I've gained exactly 40lbs and damn what a gdamn sad difference it makes.

I've lived just about every single day for the past couple of years pretty sad and thinking about how i've undone things. i'm so tired of it. i went and signed up @ Curves. Gonna give it a shot for atleast a month. My heads still not cooperating with my stomach. I want food all the time. I don't know what is wrong with me!

I weighed 206lbs today. It is very depressing. I'd like to set goals and all that...but what's the point. I'm sure no one is reading this but i need to get this off my chest. i feel no one knows what i'm going through and don't know what to do...who to turn to.

Pathetic it is...but i'm gonna try. that's all i can do.

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