Melissa W.

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Well it's almost the end of the year and my life has changed drastically. I moved back to PA. I am going through a divorce, and I live with the love of my life. I got engaged on Thanksgiving, and as soon as my divorce is final, we are going to get married. I have known my fiance since I was 10 years old. He truly is my soulmate. I have a wonderful 12 year old step son. I never realized how hard it is to be a mom, until now. But I wouldn't have it any other way. I am doing good in my weight loss. As of this morning I weigh 270 pounds. At my highest weight I was 464 pounds. I feel so much better and am able to do things that most other people take for granted. It is easy to be motivated when you have a good support team. My fiance encourages me and is super supportive of me. We walk together as much as we can, at least a mile or 2 when we do walk. I am very happy with my surgery. Even though the pain was the worst I have ever experienced, I would do it again in a heartbeat. I thank God every day for the second chance that he gave me. Because without the weight loss surgery, I am pretty sure I would be dead by now. Thank you God for giving me this new lease on life.

Went to Dr Bruce yesterday for my one month check up. I weighed in at 367. So I lost 38 total in the first month. Which is so good. and makes me so happy. I just wish I would be able to tell it in places other than just my face. And it seems like I'm losing weight in my feet??? I don't know what that is about, but I am just happy that I am starting to see results. Thank you so much to Dr Bruce. I love my new life

Ok so I finally got my computer fixed, Surgery was good. I had a hard time coming out of the anesthesia  it took me almost 7 hours to come out of it, so instead of getting the morphine for pain, I got liquid vicoden. Which didn't help me  with the pain very much. But I am adjusting to my new life I am healing pretty fast. I lost 17 pounds since surgery. Im not gonna lie it is harder than i thought it would be. But I am determined to be healthy. I got to my goal of being under 400 pounds by chrisstmas. I was 378 on dec 20th

So i am glad that i had this done. i just cant wait to get on with the rest of my life and be happy

Ok so it's almost Thanksgiving. And this will be my last holiday meal that I will have as the "old" me. I am spending it with my friend Rachael and her family. Three days after that I start my liquid diet. I can't believe how fast time is approaching. I still have to get so many things for after the surgery. I'm worried that my husband will try to screw me over on the money he promised me. I wouldn't be surprised if he tried to do that. After surgery, I'm going to stay with Nicki until I go to my post op appointments and then I am going to move to PA with an old friend. From there I will file for divorce. I am scared to death to be going through all this at one time. But at the same time, it is the start of my new life. And I have the love and support of my friends and family to help me along

Ok. I was approved for my surgery the first time. When I called the insurance company and asked about the status of my surgery claim. I was praying that I would be approved, but when I heard the rep say to me that it was approved, it was like I was in a dream. I almost started crying on the phone. I did cry when I hung up the phone. I told all my friends and family about my surgery. They are all happy for me. I am nervous. I have doubts in myself. I'm always afraid of failure. I wish I had the confidence in myself that everyone else has in me. I'm worried about the temporary hair loss and thinning. I know that might seem petty but , that is the one thing about me that I have always liked.

And it's hard to be positive when my soon to be ex husband is so unfeeling and uncaring towards me. It really hurts me that the man I've been married to for 12 years don't want anything to do with me. Unless it's to dog sit for him. I try to call and talk to him, but he's too busy most of the time to even care about me. I know he don't love me anymore and I don't feel love for him either but if he needed me, I would still be here for him. And that's what really hurts.

But...this is my second chance that I have been looking for. My chance to be healthy

Ok, I've been at my friends house for 2 months now, and within that 2 month time period, I've lost 22 pounds in 22 days. Most all of it was because I cut out all carbonation and caffine. I got into the pair of jeans I bought, that were purposely too small. They are the first pair of zip up jeans I've worn since high school probably. It's been so long i can't even remember. I went to my surgeon. and I also did my nutritionist appointment. Now all I have to do is wait to hear from the insurance company. I pray to God that they approve me. My surgeon said that if they do approve me, I could have my surgery before Christmas. I sure hope he is right.

I am finally at my friends house. only been here like 2 days. but i feel so much better. I went to the Dr today. I finally let him weigh me, and to my surprise, it was less than i thought it would be. I was only 427. And to alot of people that may be a ton of weight, but for me it's better than i thought it would be. That's the first time i have been weighed since 2009, when i had my gallbladder surgery. But i was so happy and shocked to hear those numbers. I am going to morrow to my psychologist appointment. and then i will find out if they contact the surgeon or if i do to make the appointment. that is when i will be really scared. but it's day number 29 of no carbonation, and it is much easier for me than i thought it would be. i do need to eat more fruits and veggies. which isn't bad, because i love fruits and veggies.

well i will post after they psych. eval and see if the Dr thinks I'm crazy or not (hehehe)

I have about 3 weeks til I move to my friend's house. I'm separating from my husband of almost 13 years. He was tired of waiting on me and don't quite understand my health issues. I can't blame him though. I have almost everything packed. I have a dr's appt. on the 29th of this month. And then I have to make an appointment with my surgeon. I am hoping he won't tell me that I have to go on a diet for 6 months. But if he does, he is the doctor, he does know best. I cut out all carbonation about 9 days ago. It isn't as bad as I thought it was going to be. I was completely addicted to coke. I could drink at least a 2 liter or more a day. But now I'm drinking water and crystal light. I've also cut out most all my carbs. I have to say that I feel alot better. And I can't wait to go see the surgeon, even though I hate doctors. But I am just trying to live my life one day at a time