Approved first time.

Nov 12, 2011

Ok. I was approved for my surgery the first time. When I called the insurance company and asked about the status of my surgery claim. I was praying that I would be approved, but when I heard the rep say to me that it was approved, it was like I was in a dream. I almost started crying on the phone. I did cry when I hung up the phone. I told all my friends and family about my surgery. They are all happy for me. I am nervous. I have doubts in myself. I'm always afraid of failure. I wish I had the confidence in myself that everyone else has in me. I'm worried about the temporary hair loss and thinning. I know that might seem petty but , that is the one thing about me that I have always liked.

And it's hard to be positive when my soon to be ex husband is so unfeeling and uncaring towards me. It really hurts me that the man I've been married to for 12 years don't want anything to do with me. Unless it's to dog sit for him. I try to call and talk to him, but he's too busy most of the time to even care about me. I know he don't love me anymore and I don't feel love for him either but if he needed me, I would still be here for him. And that's what really hurts.

But...this is my second chance that I have been looking for. My chance to be healthy

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